My first blog in the year of Bow wow

For those who reading this blog(the one who only read the blog is called Me),just wanna say have a spanking chinese new year!!!May ur life loaded wit fun and of coz,money!!
What i did these few days were all chinese new year celebration related.Started off with the eve.Had my reunion dinner in my grand mom house.Gosh,i ate a lot there.From chicken to fish,to vege to ice cream...wat i ate the most on that nite was the prawn with butter+milk as the sause.It was simply delicious.I even drank the sauce!!After dinner,was the routine chit chat which absolutely i realy not keen on.Back at home,countdown wit my tv and there it goes for my eve.
On first day of cny,the day it was whole day of tv.Not forgotten those programme where those fengshui masters would tell the wats the prediction in the year of dog.For me,as an ox-i was bit confused,some said bad some said good,some even said excellent.Nevertheless,i'm not a great believer for all those predicition-i just beleive in myself in all wat i do.The luck and happiness dun fall on you or automatically knocking on your door,u have to searc,stuggle and grab it.But i do not know why,i believe in Lilian too.Although she said that ox and chicken are heavenly matched but eventually,i break up with my ex.
Then at nite, i had a suprised call form she ying who is now in Ireland.It was preety sweet for me as just called me to wish me a happy chinese new year-Came to my class gathering time.Yeah,a very great gathering which only consist of 5 people instead of 30 some.Anywhere,i had great fun with them-gambling with whopping some of money,actually i did win hehe.
Today,went to my grandmon house again.Gosh,todday it was superbly hot til my underpant was soaked.At nite,just staying at home with tv again but this time i watched da male beauty contest show.I got nothing to say but they r indeed hot..i wish i could be fit like them,sigh.......

CNY:Who let the dogs out?!!

So tommorow,the chicken gonna handover to dog for a brand new year.This wat i like and dislike about the CNY.
Like:::

• Of coz,the new clothes.But then,this year i just bought one pinky shirt,it looks cute to me.I've no idea my tendency to buy new clothes just gone.
• Ang pows $$$.
• Holidays,nevertheless,everyday is holiday for me haha.
• Meet my old and far away friends.I just miss them.
• Fireworks but it is illegal to play.It just sucks!!

Dislike:

• U guys just look up into the sky and u won't see a single cloud.The day is just hot until u drop.
• early in the morning,u need not to rely on your alarm clock to wake you up.U will b waken up by the smoke from the altar.
• gain weight.Yes,during Cny, i will eat non stop from 3 course meals,suppers,tid bits.And the list will go on and on.My face will be getting chubby.
• Relatives visit.It was kinda boring if your relatives which are not close-knit visit you.Almost every year,they will ask or say:Alvin,study hard!!/U in form wat?/in future wat u gonna do-it just a routine for me every year.

Do the world know today is my birthday?

Actually,i'm not in cc haha.I'm in some special place wit a mysterious person to write this blog.The day had finally arrived.23 of jan,yeah,is my 20'th birthday.Though i'm not celebrating in grand scale but i receive so many SMS,messages and phone calls from my friends and not forgotten thos e long lost friends,just wanna say a huge thank you!!!HUGS!!!!Thought u guys really forgotten my birthday.Nevertheless,i will celebrating a warming very belated birthday in few months time,so i gonna wait.Sigh.
Lately,i've been thinking i am really stupid or stubborn to wait for a reply that it seems very hard to reach.I think so but this is all i want for and i will wait til that limit.I guess the limit gona reached soon.So people ,angels,prophets and Da mighty God,bless me!!!!

Do the world know today is my birthday?

2morow is 20'th of Jan

Yeah,thats rite.Only 3 more days to my birthday.But ironically,i do not feel anything and no anticipation at all.What happened to me?I even dun bother about my presents or my brithday cake.Am i going completely insane?or i just preoccupied wit somebody...Sigh.9 more days to Cny,yet, i even havent started my CNY shopping.This time around,i sure will ask my frens or my ex to accompany to buy tonnes of clothes.But not this year.Am i really changed?Now,those special dates like feb of 14,23 of Jan r just only figure to me.It mean nothing for me...

melanCholic Me

Ihave no idea what's going on wit me.I'm getting melancholic day by day.Though the sky is hellish hot and the sky is blue as the sea.But all i can see is just greyish sky without the sun,the leaves are covered with dust..the little butterfly failed to get away from its protective shell .Those which could manage to get off away,the freedom is just a moment as it trapped by the spider web and later,its marvellous wings chewed off segment by segment by the spider.The beggars on the street still carry thiers mug,walking on the burning sun, yet still no one give a penny for him to get a piece of biscuit.Every kids r going to skool now but they really appreaciate the parents who prepare meals for them b4 thier skool and work so hard just to buy the books.Cats on the street, straying on the sidewalk of the restaurants or houses to seek any leftover for them to ensure its milk supply is enough for little kittens.Everybody hurts.Hurt from loved one who said the last goodbye and heading to the heaven's door.Hurt from did not the job well and get scolded from your boss.Workin without knowing the amount of sweat they accumulated.The sky is getting dark and later everyone will go to thier bed.Wondering hat tommorow will bring for them?Promotion?Windfall?Propose? Ordinary day or jst another sad day?Onle heaven knows.Look at the sky.It is still grey and cloudy.And raining soon as the birds flyinh ome to thier nests.What about the dog which abandoned by its owner?Absolute freedom?I dun think so.It still hoping that its owner will take him home someday.Better run before cats and dogs and seek a shelter or sanctuary.What happened to the flowers that bloom breath takingly not long time ago?It all just dead and old.Gonna be the pray for the gardener soon.It seems that every beauty has its time limit.Ugly and death will always be the ending.Now all i can do,is close my eyes.Pray some one who can hear inner voice of me...Jesus?perhaps so..

