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Monday, June 26, 2006

Please give everyone a chance 2 study..education here is suxx

Before i start my blog..i have ask myself am i look like a kid?Just now,an unkwon fellar shouted my name.So, i got near to the person.He is my ex PRIMARY schoolmate.Almost 10 years we didn't see each other.So the point is,how he remember me for such period?Is it my face didt change at all?Am i still look a kid.I don't think so.Maybe it is undeniable i really boyish.
Anyway, back to edcuation stuff.Education here is kinda scary.No matter how good your result is,nomatter how much effort you put for your exam, but in the end, you ust given a SMS which goes: Dukacita dimaklumkan anda tidak berjaya masuk ke IPTA.Thats what you get for your 2 years.I know it is logical to be rejected if your result really bad but ..this is the evidence.One of my friend who got GPCA(some sort of point from the exam) 3 ++ and really good in extra curricular,so she is offered fisheries which she didnt even apply.Then,got a case who a guy score 3.6++ and all he got is wood techno.What the heck is that?And most is sickening is the people who didnt get any offer.Do they deserve this?Are there not enough place for them?Or they got thier own hidden agenda?The places are reserved perhaps?come on,we need to rectify this problem.Goand do something..we voted for you guys
I hope i could see a day which every child in the world got thier basic education.Education should be given equally regardless of thier race,economical background and gender.I know this kinda misfortune still goin on in other country but i really do hope it wont happen here.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

I'm gonna make u proud

This is very tough.I at the crossroad again.My close ones are very afraid that i making a wrong decision and regret my whole life for rejecting the offer.Likewise from my friends,they encourage me to study what i really interested and make a significant career in the future.thank you so so much for the moral support.I already make the choice but yet still unable to materialize the option that i've made.So guys,just pray for me.
So, it's been awhile the result was out.3 of my ex classmates are going to UM ,i'm not quite sure who got medicine course.Quite number of them also like me, given a wrong course and wrong location.I wish you good luck for the appeal.Hope you guys get what u really want.For those who didnt get any offer at all, don't give up.Anywhere,alomost 10 person and counting in my class including me, reject the offer and study privately.Just go for it on whatever you do and whatever u interested.I 've got a friend who got an offer in UM but since it is a wrong course,she reject it.
Now my only problem is where i going to go and the clock is ticking..tick tuck...sigh...

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

What on earth?civil Engineering?

Guys,do you have any idea where is KUKTEM is?Please raise your hand.I guess many of you no idea it is.It is somewhere in Pahang.Yupe.The gov offered me civil engineering there.Apprently civil engineering is my 6'th or 7th choice.Okay wrong location and reluctant course.I don' even know there is such existance.My friends asked me" hey,what uni u got?' 'Kuktem" i answered.This is the most of thier answers: WHAT?WHERE IS THE UNI? One of my friend even worse.This was what she said:KUKTEM?Is the course they offered you?Dude,no where i going there.
Why like people close to me like throwing cold water at me and discourage me to do mass com.I do not like discouragement.Ok,you can give me an advice but hey,if you got opinion which is wrong channel with me,please let it out in a proper way.Honestly,i really no interest doing civil engineering although it has offer a bright future and $$$.This is not as my career.Sorry for being non realistic.I envisage career as something you interested in which with your ability and knowledge,you making your life more meaningfuland colourful.No idea what i saying huh?Is like you an hyperactive person and friendly person.Your dream is to be a radio deejay.But sadly,since the flow here is medicine is making loads of money and is a professional job..radio dj?nonsense and won't making a bright future.So you just go with the flow,ended up doing the things you don't like for your whole life.Is your life dude.You are responsible for it.Nobody can draw the blueprint for your future, only you can decide what you want for the future.I know career is related to money.But for me,moderation is the key.4 meals per day,a car and a house and power of purchasing is not a matter,it will be a satisfactory for me.The whopping money you've got in the pocket will mean nothing if you doing things you don't like.
I really wanna do what i really interested but now like everyone discourage me.How could this happen to me?

