dont love u

forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait

the You know what, only two weeks left to my sem break.Time really flies!!!Though, my sem is ending but my assignment still exist but not that heavy compared to last time. So,i've got timefor my own now.Lately, there is nothing much happen as yet the same old saying, assignment, my PR last assignment. But Sunday, i went out with Matthew and Iris.

and hang out in Sg Wang and times Square.Thanks to my assignment load, is been like 3 weeks i didnt really do my shopping. So at last, it was my time to do my little shoping spree in Sg Wang. I saw many nice and reasonable price clothes there but i didnt buy anything.Not because i'm broke but every clothes that i interested, it didn't have my size!! I had to b;lame myself why i'm so slim for the big size shirt..sigh..Anywhere, i did two wrongful things that i shouldn't have done. Firstly, i ate KFC.KFC was like so tempting, it's been awhile i didnt have my chew on the crispy Spicy Chicken. Crunch crunch..yummy..until 3 big pimples on my face.I should'nt eat KFC at the first place as i knew that i didnt have enough sleep..I'm such a fool.And yeah, the other stupidity was, me and Iris 'tah pau' a big pack of rojak just behind Sg Wang, and we ate it on the bench in Times Square.My goodness, so many people looking at us, as if were like dunno from which kampung doing oddity stuff.Oh yeah, finally i saw Daniel Lee in person. Many people asked which local artiste u really wanna see.My asnwer will definately will Daniel Lee. I don't know why.He is talented and decent. I like this kinda guy.. i mean admiring ...he is much better looking in real person actually.


Btw, i bid my farewell to my 5 years BUM wallet on Sunday.Guess what wallet i using now? Louis Vuitton's Monogram Canvas-Florin Wallet.Gosh, it was just simply fantastic.I can't believe i can own an LV wallet. Original or imatated..figure ask urself lolz...

Okla, stop boasting about my LV. Back to my personal life, i mean my love life. Finally, i have made up my mind to relinquish my target. Not because i changed my heart to someone else but dude, i really really tired of 0 progress and he said that he is anti-relationship kinda guy.Maybe i should blame myself for not taking any initiative. If i taken the move also, the distance, the distance between one continent and to other is always be a issue. He is very veyr far from me. Maybe i got hurt from my previous long distance relationship, thats why i dun want to be hurt anymore. This is my life, my only life, why must i hurt myself? I don't know why i mourn my current single life. I still got my friends rite? I know but friends cannot fulfil what lover can do. The passion and the chemistry.I miss it so much the feel when i look to my lover's eye and tell him how much i love him. Though many people is chasing me but sorry,i'm very picky. It is hard to be my lover. I'm not looking for hot,cute handsome guy.Well, i mean beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, so when i can the person's internal beauty, he is already beautiful in my sight. Maybe since so many people chasing me and admiring me(o Shit, i boasting myself again-but i can't avoid the matter of fact lol), this moulded me to a egocentric person in a relationship. I don't want my lover is without substance. I want my lover who can bring himself well, decent( i mean not too decent til like a sissy fella), polite(i'm banana kinda guy so i dun he speaks vulgar words in english, but please don't speak rude words in chinese), fluent in english and know how to twist the language.Yes, i really admire that kinda person!! Must knwo how 2 play music instrument( err..guitat is too mediocre for me-why not violin or sexaphone?). Know how groom himself and presentable, get along with my friends, love shopping, well educated, smart....wait a minute, am i selling myself here? Gosh i look like a cheapskate here.Maybe i'm desperate here. I'm sad actually to make my decision to give up on him but i've got my life ahead and i don't want anything to hold me back.
You know what i wnna do after this blog? I'm so sick with my love life..i just wanna have bottom-up Jean-Marc XO Vodka and desencitize myself into the world of my own ....being with the one that i love with this song

