2005: a Wrap.Bye ByE

Gosh,today is new year's eve's eve.Time flies really fast.2005,many things had happened -some can bring tears to my eyes and others could me a smile upon my face.Below are the top 5 events which really could be label as 'the most defining moment' .

1. I guess love played an important part for me in my this bloody life.So,meeting my brand new lover on seventh of july was the most defining, the sweetest than any other honey in the world and the most memorable moment/event for this year and for my entire life.To be frank, i was fell in love with her for the first moment i saw her.Can't believe she's the only one and my another half.Many great times we spent together this year, Vacation in water themed park , lookin at the sunset in the big lake,cookin together and so much more.I hope these kinda of days will b my daily life for me soon and til the clouds fall down from the sky.Love you..!!!
2. The good old days in my school.Though i always lamentin that school was boring but i assume my skool is my second home.Gonna be two months i left the skool but i still miss the life there.Many defining moments happening in 2005.First of all,Mr. K is our pa teacher and we r fear of him,most of us but we still could survive haha.Next, the class' march pass for the sport's day.Thoug we didnt win but we did enjoy ourselves i suppose,training under the hot sun.,i t was quite great.Than comes the class sketch.It was simply funny,Sok Yi as me than Julian as Jimmy Choo haha.We burst in laugther til the teacher next class came to our class to check out what's going on.For me,i act as a gay couple.haha,it was so real.Next,our class moved to an OMA/Conference room.For my entire life this what i hope for,an air conditioned room with sofa chair.Yes,i study in that room 4 2 months in that room!!
3. MUET and STPM.The test which i had badly done.It was a big disaster.And i could not face the result day.
4. Broke up wit my ex.Please don't ask me.
5. My confession to my friend.This prove that when people in love,we can do many stupid things like me,confessed to my old friend of mine.After the rejection,the few months after that was realy greatly depress .However,the person still treat me as a friend and time goes by,everythin was ok.So, people,think before you confess.

Here r the summary for the year:

• my favourite song(s) :Gotta be Mr Brightside
• movies: war of the world,series of unfortunate events,king kong ,Madagascar haha
• favourite celebs:The Killers ,Mimi, BEP
• favourite shows: The Simpsons!!!Malaysian idol,Real World:Paris,Man hunt and America's next top model
• favourite phrase: You suck!!!,I ffeelin guilty now and i wanna go home and study-i love you-haihz...-cincai-hey,people!!!
• scariest moment- yeah,those insects and ipoh city was under attacked by moths

to b continued

bye bye 2005...c u next year!!!!!

My 100'th blog: A tribute :26 of Dec

I can't believe it, this is my 100'th blog.I have been blogging for more than half year, it is great though my blog is full of broken english and i just getting started.
On darker side,today is 26 of Dec,first anniversary of the deathly Tsunami.This what i encountered of this day last year.I was in Penang wit my family haha.Well,i didnt felt the tremour as most of the time we're in the car.
So, 12 something, i was hanging along the beach.The sea was still calm,as matter of fact was way tooo calm and muddy too-not sure was the sign of unfortunate event going to happen.1230+,we left Penang,at first we thought to take ferry to go to the mainland,fortunately, we took the wrong,so the bridge was the only way to go home.
How fortunate i was as i miss the big wave which strucked around 1 pm.It was really close call as i was really standing direct to sea which kill thousands of lives later.Apart from that,thank goodness as we didnt take the ferry as,if unlucky, th ferry would be a target of the Tsunami.
On the journey home,i was still no idea about what going on around the Indian Ocean.WEll, i was bit weird person as i like to watch of the shape of the cloud whenever i had a long journey.On that evening,the sky was pretty nice,i could see the clouds in a human form which it arrange nicely in a row leaded by a bigger cloud which also human shaped.Above of those clouds,i could see an angry face figure, strange huh?It might be denote that the God was fury and those human figure clouds were victims of the Tsunami and leade by Jesus..only God knows...
This is my 100'th blog,so this blog goes to the victims who lost thier life of this Tsunami.My deepest prayers and thoughts go to the families who lost thier loved one in this tragedy.May they see courage in this unfortunate events.God Bless....

Christmas!!!!!!