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Time of My life

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Thursday, June 15, 2006

My Own Idol

Lately, boredom is just my subject of my day.Everyday i wake up,. the wored B.O.R.E.D just paste it on my forehead.The time right now i shall feel butterflies in my stomach for the next Friday which the result of the enrolment will be out.As i grow older, my character also having a major change.
Anyway, i applying some sort of scholarship which the chance that i obtain it is just tip of the iceberg.So,when come to essay part of the scholarship application,my mind is just big question mark on what i'm gonna answer.One of the question is: which historical person or prominent figure that you admire and why?I just don't know.I really have many people that i idolize but when it comes to this situation,i just can't burst it out.
Political figure?Pak Lah?Dr. M?I know there is a fiasco in the air between them but i guess Dr.M got the right to give his opinion.I don't think the people or the ministers so react like so extremely serious.Just look at developed nation, even the Prime Misnister or President criticized by his own cabinets or his party.I will label; this as transparency.Mr.Bush?For crying out loud,i will never idolized him.Til this day,what's the purpose of waging a war on Iraq.Just topple Saddam?Is any weapon of mass destruction there.I don't think so.This war like so fabricated and full of lies.Just get a dvd entitled Farenhit 9/11. This documentary is about the hidden agenda of his administration.Anyhow,i won't put political figure as the answer.Politic is just too fake for me.I want real thing!!
Warriors?Gosh, only warrior nowadays is the soldiers.Besides, i not even born when Napolean,Julius Caesar,Alexander the Greg,Genghis Khan and etc were holding thier swords in the battlefield.So,warriors are too ancient.
Entrepreneur?Businessman?I really don't know much about this stuff.I just know the making whopping sum of money.Bill Gates?Well,he's kinda okay for me.Though he is freaking rich but he has done lots of charity deeds.Good on you.Our own Malaysian Tony Fernandez also not bad.The brainchild of Air Asia.What about the Genting founder?Yeah,i do respect him as he from a humble beginning from just piece of forest on the peak on a mountain till like city in the sky.But sorry dude,i just hate Genting.I guess for the next 5 years,i won't go there.Thanks to my ex.....I don;t think these people deserved to be my respected figure cause i don't know which way where they inspire.They only taught me perseverance.I don't want my respected figure something to do with thier money.I want someone down to earth.
Celebraties?Well,close but not.I do respect people with thier talent and substance.Especially the singers who can write thier songs and play music instruments.Like Teddy Gieger,John Mayer and Lee Hom.Our own Daniel Lee also not bad,decent,know numerous of musical instrument,humble.By the way,i just love guys who can play piano.I know is sound gayish.But it just kills me when a young handsome guy play piano in front of me.Thats what i call sexy.Just imagine lee hom playing the piano in frotn of you.I',m sure the gurlz will feel weak on thier kness.I also love the rock bands.They are awesome like Keane, the Killers and so on.Above of all,the most i prefer and i worship is The Beatles.This is not outdated.Thier lyrics are awesome.They are simply inspiring even til today. But sadly,they were disband before i born.I can't really feel their heyday in the 60's.Speaking words of wisdom: let it be.
Alright,alright.Too much blogging.Well, when people ask about who is my idol or the person i respected the most.Parents?Thats too general.Teachers?No comment.My lover?Well,she is more than an idol for me hehe.But one person popped up in my mind which is Oprah Winfrey.This lady here is down to earth,brilliant, smart, humble,young at heart,charitable,billionaire and so much more-she is like angel in disguise.I can;t really tell you how she inspires me.Though many people will say i like a woman watching her show but you try to watch her show is life related and many many lesson can be learnt through her show.She is way too generous.I like her Wildest Dreams' programme.Giving the houses and even decoreted for the poor.Giving the audience each and everyone a brand new car, utmost concern for the victims of natural disasters like Katrina.Just watch her show and you will know what i trying to say and you will know how inspiring she is.Here are some quotes by her,just simply meaningful:
  • My philosophy is that not only are you responsible for your life, but doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment.
  • Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right
  • The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams.
  • Be more splendid, more extraordinary. Use every moment to fill yourself up.
  • You are built not to shrink down to less but to blossom into more.
  • Let your light shine. Shine within you so that it can shine on someone else. Let your light shine.
  • believe that [everyone] is the keeper of a dream - and by tuning into one another's secret hopes, we can become better friends, better partners, better parents, and better lovers
  • Before you agree to do anything that might add even the smallest amount of stress to your life, ask yourself: What is my truest intention? Give yourself time to let a yes resound within you. When it's right, I guarantee that your entire body will feel it.
  • Challenges are gifts that force us to search for a new center of gravity. Don't fight them. Just find a different way to stand.
  • The key to realizing a dream is to focus not on success but significance - and then even the small steps and little victories along your path will take on greater meaning
  • It is confidence in our bodies, minds and spirits that allows us to keep looking for new adventures, new directions to grow in, and new lessons to learn - which is what life is all about

