31'th oF Aug

Time really flies.We come to the end of aug,almost on the verge of end of the year.I remember last year's today,i still staying late at night to prepare my trial exam.But now i already in my first year.Many things happened along the way regardless ups or downs.The sweet moments in my class.Miss them a lot.Well,life goes on rite?
Anywhere, yesterday i didnt really had da celebration though i went to few occasions.Firstly, i went to Kait's church conference.Fortunately,i bumped Kusum and Leeisha again( apparently,they are oversea coursemates-from Mauritius and Maldives respectively) so i wont be a stranger in a foreign land.So,how was it? It was pretty alright and kinda happening and much alive.I didnt sit there for the whole thingy so i can gave the total comment.But some of the sermon is kinda meaningful.And got the chance to see the 2006 Astro Talent winner.He's only 19 but got big achievement.so when i reflect on me,what i did achieve?kinda thoughful question on me....i blog about this later........meanwhile i had dinner at Manhattan.
I sneaked out from the conference about 10 pm and headed to KTM to meet Adrian.Damn adrian, i have to cancel my date with ahem just accompany you to Sentral, but then is alright,friends rite? consequently, we just had our countdown in Sentral without fireworks and just celebrated with Mc s burgers and Mcflurry.What an outstanding celebration.
Today, is a no planned day for me.woke up at 1 pm!!!!Went to pyramid again(apparently, sunway pyramid is already certified as my second home) to have lunch and bought some grocery stuff.Boring eh>?Single is people like me is lifeless.Poor alvin......

aSsignments...are maneater

So back to kl again.The hectic is lingering back.Damn it.due my overload of ass,here are some brief recaps of whats really going these past few days.

Friday.Pretty much nothing to do.Eat like horse again and did some unfortunate and forced reading.In night, went out at almost 12 am and hang out with Hansen til 4 something.Yeah,two bachelors who still unattached,so we like have a bachelor night.

Saturday.the day when my girl friend back( not lover ok)Gosh,so miss her.so as usual,we did hang out and did stupid stuff,i mean not into sex ok?.We went to JJ almost 10 pm and the store would be closing at 1030 pm.so, in these 30 minutes,it was like Explorace,we had rushed to buy , mascara and clothes , tonnes of clothes.Phew,fortunately we got what we want.After that,we went to Tesco.Is kinda ironic you know as we are so broke but yet we still treat ourselves like shopaholic.Nah,i didn't buy anything but she did.So, before we said good bye to our rendervouz, we did hang out at Imax til almost 3.Thats nuts!!By the way, she is not my lover ok.

Sunday.Back to kl.The journey was really suxx.The bus's engine was noisy till i got ear sore and it stinks!!Yes,the bus stink.The odour was just unbearable.Imagine yourself trapped in a room which loaded with stinking rubbish.Yucks!!Anywhere, we reached about 4 something and had window shoppin with Melz in Subang Parade.Unfortunately, she didnt get what she really really really wanted.Followed by car breakdown along the way home.Shit!!

Monday.The begining of the assignment saga.Dude, it did killing me.No sleep,eye beg was like so damn obvious and big freaking acne on my face.Thanks ass.

Tuesday.Still in the ass saga.But today,i did my only test in this sem.Well, the test is pretty ok for me at least i'm not giving the blank paper.So, i just keep my fingers crossed.

Wednesday.People!! It is my independence day.Today is the day which i handing in my last ass.Praise the lord that i finally finish my ass.But since my ass is done, no idea what to do next.Futhermore,is merdeka eve.Sadly, this single Alvin is undated.Is it?

