Should i Really ConfEss?

This feeling is killing me.The feel of uncertain bliss,lost,fear and speechless.Feel like banging myself on the wall.I know i shouldn't to be in love so fast and blind folded but then i just can't help it.I feel like wanna find her (though i dun have car in kl) and hug her and tell her how i feel about her.But then i might scare her away.Really know idea what 2 do.I saw your profile somewhere and you got some bad kinda thingy is sticking on you.Dude,if i really love a person i will take you as whole regardless your physical or mental disadvantageor problems.Sigh.I know this blog won't be read by you cause i barely know you.But i really scare to confess to you.Hope things will go my way and one day perhaps very soon,i will call you dear.I know the time is flying in the speed of sound for both of us,why don't do something good.

Crash And fall

Time really flies.I already done my first week of the course.Actually the total of weeks i have to undergo for this semester is 13 weeks.Basically,the first week of mine is rather boring.All we do is just nothing but reading-but since is the first week,i guess is alright to be stoned like this.And now is already weekend,i guess i'm gonna fully wrapped by spider web.
Nothing much to blog about my campus life here.Just typical lecturer and kinda close with my coursemates nowadays.And yesterday met a bunch of new friends and hang out with them till wee hours.They just a bunch of guys who are cracking tonnes of jokes-it really made my day.Thanks a lot.And for the first time, i hugged/touched an iguana.Damn john..i really scare when u threw the reptile at me.But then,my fear 4 the little dragon had gone haha.
Anywhere,i once said move to kl to get a brand new life and turn over a new leaf and put love aside.However, i can't do that really.The disease of fallin g inlove and crushing is come back 2 me again.Whats wrong with me?I'm such a loser who can't live without love.I suppose i labelled my love as my booster/cataylst for my journey of my life.In this current case, i just barely know her but then feel like wanna see her so much.Wanna be with you and wanna know you more.I wish i could be love again.but then,i guess is just a silly crush but if we really clicked,i really don't mind to start a new relationship.Hope i could know you more. Shit,i really miss you.ok,i know i should compose my self.

FIrst Few Days of FOrmal TertiarY EdU

Okay,it may seem weird as i already 20 and yet i just a freshman in my tertiary education.Thanks to form 6, cause i considered the Form 6 still in high school level.Anywhere,is bit like kinda culture shock to enter to da world of college.You know, Form Six edcuation is very much pampered by teachers and you will get everything inside the book or simply just go to the tuition.But now,everything have to be our own.Do our own research and get our own resources.sigh...just miss those leisure life in Form 6.Hey,form 6 is fun.I don't whu many people still assume that from 6 is tough like hell.
Anywhere, this is my first week i mean the real first week in this college(For those who really dun have any idea which college i enrolled,dude! I'm in Taylor-pj's campus aka Bali Bali)So, how does it feel?It feels cold most of the time as the air cond here is like hundres of big ice cubes embracing the class or lecture hall.Besides, my disease still lingering til now since form six.Don't worry is not a cronic disease but then is just i will fall easily when i got nothing to do.
Ops they having a class here,so gonna sign off...cya.

OrienTation Blues

3 days of orientation,3 days of torture.Just joking but quite interesting and yet tiring.Just imagine, sitting in a room with a very freaking temperature(apparently, the room is powered by 2 high powerful air conds) and you a stoned in your place to listen very very long hour (9 to 5 pm) of talks.However, we were given some activities to minimized our boredom.
Well,my life in the college for 3days were pretty okie and better what i was expect.But i really do confuse with the places there as my campus is a high rise building and it shared with other tenants; i guess few weeks l;ater i will fond with places there....the so called Balinese environment campus.
Anywhere, my new coursemates there are friendly.Though we newly met and not very close with each other but then, you know we wouldnt stick to one gang or worse being a loner..we did sit together to have lunch.I don't know how to label this but it feels warm.It really eliminated my first day blues.I guess thats the wrap for my orientation blog.Monday will be my first class,gosh monday blues again.I hope it will turn out well.To add on,i really happy about the time table as is not that hectic as the class will ends in noon and i don't have class on Friday!But i heard mass com students have to many many of reseach and assignments but yet i still is not that resourceful by this time.Sigh.
On the other hand, i don't feel homesick.Maybe i living with my friend so got the sense of the companion.But i really conquer the fear of being homesick.For me, living in KL is almost the same in Ipoh though KL is haunted by traffic jam.Although,i have to take da trouble to go to my college but then hey,i'm 20 years old,is time for me to be independent,no more leisure life like inIpoh.

What a Diff3Rence a Day made

Finally,i 'm here at kl,blogging for very first time here.It was quite actually cause woke up early morning yesterday and came down all the way to kl.Unfortunately, we got lost most of the time.For heaven sake,once you in the wrong path in kl,the hell will go with you.You have to take few km down to make an U turn.Unlike Ipoh.Just miss Ipoh.
Anywhere, i had been lamenting about fearing homesick when i settle here.However,the situation is not that bad that i thought.Yeah,too much leisure in Ipoh,everything is wel prepared at home and got car to use and got Astro somemore.But here,it is like contradict here.Sigh.How i miss Ipoh.