Monday, June 12, 2006

My love, she throws me like a rubber ball

Actually i wanna blog below the unwritten video bu then due to the website techincal problem,i can't.Anyway, this song is kinda great ,though you rarely hear it in Malaysia but is a huge hit in US.
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your innovations Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten .............
That's kinda my situation,my atmosphere or should i say the theme song of the moment now.I can put it into my soon -studies life and my love life.
In few weeks time i'm gonna live Ipoh and begin a new chapter somewhere.Yet, the destination is still unfolded but keep my finger crossed i've got offer in Kay-el.Why?I've got loads of friends there even the friends there are more than Ipoh.So, you know the reason why that i always hang out with the same perosn here in Ipoh.Besides, i guess someone is waiting for me there.Nevertheless,the quality of universities there are remarkable.Fear and excitement still is the subject of the day for me as now is really the time i have to go for veyr long time.But, i'll take it with open arms and as a challenge.Just bring it on.
So,my love life.this lovey dovey thing,kinda sweet actually.Though both of us still havent committed and officially declare to be couple but i can really see good things in us.It is way too fast to commit but i really hope one day i could call you dear.My eyesight won't be bad and i'm sure i wont find a wrong person again.Well, you may feel that:Alvin?So fast you've got target?Yeah i know is fast but love i slike a chance for me.I won't let go when the love comes.What about my ex?No need worry about her.I guess she is happier and having a fantastic life without me.Anyway, i wish her all the best but we're still friends rite?I still concern about her.
Next,sometimes i really puzzled what she trying to say; having the happiest moment of my life.Well, i'm not happy till can jump on the bed like a mad man but then i really feel sweet.I feel excited and my heart was like pierced by the cupid's arrow.I miss you very very much.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

UnWritten

Friday, June 09, 2006

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Thursday, June 08, 2006

Beautiful Girl

Beautiful girl, wherever you areI knew when I saw you, you had opened the doorI knew that I'd love again after a long, long whileI'd love again.You said "hello" and I turned to goBut something in your eyes left my heart beating soI just knew that I'd love again after a long, long whileI'd love again.It was destiny's gameFor when love finally came onI rushed in line only to findThat you were gone.Whenever you are, I fear that I mightHave lost you forever like a song in the nightNow that I've loved again after a long, long whileI've loved again.It was destiny's gameFor when love finally came onI rushed in line only to findThat you were gone.Beautiful girl, I'll search on for you'Til all of your loveliness in my arms come trueYou've made me love again after a long, long whileIn love againAnd I'm glad that it's youHmm, beautiful girl.
Nice lyric eh? When you hear this song,it even more awesome.The singer is Jose Mari Chan.I'm not kidding.This the name of the singer.I love this song very very much especially a time like this.This special kind of feeling won't seem to go.Is gonna be one week soon.The feeling rite now is sweet but longing of something.Something which doesnt not have the answer.I really wish you could make the most.I really looking forward in you...I really wish i'm the beautiful girl in the song...Just keep my finger crossed that i will be close to you.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Love Is In The air?