Give me something that i need that satisfaction guarantee

I have no idea why the year started off badly.HAd some constant quarrel with my lover.It is impossible to hav a couple life without any fight but lately we really almost fight everyday.I have no idea whose fault.But after self reflection for couple of days, i also did mistake as most of the time, i didnt give the suitable support bu instead throw cold water.I really dun want to fight with u bu t i guess since u so pressurized with your work and for me,still can't believe the fact...so any slight mistake will make it very big problem.I really dun want 2 b like this.I want the days like before with all those sweet and sincere words and the strong feel in love.Don;t ever to talk breakin up wit me as i need you to continue with my life......

2006's resolution

Yes,i made a resolution for this challenging 2006.As follow:

• I'm on my knee praying for the job in the place where my loved one is working.I had sent my resume,please God,help me.I dun want to c her alone and lonely there.I don;t care far or high,i dun care about Chinese new year,i just wanna be wit her.I dun care work long hours,shift or 0 hour of sleep,being the one i love so much,it is all worth it.
• Get an good result for my exam.I know it seems very hard as i done badly but i hope i still can manage to show the result slip 2 my parents.
• Watch formula 1 in speang.I know it sounds silly but i really wan to watch.For past few years,my school is the always reason for the cancelation 2 watch this race.Damn my education.
• The most anticipatin event for 2006:spend 1 month plus honeymoon wit my lover.Hope can travel wit her too.Just imagin,everyday i wake up,can give her a good morning kiss,so sweet.
• Education again,yeah getting a good uni and get a good degree.Life is so boring.Ever wonder i could get into uni or not.Actually ,i quite interested to get astro scholarship ,hope i can obtain it and be the next Ted Turner haha.
• World peace.But i know it's only an utopian.

TWist of Fate

Can't believe that 2006 is gonna be so challenging although the year only 1 week old.Yes,i wil be all alone as my mom will be leaving to switz for a year in this CNY.I can't be mommy little boy anymore.Although i'm not feel extreme sad but i feel excited,weird huh?>
CNy is coming and yet i could not find any job.I'm so hopeless.Maybe i'm too fussy about those jobs i found but this is me,fussy guy.Hope i could find a job in the place where my lover is working now haha.
Lately,just busy finding works,writing letters and resume and helping my mom to do da procedure b4 she leaving to switz.Oh yeah, last wednesday i accompany my fren to buy rabbit though her rabbit is lost now.The rabbit was small-size of my palm and kinda cute.But i do not favor rabbit as it could not provide any help in my house.What i really prefer is cat haha.It can provide me companion and it could catch lizards in my house plus the cockroach too.
The yeAR gonna be 2 weeks old,i hope my resolution will be fulfilled very soon-Get a job where my loer is working now.God,please help me!!!!

BoTh SiDes Now

new Year really sucks..never thought i will missing somebody til on the verge of death.Rows and flows of angel hairAnd ice cream castles in the airAnd feather canyons everywhereI've looked at clouds that way.But now they only block the sun.They rain and they snow on everyone.So many things I would have done.But clouds got in my wayI've looked at clouds from both sides now.From up and down, and still somehowIt's cloud illusions I recallI really don't know clouds at all.
Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels.The dizzy dancing way that you feel.As every fairy tale comes realI've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show.And you leave 'em laughing when you go.And if you care, don't let them know.Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now.From give and take, and still somehow.It's love's illusions I recallI really don't know love.Really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud.To say "I love you" right out loud.Dreams and schemes and circus crowdsI've looked at life that way
Oh but now old friends they're acting strange.And they shake their heads.And they tell me that I've changed.Well something's lost but something's gained.In living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now.From win and lose and still somehow.It's life's illusions I recallI really don't know life at all.It's life's illusions I recallI really don't know lifeI really don't know life at all.........

2006: a Bad start...full of ?????

Sigh,this is a new year but why it seems it's very dark for me.Though i celebrated the new year under the bright fire works,but the intensity of the fireworks did not really light up my spirit for the new year.I could not even countdown wit my loved one.Now it may seem that my comin birthday and 14'th of Feb,without my loved one present.
No need to say my new yeAR resolution.I even dun hav thought for that.Every resolution will be ended up with other way round which i do not want it that way should be.I do not know where should i go this year..going up to the hill to acompany my present loved one and spend few months workin there or just staying at myhome town which the old loved that i cant still left behind.God,just give me some guidance and peace.I really dun wan anything happen between both of them.I dun want my loved one will simply leave me like this.
Haihz........happy new year!!