LiFe is likE ChocolaTe

Life is like chocolate, it is bitter but is blended with sweetness-copy from Forest Gump-Meaningful rite?Though in life you see the world is a pathetic place for you to live on but,if you explore it or face it,the outcome is awesome...maybe i should put this words of wisdom into my love's issue.I'm just a guy who got big L on the forehead in this.Poor Alvin.
Anywhere, this week is really really extremely hectic week for me thanks to my assignments.Midnight oil, eye bag,sleepness night-dear, assignments, you gonna pay for this!!So gonna do a simple recap here.
Monday, was the last day for me to prepare my presentation on the Gender.Ok,it was my first formal presentation which marks wil be judged not only by my lecturer but by my coursemates as well.So,it was like butteflies in my stomach coz in Form 6, i didnt really expose this presentation thingy.So is like a novice in this area.Meanwhile,at night, ihad dinner with Darren and his friend.Ok,a steamboat dinner to be precise.Well, since my stomac is way too small, it was abundance for me and full til my throat.I have no idea since Darren is kinda skinny,he ate a lot!!!Good metabolism i suppose.Sometimes,i think i'm bit weird in my eating behaviour.I eat very very slow pace.Is not that i'm sluggish but then if i eat too fast,i feel uncomfortable.WEirdo...
Tuesday,The d Day for me.How was it?Good.Coz i didnt really shaky or panicky though i refer to my notes most of the time haha.But lots of credits to Michelle ,my partner.I felt that she's awesome in presenting and of coz,her ice breaking was awesome.The class was so alive not just a one way but my fellow coursemates did really give response.Cool!
Wednesday, it was bad day.Late for Dr Lean's class again and read the wrong stuff-unprepared for her class.Sigh..And worst of all,i had do my minor essay from 5 pm til 2 am.Sob sob....my eyes were sore and my mind was not functioning well...sigh...How could this happened to me?
Today, kinda chill day for me coz i backed to Ipoh.A air to breath at last.....

Assignment BluEs

So,back to kl again.It was tired.Hell tired.I no idea with my friends in kl, they are all outstation.I'm don't mean that i'm mummy's little boy who need people to pick me up but it was dangerous to travelling alone at night.Sigh...Where all the good people gone?
Anywhere,i still struggling with assignment.Is not easy or hard but it is loaded.EThe due dates clash with each other.So,i need a rope to hang myself.Today it is monday blue again.You never know how hard am i to open up my eyes and pretending to listening to the lecturer.Beside, tomorrow is my presentation.....gosh!!!

Loving yoU MAkes My life Worth Living

I'm gonna blog real fast here as i need 2 go home as very very late.Basically, i've got notthing to blog as lately,my life is just loaded with assignments.Can;t wait for the next 2 weeks as my life will enligthen without my assignments and my mid sem break.Oh yeah!Actually nothing to hoo haa about as you know my life lately kinda dull.Not much spectacular.No lover to colour my life.Anywhere,somebody asked me a once in a lifetime question.He some sorta photographer in model agency in kl.So,he asked me, do u interested to work as a model for Nokia?I was like what?Me?I don't even have the model look and i look skinny.He said modelling nowadays want something new.Well,i dunno he just pulling my leg or what,but if we can talk about this in more detail,i will nod.Come on, model for Nokia.Appear in TV.Then everyone will say to me" hey are u that Nokia guy?'So krewl dude.But then, i dunno it will work for me but i really looking forward.Fortune and fame....oh yeah!!!
Anywhere, today's title is courtesy of Dennis.I really really sweeten by his nick in MSN!!!Hope someday,somebody will say this phrase to me-p/s: Dennis is my lil bro.

You're BeAutifUl......Muakzz

Time flies really really fast.Today is already Thurs,which means weekends for me haha.Actually i already backed in Ipoh.Home sweet home indeed.It was so relaxing here and more greenary compared to kl.And of coz...the food.I had a big bowl of laksa here just after i stepped outta bus.I miss the food here so much.
Though it feel so warm to return home but the assignment follows me too.Praise the lord that my CCS's due date has been postponed.So my main focus now is my presentation and my minor essay.And i hate REFERENCING!!!I no idea how i gonna survive for next week.
On the other hand, the title for today blog it seems kinda sweet eh?Think again.I still recuperating ok?but getting better.Thats saying in chinese which goes : what matter most is love is the possession, not looking for a long lasting love.Ok,maybe i could take this saying for me to feel better.So,i really wanna say big thank you for giving the 15 minutes-the time when both of us in the car and had the casual chat.I really apppreaciate it.Though i'm not fully recover but i getting better.If you really love a person, you should let him/her go......
So this song really match today's blog....hope i could c u again.Friends rite?A picture of us and a long warm hugs....thats all i want from you....

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL
James Blunt
Singingfool.com

My life is brilliant.My love is pure.I saw an angel.Of that I'm sure.She smiled at me on the subway.She was with another man.But I won't lose no sleep on that,'Cause I've got a plan.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.Yeah, she caught my eye,As we walked on by.She could see from my face that I was,Fucking high,And I don't think that I'll see her again,But we shared a moment that will last till the end.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.There must be an angel with a smile on her face,When she thought up that I should be with you.But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.

