2007

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Seriously, i dun make resolution as once made it, i had to make it real and i scare i would fail. But today, since it is damn bored, i will simply give u a glimpse of my resolutions. Generally, do well in my studies, good health,prosperity and have a luxurious life. But personally, i really wish my life will be attached again .Of coz with the one i crushing rite now. Almost half year i've been crushing her but i got big 'L' on my forehead. Sigh.....i will burst and becoming insane soon. Somebody help me. On the other hand, my friend who is gay is some sort in my situation.You know that i done a presentation on homosexual before.One of the relationship for them is egalitarian relationship which both same sex couples take both roles regardless of gender based roles nor age based roles. But the problem for him is will it be possible for a egalitarian relationship? Well, i mean i got many gay friends but none of them is in this kinda relationship. Most of them are gender based relationship. I couldnt say b\much about this coz love is sometimes is undefined.But i gotta message to the person that i crush....ooooooo........Remember i confessed to you before but i failed. Now already in 2007, things had changed for good and for worst. You are still the one that i love. You're eyes still making me weak on my knee. Your voice is like morning call to me..a voice like an angel who can i seek love to. But all these are just my fantasy. You are not here with me...Everytime i dream of u, i wish i rather be sleeping prince and never wake up again..so i can be with you. I feel like i'm big fat loser. Unable to confesss to you. I scare of your rejection. I scare i really cant take care of you nor love you that u wanted as i was hurt i mean extremely hurt my previous relationship.My wound still bleeding. Only you can stitch back my wound. Listen to me my dear, I'm pretty sure that i'm not your kind that person you really want. It sounds like i've got 0 confidence. I could not label it no confident at all.. i just scare you will suffer if you with me. I scare i cant give the best for you. But...shit...i'm in total dillema. Seriously, i really love you...i wish i could take care of you and u take care of me.. i wish i could cherish you...i wish everyday i could say a prayer that how much i thank the Lord that you are with me...i wish i could hug you tight and never let you go.....i wish i kiss your fore head as i want you to know how dear you are to me. I wish i could go travel with ya..stand on the mountain with you...strolling on the sandy beaches and gazing the stars which are the witness of our love...This is my wish, only you can realize my wish. I don't know you really into me or not. Sometimes, it kinda silly. It is really make my day when i c ur messages or msn. I even could die in intoxication of love when i c ur real person....I know you will not accept me but i already had you at hello....143

2006

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Before i blogging this entry, i read my 2005 year end blog. So many changes in between 2005 and 2006.2005 i was struggling with my stpm and 2006, i was in the uni life. 2005 i was happily dating but this year, is overall single. Overall, it is not pretty good year for me. My lover dumped me, my mom left me for Switz for one month and many series of unfortunate events. Here some of the most defining moments of 2006:
The most eventful moment of my life in the year of 2006 gotta be my uni/college life.From a mummy's little boy who is so pampered to the life which i could mostly depend on my own and be independent. I really glad i could made and done that. Besides, i indeed made a lot of nice friends in my college like Michelle, KayLee, Rachel and ALicia and off campus as well in kl. Maybe my life is kinda blessed which so many wonderful friends in my life. I really glad to know you guys. Meanwhile, it is my first time to experience the Australian education. It is much better than our own education.Not forgetting, the sketch which me and my group mates presented. It was so funny coz i became a bitch called Alvina. Hey, seriously, it was worth it coz i got credit for this subject
After Chinese New Year, i had a lonely period. My mom left me to Switz for some reason for more than a month. In that period, i was really depressed. Living alone in the big big house. My companion only the sofa, tv and my bed. Lack of friends and my lover was not beside me. Nobody that i could talk to, eating alone most of the time. I'm so damn freaking lonely. But anyhow, my mom is back here.
Breaking up with my lover. I could understand why i break up almost every year. Cant i have a long lasting relationship? She broke all our promises which really ripped through my heart. Never thought a nice loving relationship could end up like this.But now, she dating with my friend. How ironic. Just wish her best of luck. Quite angry also, how could she got a lover so instant and yet i'm still single. Though there are plenty of people kinda got interest on me but i still crushing that person. I hope 2007 i will call her as my dear...hopefully.....SOS