I should blog about 666 today but my mind is keep on thinking something else.I've got this special kinda feeling.I don't know what it is.It is weird.I just can't stop thinking about it.I know is not there but i feeling it.I really don't have adequate of sleep becoz of this cause it just pop up in my mind.Whats wrong wit me?But this kinda of situation is awefully awesome.It does cheer me up...
Lately, i like to hymm some songs especially 'if Ain't got You'.Isn't this song lovely and meaningful especially you know the meaning of it.Like this phrase:Some people live just to play the game.Sometimes,i think love is just a game..You have to know the way to play to reach your goal and abide the rules at all time.Once the rule is broken,the hell go with you.Thats what i lesson i learn.But anywhere, i'm not oloking for that game love.I want the true and unconditional love.
Some people think that the physical thingsDefine what's withinI've been there beforeBut that life's a boreSo full of the superficial.I've seen many people including my friends which worship materialism.Can't satisfy what they've got and envy about people's possession.Yup,i admit i being that loser before but it just silly.Living in life in moderation,that is the best way.
Some people need three dozen rosesAnd that's the only way to prove you love them.Love for me need not 24/7 to be pleased.I mean do not have to do sweet love all time like saying how much you love me or miss me but sometimes need to say also if not,i will scare you really don't love me.How to prove the way you love me?Just be yourself and take me to become your soul companion,your life partner.You those spiritual aspect those stuff.Hard 2 explain.
Some people want it allBut I don't want nothing at allIf it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you babySome people want diamond ringsSome just want everythingBut everything means nothingIf I ain't got you...Why i blogging this stuff?!Am i in love?But is way too fast.If the time comes,why not....
To elansangelmir,thanks for your comment.The song is Goodbye my Lover by James Blunt.

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Me?Faithless?

I know i shouldn't feel like this.I just can't help it.I'm not that cheerful Alvin anymore.I really miss that Alvin.I feel myself have fallen.Love is one of the reason but the surronding and the situation are other factors.I got ambition and dreams but i feel like pessimistic...My pathway is very very hazey like distracted by mist.I don't know what to do,maybe i just keep holdtight my faith.

Goodbye my lover

I know is no where we gonna restart everything for now.We really got a lot of problems between us,seems no way to resolve it.Maybe separation is the best way,maybe you will better without me.Maybe you will become free like a bird.Maybe you will find someone better than me.I guess lighting won't strike twice at the same place,so i hope you will find better than me.I hope that person won't bring calamity or sorrow for you.What about me?I stil think of you but your ignorance is making my left over love faded away.Ignorance is not bliss for me.I hate that.But i hope someday soon,i'll get the chance to meet you for very last time for time being.I hope we still friends.Futhermore,i don't mind treat you as my own brother as i still very concern about you.
In future,if we both single,i don't mind you to become my lover again.I really saw the beauty in this universe when i'm with you.I really do.Thank you..i''ll be your side whenever you need me.Like the S Club 7 songs which is your favourite song....Everybody's got something they had to leave behindOne regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with timeThere's no use looking back or wonderingHow it could be now or might have beenOh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you knowI've never had a dream come trueTill the day that I found youEven though I pretend that I've moved onYou'll always be my babyI never found the words to sayYou're the one I think about each dayAnd I know no matter where life takes me toA part of me will always be with youSomewhere in my memoryI've lost all sense of timeAnd so my road can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mindThere's no use looking back or wonderingHow it could be now or might have beenOh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Besdies that song,here is james blunt for you.....Did I disappoint you or let you down?Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.So I took what's mine by eternal right.Took your soul out into the night.It may be over but it won't stop there,I am here for you if you'd only care.You touched my heart you touched my soul.You changed my life and all my goals.And love is blind and that I knew when,My heart was blinded by you.I've kissed your lips and held your head.Shared your dreams and shared your bed.I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I am a dreamer but when I wake,You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.And as you move on, remember me,Remember us and all we used to beI've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.I've watched you sleeping for a while.I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.I know your fears and you know mine.We've had our doubts but now we're fine,And I love you, I swear that's true.I cannot live without you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.And I still hold your hand in mine.In mine when I'm asleep.And I will bear my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.