right back what is Wrong...we move Along

2006 gonna turns 9 months old soon.So far, this year sucks.First of all,i didnt get the course that i wanted for my local uni.what iwas given was non-bio course in KUKTEM.(kuktem is in pahang anywhere).Thank god now i doing a foregin degree locally which alliance with UniSa.Secondly, this year really sucks because my love-more precise; my failed relationship.Starting of they year, my ex broke up with me and she broke the sacred promise.Those days,it was so excruciating for me to recover and it took me 3 months to be ok.We look like ended our relationship in a spectacular manner but we're still remain as friends.Now, is like deja vu again-the same kinda feeling.Yeah this love fool here is being rejected.Sigh.I know is not worth it to put hope in it anymore as she alreasy choosen who is most suitable for her.All i can do is wish her luck.Anything you still got me k?i feel like i myself like a love fool or a big loser in love.Always fail in relationship-am i that bad?
Movc on to wat is happening today.Today i late for Dr Lean's class again.Don't blame me-blame the bus driver,he's late again.And sorry to my lecturer too as i didnt read the articles.So..most of the time i have 0 idea on what answer should i give.Besides,today it is a lawesome day for me and for my classmates too.The CCR class canceled.Yahoo!!!So went home so early today,11 am!!!Though my coursemates asked me for movie but then due to the unfinished assignment..i can;t....It is rather sad you know- oxy moron-coz since the class finished so early,it is sweet to call your lover to pick you up and later on hang out at shopping mall or perhaps watching a nice movie.Sigh.Maybe i don't really have a cherry blossom luck this year but who knows the one who is really perfect for me is till somewhere out there.

the heArt is Broken Piece by Piece...But still Alive

Days gone by but nothing in the end.Why this phrase always happening to me?Did i do anything wrong to deserve this?This is sickening.
So, the fella who i confesseed was taken by someone else.How do i feel?Hurt and sad but still composed.Still standing.Maybe myself got lots of disadvantages and maybe we just barely know each other.I respect your decision.I hope he will bring happiness to you and take good care of you.Whenever you do or you got trouble or u need somebody to talk to,remember me,i'll stand by you.Though we could not be couple,don;t hesitate to hang out with me k?I treat you as my very close friend or brother should i say.I'll be your no 1 in terms of friend or brother.Luv ya....
Nah..i'm not pretending to be ok but i really mean.She chose the one so i could do is wish her all the best.Though is sad but i will be glad to see her enjoyin her love.Sigh..so,i'm single and available perhaps?Not now dude as i need time to recover again.

My 200'th blog......the MisErable one

Dude..i really dun like this kinda feeeling.Every morning i wake up, the feeling of emptiness is floating above my head.You know is like void of something.So lonely.Is killing me.I rather take a bottle of sleeping pills and wake up in the state of intoxication.Can forget my current situation.Feel like i'm loser.My foundation to get on with life is being shaken.How long i have to endure this?1 month?A year? forever?How i wish i never met him.So i won't be this miserable....i really wanna know what happened......please

Stars R blind...love too

Once again.I'm broke again.Why?Coz i bought so many stuff for her.Though the stuff is considered rather cheap but you know ,i'm just an average guy,so is quite burdensome for me in terms of financial.Sigh..but my love can't be judged by coins and notes.the Things i doing now is just for you..every star that i've made is blended with my love...i just wanna tell you i'm not a jerk or a playboy.The situation now is rather complicated and confused and i don't know why you so mad at me.Did i say someting wrong?Did i coz u some misunderstandings?Or you just bombarded at me purposely so i can forget about you?Think again.It won't work me.I'm might be a loser in other aspect but for love and you,i will fight it till my last breath.I dunno why u said those words to me.It was really pain..was like a pinch in my heart and soul.Read my lips; I swear with my name and God as the witness that i never look down on you or have a bad impression on you.Neither have a bad intention nor taking advantage on you.Maybe that time you're moody but no need til like avoiding me.This is so inappropiate...this is hurting me.Please, believe me,i'm not a jerk.I just wish to be with you and be beside you when you're down...that's all.No hidden agenda.
Sometimes i asked myself and my friends asked me since you've got so many people eyeing on you, why not you go after them.Why you choose instead the one who is harsh and cold on you.Well, love is blind.Many people will think that i'm just a player who more concern about her look(she looks cute anywhere) but they are so damn wrong.I'm not a player.I'm innocent guy who still believe in true love and i already seeking and i hope you're the one for me.I promise you andi swear,i treat you good,bring you joy andi'll be with you no matter what situation you in....
Anywhere, this evening really wanna say big thank you for Ken for his kindness to taking us down to UM and mid Valley.Dude, really sorry coz causing you so much trouble and took you down to the wrong roads hehe.Sorry.
So,this is the first time i entered UM.Gosh, is freaking big.We even took 5-10 minutes just to pick up my friend from her hostel./why is so big?I wonder how the students going to thier class...By foot?gosh,poor thing......