In The end,iS a goodBye

After all,the sacred promise is meant to be broken.Although i self proclaimed that i'm alright after my disaster relationship but i still recovering and when i recalled it, the scar is excrutiating again.Hope i will get well soon in kl and turn over a new leaf there.
So,in this few hours left(as if i going to die),nothing much i wanna do.My life is without the purpose anymore.I've lost the colour and the fire.No more that good old alvin.
Anywhere, just now i went to a house warming which held by my old ex's classmates.His condo was cool.I even had to pass 2 guard house to reach his condo.Well,my home also have guards but free coz stray dogs haha.How i wish could stay in this environment-hilly and secluded from the city.Living wit my loved one.How perfect it is.
So everyone who reading this blog which i dun no people will read it..wish me luck in kl

This is not me

Get Your Drunk Personality at LiquidGeneration.com!

My Days Are NumbereD

Yup.My days are numbered.Not i'm gonna die or have some cronic sickness.but, i'm gonna leave and study elsewhere.Well, you guys a re well informed in KL.So,dude,do find me when you are in kl,i'll be staying in Sunway.
So,yesterdya i chat with my so called bro,Andrew.I lament that nowadays i don't have fire/power the self confident in the things that i do.Yeah,serioulsy.I have no idea what happened to me.I'm not that Alvin used to who was confident at max.So don't be suprise if you see me like low self-esteem.Sigh.
So living Ipoh.No mummy's little boy anymore.No more car for me to use.No more Nasmir.No more Astro.No more air cond.Most of all,the limited money.I guess i need Ah long for reload my pocket like this video.

First Step is The hardest

I've been giving moral support to my friends who living to other states for thier under graduate studies.Telling them not to worry and don'tmiss home..try hard 2 adapt the life there.However,when it comes to me,i already feel the excitement.
So the trip in kl was quite alright,the room is ok.RM230 for a room which inculde evrything thats kinda reasonable but the room is rather stuffy.But anywhere,is pretty good to have a close friend stay with you(adrian) coz got companion and got people look up too.Beside,the neighbour also quite friendly i mean Mels and the girl,i forgetten her name. Guess that i wont be so terribly alone there.Anwhere,ipoh willbe the best for me.Hometown is the sweetest.Although Ipoh is not happening like Pg or Kl but it is satisfactory.Although we dun have abundant of entertainment or hang ot place but is alright coz can save our money.We even got Starbucks in Ipoh nowhaha.Damn it,why they open it now..i leaving loh.
Before i end this blog,a million thanks to Vincent.Without him,i would have to take the trouble to take the bus back home to Ipoh.
By the way,is finalof the world cup. italy!!!GO!!

7/7..one year on

Sigh.Now already 7'th of July.Last year today, i confessed to my ex and i got her.So fast 365 days had past.I've lost her and single again.Those sweet promises and fantasy only illusion,it won't happen.But anywhere,although we broke up,i wish her all the best.Find me if you need any help.
On lighter note,tomorrow will be heading to Kay El 2 check out the room for my accomodation during my studies in Kay El.So, i do hope the place is fine for me.Sigh..12 days left for me in Ipoh and counting.

Ceiling,tv,bed and mE

Yesterday, another farewell for my buddy who is going to work In Genting.i bet that my life will be terribly alone and lonely.Now my friends in Ipoh are just numbered,i guess less than 10. Those who left are thosewaiting for private instituion enrollment, waiting for local uni and those senior who going back to thier respective unis.So,sooner or later..only me alone in ipoh.But anywhere,less than 2 weeks i'll be goign 2 study.For heavan sake i havent found the accomodation..Thats me ...Everyhting last minute.
Anywhere, tonight is between Germany and Italia.Fullest support for gerMany!
Beside,2day is foruth of July...happy birthday US!!Hope the troops in Iraq can return home safe and sound and..Mr Bush,no more war..

Go Germany go!!

I can't believe myself blogging about this World Cup thing.Yeah..i self admit that i'm not a football fan and big L as player but the this World Cup fever is getting me excited and adrealine rush.There is so much hoo haa about England going to semi but then most of you guys dissapointed that they failed.No Rooney,no Beckham and no Owen....is like the team lost its magic.This one is even more suprise.Brazil lost again to France.Sorry for the Brazilian fans.
For me,fullest support to Germany though Italy could be the one who win.

BesT of LUcK and Bon VoyaGe

These few days, it was indeed a hectic days for me.I had to done many paper works concerning the application stuff.Thank God, i hand my document on time and hopefully i could get the scholarship.Oh yeha,where i going to study?Well i could not confirm yet but most probably the college which i said before,i don't mean kuktem.Anywhere,i hope i could granted the loan as it is way too costly.
Anywhere, last Thursday , me and my ex classmates held a farewell gathering in Friday.It was good to see them again.Most of them..still unchanged in terms of thier lookin particular me tough many of the girls kept lamenting about their gained weight.
2 years is just past in blink of the eyes.From the day we didn't know each other til now which the friendship is so called strongly bonded,i really happy and proud with my class.6 of them going UM and ironically,almost 20 of them going 2 private.
On the other hand,yesterday it was most embarassing moment of the year.I was informed that i had to give my document to the college's agent in Main convent but i don't know what was wrong with me,i ended up in Ave Maria.Gosh, you know the situation which like a lost person in the town,asking about the direction but the destination is in other town.Sigh...
Why the embarassing moment keep happening to me.This one even worse.It happened eveyr year.I talking about my school magazine.I look ugly every year.Maybe i'm not photogenic.But it really make me sick.I look so different between the real me and in the pics.Damn those cameras.
Most importantly in today blog,i wish all my friends who going 2 local unis.Best of luck.May you find loads of fun there and having great time of studying.For those who going real far like east Malaysia, bon voyage and remember me always.