I just wanna wish everyone have yourself a very merry christmas and fantastic 2006.While everyone is celebrating xmas,a warm family and friends gathering,why not i take you to a land where most of the people is hunger for food, depending other countries for nutriens and thier homes? Can be labelled as shelthers or sanctuary.This land is Africa.
This is christmas time,we let in light and banish shade But in our world wit our abilities,we can spread a smile of joy,hey.people..lets' throw our arms around the world at Christmas time.People,say your prayer and pray for the other ones.You're havin fun wit your family and friends,having a nice turkey dinner,but the people there ,i don't know even have a flesh of meat.
The world outside your window, the atmosphere is filled with xmas carol,the laughter and colourful xmas tree.But for them,it's world of dread and fear, fearing they could survive for tomorrow,fearing is there any food for thier children to survive.The only waterflowing is the bitter sting of tears and the christmas bells that ring there are the clanging chimes of doom..there will won't be snow in Africa this Christmas,the only thing on the floor is an empty land where it directs to middle of nowhere.The children is the mosy joyful as they could receive toys,new clothes and Santa to hug on.In Africa,the greatest gift they'll get this year is life and the chance to survive for another year,where nothing ever grows,no rain nor rivers flow,just look on the eyes,and asked them,'do they know it's christmas time?
To the leaders of G8, i have no idea about debt matter but you're the leaders of any nations in the world,show some example for other countries,to your people and to the people of the world, help this poverty in Africa.You can make different!!A move you made,a thousand lives you save!!!
For the people Around the world,spread your care and joy and.....

fEED THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ChrisTmas Eve

It is the most wonderful time of the year.But not for me.My wish for this xmas will never come true .The person i loved is still far away from me.I hope my baby is doing fine there and one day will come back to me.Nevertheless,people said 12 days of xmas,so i got 12 more days for my dream comes true.The turkey on the table is getting cold , the stocking will be hanging empty , nobody will sit with me underneath the xmas tree and nobody will ever sing xmas carol to me.Why this year christmas will be so black?!
If you here,we could cook a xmas dinner together, have a candle lit dinner counting to 25'th of dec.But it won't happen to me..so sad.I never thought i spent my xmas eve blogging and msn wit my frens...really sucks.But anywhere,the town is really jammed with cars,just now went to buy Mc D,gosh,it took me 1 hour!!
Yesterday,i watched movie wit my frens,it was a chinese movie.Got a line r very very meaningful: "In love,if both of us heading for a purpose will not be long lasting,likewise if without a purpose or destination,the long will last for million years"

1 Month 2 my BirthDay

Can't believe it, only one month i will turn 20.Sigh....! Suprisingly,i do not feel anything about my coming birthday,as wellas this coming xmas and new year.Wat happen to me?Am i dead?The xmas only 2 days away but yet,i dun feel the anticipation and don't have any plan for that day.Maybe the one i loved most is not celebrating with me.So sad,i've been always dreaming that xmas and new year,my loved one will be beside me but...haihz....
Lately,i just feeling empty and lost.Just waiting alonge for the day to come,over the sea and far away,i'm just waiting like an iceberg...waiting da chance to change but i'm cold inside an d i wanna to b like the water.All the muscles tighten in my face,bury my soul in one embrace,they're one an the same just like water.I fel that my realtionship wit my lover jsut like fire fades away,almost everyday,is full of tired excuses but it's to hard to say,i wish it were simple but we're give up easily,youre close enoguh to see that,you're the other side of the world to me.
I don't know what happen to our relaitonship.Yes,i still love her very much but it's only love.We like came from different side of the wrold.We have only countable of interests..but i try to follow her interests.Never thought, when she not around i will become like this,maybe i'm too selfish but i really wanna spend this half year wit her as we do not have much this chance like this as i will going off for my education.Why u have to go so far away....now both of us feeling lonely and lost..i dun like being lonely.i just wanna be with u.I'm really empty here

King Kong

So,yesterday,the first half of the day was just an ordinary day,having lunch,sleep drop my mom and etc.
Comes to nite,went to night market with night market wit Fm.It was interesting as we saw many of our ex schoolmates there.Wat suprise me was ,they are also like me,doing nothing-still jobless.I guess i better than them as i still in the process of hunting.
After that night market thing,we spent almost 3 hours watching the movie King Kong.It was pretty sad watching this sad ending movie while your loved one is not beside you,haih....how could this happen to me....Watching this sad movie would be turned into comedy movie as u noe,watching wit her,we would made a lot of jokes almost everything.Talking about king kong,he is just someone who is neglected.Everybody fear of him as he seems big and monstrous.But anyway,all he need is care,attention and love-the sole love from Ann.Just like me, i wanna the care,attention and love but,the person for me is not here...poor thing.
For today,interview again.Today the job concerning customer service .It was really time wasting.U need 2 do 500 words of essay and answer 160 questions.For god sake,i just asking for a job,not repeat my Muet...

The PuzzLed Xmas

Gonna 6 days 2 celebrate Yuletide,yetthis xmas gonna be loaded with question marks ahead of me.I'm not sure i'm gonna get a job b4 xmas or in new year,i'm not sure who gonna celebrate xmas with me and most of all,i have no idea my dear is really gonna work far away from me,i hope what i ask for this xmas would b a dream come ture for me as i have been a very very very good boy this year.I've been done much of charity though i know my worth of charity is less than RM 10 but hey,i do pay attention to the less unfortunate..Hence,Santa,do not miss my name in your list.
Today is interesting day for me as i hunting for the job.First of all, i got an interview in a kindergarden somewhere around Jln Gopeng.Gosh,the houses around there are simply breathtaking and even 10 times larger than my house..Still considering that job,though i'm children phobia and most of all u hav being a teacher...yew,do i have to really being a Ipoh's Barney?!!
Next,came to a centre which selling car wash stuff.The job was commision basis.Went to the interview as if having a math class.He explained tonnes of stuff on how we get the money til he wrote on his whiteboard....it was totally very boring indeed...