P/S: this is my 199'th blog.The figure of 99 is a symbol of long lasting.So,i just wanna tell to the very special person:Please don't ignore me.You already stop sms me and stop picking my call.It is very hard for me to swallow.Please stop that okie.A simple sms for me will do.I'm very sorry ......please forgive me.Though i still not sure where the problem pop up but i know somewhere along the line,i did something wrong and stupid.I'm sorry and please explain to me why you so mad at me.I hope before i going back,i could see you as i wanna give something to you.....Hope you doing fine...Take care.I'll be waiting...i know you mention before that you prefer a guy who can do more than words.I know my blog is just a silly thing but i really mean every word i said here.I'll to do more in action but you already close the door for me...

AlmosT paraDise..but in The enD, still on the ground

You know this kinda situation,when people esp the loved ones offer you a something significant to you or a promise is keep for you,but in the end...there's nothing or rather something bad happens like the promise is broken,or the things he or she offers you have a hidden agendas.Thats what i feeling today.I'm sad,pissed off and dissapointed.I will even more pissed if you were doin some sorta of test of me.If not,i really wanna know what happened.Are you still moody til this level?i hope you will doing fine soon.Don't take it like end of the world,k?You see,i'm really pissed and almost break down but then maybe i reall love you too much, telling you to take care with an anger feeling.
Anywhere,is weekend again.whats my plan.Though is a fantastic,awesome and once in a lifetime weekend but then is ruined.Is like a nice beautiful vase hits the ground and disintegrates piece by piece.Poor alvin.so,i guess i staying at home and being Mr lonely.Reading the readers which is alien for me.Watch tv which is 0 entertainment and finish my bottle of stars which no idea why i doin it since da fellar is like 'cold' and angry with me.Sometimes,i did my soul searching.Am i too innocent in this love kinda thingy?Is such thing called true love?Though i hurt before but i still believe in.......i hope the person that i on to right now,reading this blog; I'm so sorry if my any words or deeds offended you,i never really mean it.Maybe i misunderstood or i did something which i made you disappointed.Here by,i sincerely,with my bottom of my heart and depth of my soul:Sorry.I know myself could not reach your requirement but i won't give up.Falling into you.....

Falling For Youby Danielle R. Valentine
When I very first saw you there,
I just had to stop and stare.
It was a weird vibe I got,
but I didn’t want it to stop.
I began to realize I was falling for you,
I didn’t know how it could be true.
I just knew you were sent from up above,
So, I told all my friends about my secret love.
Every time you passed me by,
I felt higher than the sky.
When we finally talked to one another,
we both knew we were meant for each other.
Although we never would say,
we were in love more and more each day.
I wanted to scream and shout,
that I loved you, but I held out.
I soon began to really fall,
when you began to call.
I just had to make you see,
that you’re the only one for me.
I wrote you a note that said how I felt,
if I didn’t, my heart was going to melt.
We both should’ve said something before,
but we still would’ve wanted each other even more.
To many months that we had been hiding our passion,
it finally burst like a new trend or fashion.
I finally had you in my arms,
I’m free of all harm.
Now that I have you here with me,
Our love will always be.
I know together we’ll always stay,
And I know you won’t ever go away.
Our love will never end,
for I keep falling for you over and over again

Things i do For lovE

it is already 2am.I still sitting in front of table and facing the computer.My physical is already calling me to sleep but my mind still active.Maybe i longing to something.So wass up with me lately?Kinda hectic actually as my assignments are keep on flowing in withot sign of stopping.Damn it.I have been burning midnight oil since monday..my eyes beg now is dark and ugly.YEW!!Please please lectures..give mercy on me or us..we don't mindof the assignment but the boredom you given is testing us.
Actually,this time is the first time i blog in my apartment coz i jus got the modem for my computer.Is kinda cool eh?But then seriously now i just stole people's wireless network to online hehe.
Back to my title above:erm...sometimes love could make you to do the things that you wouldn't thought you would do.So, this is what i doing.I bought a origami papers to make a bottle of stars for the person which i loved rite now.Sweet eh?Actually,origami or any kind of art activity is like a bullshit to me.Coz i think is wasting my time and will lost temper easily when the things go wrong.But for now, is different.Just now Adrian taught me of making the stars with paper.Is kinda hard for me really coz i suck in doin this but then after almost 2 hours of painstakingly of trying,i could make a mediocre star.Til my fingers got bruised by the sharp points of the stars.Poor alvin.I hope she will likes it.Although is kinda old fashion but then it is my sign of sincerity of having you though my main concern is know you better first.Hope can see you soon and have a personal talk wit you.Gosh...i damn freaking missing you.I don;t have guts to sms you as i scare you will label me as annoying.Somehow,somewhere..i wish you and me will be together as one...though my hope is just like a fish in an ocean but this fish in deeply in love with you......

Slit My tHroAt..become a Love SuiciDe

nah..dun worry..just a title..i mean a wide eyes opening title.So backed to KL.Actually the journey was rather fuck up as the bus delayed about 2 hours.But thank god,the bus could really speed.So,the travelling time was only 2 hours.It was bit dangerous coz..u know bus is lack of stability.When i reached KL, i was exhausted..praise the Lord for sending ahem someone to pick me up.Thank you Mr.Someone.
Today is a bad day actually.Unfinished assignments and miss the bus and went to college late.Luckily,the lecturer didnt say anything.I was 30 minutes late hehe.And then, thanks to my curiosity and i read my someone's blog.Found out something which does not favour to me.But actually yesterday,she indicated that lots of ppl is eyeing on her.Dude,is not that i don't have courage and confidence but i'm scare being rejected though i wanna know the truth.In my love principal, i can't accept any lost.Now is not rejection nor acceptance.Maybe i'm just Mr.Nobody for her.Maybe i don't look attractive enough.Maybe you just see my lwas.Maybe i cant crack ajoke to make you smile.Maybe is not your time to be committed.I'm not sure i can give to you.I don't have magnetic eyes to attract your eyes.I don't have muscled hands to catch you when u fall.I don;t have 6 feets to reach the place whihc unreachable for you.I don;t have tough strong body to protect you from harm.I don;t have any talent to entertain you when you down or lonely.My tongue is tied so i cant speak the sweet sweet words for you.My wallet is just loaded with red notes,so i can't buy the world for you.My backbone is weak,i cant be that supportive for you in physical aspect.My brain is dumb,so i can't able solve your problems.But these are my flaws but Alvin does have a thing that other ppl don;t have.A pure and sincere heart which can offer you a genuine love and unconditional.Please i'm not putting these sweet sweet words to make you happy.I really mean it.....i really do.I hope i'm the most outstanding one among them

I'mFull wiTh roMance..so wass up with it?

I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE
Edwin McCain
Singingfool.com

This is the song which i posted the lyric yesterday.Just read the lyric and enjoy the video.I guess anyone out there will be moved or touched rite?Or maybe feel weak on your knees.Well,i'm not flashy about this but i really got feedbacks from my friends that sometimes the way i convey my message is liek wow!!!You're suprising romantic..I am fallenfor this,how good if i'm your lover..sure the days are filled up wit romance(Apparently, some will puke..Yew,Alvin!you're pathetic,your blog is sickening)..But any how, the blog i mean the words that i wanna convey to that person seems like..i don't know,still keep it cool and i don;t know she got read my blog.I hope she doesnt read it as if yes,i will blush when i see her.
So, still single.Blogging a lonely blog.Why i such a loser in this love field.I should get a life.But if i wanna get to move on with life i need to love to be my motivator.Sigh.Alvin wake up!!To tell you the truth,i mean humbly speaking,i got few admirers who got interest me.I'm kinda feel proud of myself as i dun look heinous or ugly haha.Sadly,i really dun have sparkle or feeling with them.Yeah,is harsh but the feel is void.The only anticipation and the feel i have is toward the fella.
I don't know why i feel in love with her.Her inner beauty?I don;t think so as i just newly know her.Her look...erm,her loos is just a bonus for me.Really no idea.Maybe love at first sight again.Everytime i finish up my assignment,i will lay back and thinking of her.Wondering what she doin?Eating?Sleeping?Thinkin as me as well?...i hope so but i don't think so.Before i going to my deep sleep,i just imagine of you...how wonderful if u are beside,so i can have pillow talk with you,whispering in your ear and hugging of coz..talking about our love and our future.Looking into your eyes and see through your soul.Holding your hands tightly so you won't escape from me.
Kissing your forehead and saying how much i love you....So many anticipation....I don't know how u think about me ....please let me know you better....hope one day soon...i will blogging about our love life together with you....I'll be waiting...