All I wan For Xmas

Though i know the big fat cum clumsy Santa is just a fairy tale,but i got one wish for xms.I don't want a lot for ChristmasThere's just one thing I needI don't care about presentsUnderneath the Christmas treeI just want you for my ownI don't need to hang my stockingThere upon the fireplaceSanta Claus won't make me happyWith a toy on Christmas day. won't ask for much this ChristmasI won't even wish for snowI'm just gonna keep on waitingUnderneath the mistletoeI won't make a list and send itTo the North Pole for Saint NickI won't even stay awake toHear those magic reindeer click'Cause I just want you here tonightHolding on to me so tightWhat more can I do..All i Want for Xmas is u...
Dear Jesus, my Lord,though i rarely pray for you.however this time,i need Your help from this sinful person.Dear Lord,i nothing asking for any money or material related aspect.i just that person to be wit me and stay wit me . I just cant imagine if the days without that person.As if i walking the lifeless Sahara alone.I don't want to let go this golden time as we hardly we be together.Dear Lord, please forgive if i have done anything wrong in my this nearly 20 years of life.But i really wish You could guide me through this matter .Thank You Lord for giving me food,shelter and most of all Your love.Amen.
For those who reading this,please leave some comments as a sign ur prayers.Thank u

dAys Gone By But Nothing in the End

Seriously,the title has nothing to do in this blog,just sake of the title.This week,is another peaceful week for me, no hoo-haa, matte rof fact,is just too peaceful- but i guess,the weekend gonna be spectacular for me haha.
Tuesday,for the first time i dye my hair,yeah..after 19 years of age.Actually,for the sake of money saving,i asked my fren to dye for me.Result? Failure,my hair is still pure black,charcoal black!!I'm not sure the method is wrong or my hair could not absorb the colour....sob,my 19 dollars just went to the drain,haih...
Yesterday,after 3 weeks after my exam,i finally tidy up my cupboard which loaded with papers and books.After 2 hours of clean up,gosh,5 piles of books and papers,i think the weight gonna be quarter of my weight.but sadly, today went to da recycle shop, she only paid rm 4,haihz,,...
On the other hand,lately, for no reason, i just think of my fren who always break up wit her bf.For me,u shoud not feeel sad,though it is alright to feel it for couple of days.After u breaking up,u feel that u really stupid or brainless for falling in love wit ur ex.She/he cheated u or ur ex find another one.Just let go of those memory and find a better one.I'm sure that u will better as u're equipped with experience and u will use those experience to choose,who is prince charming or who is the big bad wolf.

Don'T LiE

Lately,i'm pissed off with my fren's love relationship.U c, she just got a new bf after she dumped her old one.Apparently,her ex is keeping on disturbing the new bf,telling all the bad stuff about her,not only that,he also target my fren's frens....saying that she's bitch, eyeing for $$ and the most sick of all, he even dare to say that she's the one who flirt him.This was totally bullshit and feel like wanna throw up when i heard this.For that dude, it is not use to tell all lies and talk bad stuff upon the new bf..get a life,you just suck.Apart from that,just tell your frens that they just wasting ur time.I believe this is the most ludacris, childish and yucks,u guys suck!!!If this issue is still on, i as her fren will take necessary action,last resort will be police report.So guys,just stop it.

FooLish GamE

1. MonDAy-For the first time,in this year,i shop with my mom.It was really really borinf,though i can get what i want as my mom will pay for me.Sadly,i couldn't find anything to buy , just a box of Renoma.
2. Tuesday -Went out at nite with fren.the foolest day of my life.Apparently,there's a fun park near my house, so i went there and played some games there.It was way too costly there, RM 3 for bumper cars .RM2.50for Ferris's wheel.What i played was throwing balls game, odd number game.I almost spend Rm 10-what i won was motorcycle(toy),yoyo, and fan.I guess those stuff only coz less than RM5, nevr thought i could b a jackass for that day.After that,since the nite was still young,we went to E-box,apparenlt,tuesday was Ladies' night.To b frank,since i was eng ed,the english song choice was limited and most of them were oldies,xmas carol and gosh,u could find crazy frog there.I guess the singer for this song only sing,ting ting ting.....It was fun filled nite, esp when we sang the Macarena hahaha.
3. WEd-i'm forbidden to blog..but one word,wonderful