In Between Rejection And accepTance

I back to my hometown again after 2 weeks in KL.Nothing much happening here also.Many people said that it will be very exciting to be back to the hometown but then it is just feelingless..just lil bit tired as i need to travel to Pudu to take da bus.Actually i dun have much plan in Ipoh.Maybe wanna be homey for days and take sufficient rest as dude,really tired of hectic life in kl as i did a lot of travelling and my so called assignment.
Back to my love life again.It is proven that my weakness is love.Only this lovey dovey could let me down and fall.Many of my friends could sense that i look bit sad lately.Mmmmm..actually until now there is not much happening.It is neither rejection or acceptance.Maybe i still need time for this.Anything happen,i still be your friend,the one who wil beside you to listen and share the problem ok?I'll be waiting for you no matter what it takes.I don't know what is happening to me.It is undeniable i got half of the handful people who got interest in me but i only want the one who is the hardest..maybe she is the one i looking for.The one who can explore the ture meaning of true love.I hope that one day soon , i will call you with my bottom of my heart and depth of my soul: "DEAR"....
Anywhere, thx Adrian and Melissa for thier point of views.It really lighten me and it did help me to think positively.
Before i end this blog, when i on the way back to ipoh,i listened to this song :' i could not ask for more ' by Edwin Mccain.Almost tears in my heart.Really wish that i got that chance to sing for you while you on my shoulder:
Lying here with you • Listening to the rain • Smiling just to see the smile upon your face • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments • I'll remember all my life • I found all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Looking in your eyes • Seeing all I need • Everything you are is everything to me • These are the moments • I know heaven must exist • These are the moments I know all I need is this • I have all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more than this time together • I could not ask for more than this time with you • Every prayer has been answered • Every dream I have's come true • And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be • Here with you here with me • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments I'll remember all my life • I've got all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Chorus • I could not ask for more than the love you give me 'Coz it's all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more

Fast But not Furious aNd conFused

Shit.I floating in the class again.The day kicked off with the train delay.WTF?For almost 30 minutes i waited the train.Yet,the unfortunate series still rolling.The train was freaking loaded and the beeline was streching as my eyes could see and i t even can't manage to reach the door of the train.Damn it,i had to wait for another 10 minutes for another train.My history on early arrival to the class had been relinquished.Sad thing.
Anywhere,yesterday was like an armageddon for me.Why?Yeah, my love thingy again.Well,only love issue could only let me fallen.So, she didn't reject me but she said we should start off with friendship.Okay,that's fine.But, i could see the fortified wall embracing you.I hope you could penetrate the wall and know and understang the inner of yours.We are still newbies for each other.I know that but that's why you should open up the door.
After second thought, am i really too abnormal and prone to fast track relationship?It doesn't me that i'm player or jerk in love relationship.I mean business and i know what i doing.I'm not a kid or a loser who just simply got a lover just for the sake of fun or companionship.I believe is more than that.Commitment,sacrifice, dedication,passion, faithful and the list goes on and on.I respect your decision to start it slow.But if the chance is upon our doors , grab it!!I'm real and sincere for it.Let me be the one who will love you and cherish you til our very last breath.I'll be waiting.

I'm In Love Again aFter A loNg lonG whilE

Damn Adrian.Dragged me to his room and chat with him til almost 2 pm.Due to the late night and sleep and almost half day of escorting his gf to downtown kl.I'm so dead tired and today class i just barely open my eyes.Thank god,there was a presentation and discussion which its topic is quite fascinating for me.I wanna take my nap but damn adrian again, my nap in his room and i dun even have his keys.Sigh.Sorry i'm little bit mean to my housemates haha.
So, come to my love life.YupI'm in love again.Many people will puzzle am i really totally forgot my ex.Frankly,is not 100 % but is time for me to really move on and find my happiness and my love.So,yesterday Adrian asked me why u fell in love with that fella?I really don't know.Maybe the charisma.She's like the gurl who is 20 but mature in thinking, shy but self confident.The way she smiles,the way she lookin at me..is fulfilling kinda feeling..i already started to miss her.
However,we still like living between an invisible wall.I really dun understand you.Sometimes,i realy wish 2 talk about serious matter like love but you will just change another topic.Sometimes i really wish to comprehend more about you but you close the door for me.I'm bit confused.Am i taking too fast pace.Am i not your type of coffee?Is you too bz?All i ask you is the chance to let me understand you better.Eventually and i hope that the gaps between my fingers will be fulfilled by your fingers......
P.S: i really happy when u sms me...