Confusion,Perplexity,Mystification and Puzzlement

It's weekend again but i still doing my DDP assignment. But almost 90 % percent after those webpage,fact sheet and magazine article.Talking about DDP, i have to quote this though i know myself is bit boasting around lolz. The lecture, Miss Jenny said "Alvin, your written assignment is very good.The way you put your ideas are very cute".Wha?t very cute?.Okay, this was the first time listen to a such compliment.I am happy to get distinction for that assignment as i have to read a reference book which the language of the author is pathetic.K.I should keep my big mouth shout . So today, i went to Mid Valley with Tommy. Before that, i thought Frank was death.Gosh, he has been sleeping from 12 o'clock yesterday til 12 o'clock this afternoon.Then, he had his breakfast, not long after that, he sleep again. Sleeping Beauty i suppose.I wondering who is the prince Charming.I think it's the waiter from the mamak stall.lolz.Cut the crap, i saw many nice stuff in Mid Valley; DKNY perfume, Adidas shoes, Adidas beg and gosh a gigantic framed photos of Simpsons which each of characters in it.I want to buy it ah!!!!!!!!I hope still got stock when i'm loaded.Btw, i saw MAtthew in mid val.Gosh, isn't it the world is so small.He came down all the way from sarawak to study today and i stumble upon him in mid val.

Ok, back to my pathetic so called one sided love life.I didnt mean to put my title like dat until what happened yesterday.My friend who knows M said M is online evryday and he even chat with M.While i chatting with him, M is online as well according to him.But why i couldn't see him online? There are two possiblity-one is something wrong with M or my MSN which is unlikely and second-M blocks me. This is likely as i checked his friendster and it stated that he logging 24 hours ago.I send him message in friendster but y no any news from him.Is he avoiding me, why? Maybe i just too sensitive.Maybe i have too many free time and nothing to do fall in one sided love. I have no idea what i am doin now.So confused. Drowning myself in assignments.I'm not sad but i hate this kinda of situation-situation of puzzlement which there is no answer.I feel puke about it. I want to know what is going on.There is nothing i can do now.Assignment and wait for answer or him .

confuse

It's weekend again but i still doing my DDP assignment. But almost 90 % percent after those webpage,fact sheet and magazine article.Talking about DDP, i have to quote this though i know myself is bit boasting around lolz. The lecture, Miss Jenny said "Alvin, your written assignment is very good.The way you put your ideas are very cute".Wha?t very cute?.Okay, this was the first time listen to a such compliment.I am happy to get distinction for that assignment as i have to read a reference book which the language of the author is pathetic.K.I should keep my big mouth shout . So today, i went to Mid Valley with Tommy. Before that, i thought Frank was death.Gosh, he has been sleeping from 12 o'clock yesterday til 12 o'clock this afternoon.Then, he had his breakfast, not long after that, he sleep again. Sleeping Beauty i suppose.I wondering who is the prince Charming.I think it's the waiter from the mamak stall.lolz.Cut the crap, i saw many nice stuff in Mid Valley; DKNY perfume, Adidas shoes, Adidas beg and gosh a gigantic framed photos of Simpsons which each of characters in it.I want to buy it ah!!!!!!!!I hope still got stock when i'm loaded.Btw, i saw MAtthew in mid val.Gosh, isn't it the world is so small.He came down all the way from sarawak to study today and i stumble upon him in mid val.

Ok, back to my pathetic so called one sided love life.I didnt mean to put my title like dat until what happened yesterday.My friend who knows M said M is online evryday and he even chat with M.While i chatting with him, M is online as well according to him.But why i couldn't see him online? There are two possiblity-one is something wrong with M or my MSN which is unlikely and second-M blocks me. This is likely as i checked his friendster and it stated that he logging 24 hours ago.I send him message in friendster but y no any news from him.Is he avoiding me, why? Maybe i just too sensitive.Maybe i have too many free time and nothing to do fall in one sided love. I have no idea what i am doin now.So confused. Drowning myself in assignments.I'm not sad but i hate this kinda of situation-situation of puzzlement which there is no answer.I feel puke about it. I want to know what is going on.There is nothing i can do now.Assignment and wait for answer or him .

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mom' s day

Back to ipoh again for mother's day.Alvin is such a good son. I know that thank you. Lolz..Cut the crap.Thurday was bit a tensed day for me and for my coursemates as well. Coz most of them didnt do really well for the assignments.For me? I stil havent got my result yet so keep my finger crossed.Beside the result, lately got some argument between two of my coursemates.Why not they just bury the hatchet? We need peace in this world!! hello!!!

Anwya, i having great time in ipoh and i still having great time now lolz.Yesterday went out with Iris and Yuen and gosh we were pokin like fun like mad. We had great supper too....mixed fruit ice yummy.Even i went out with her today...she is such a nice daughter. Bought hermommy a osim massaging thingy, a fruit cake and flowera..i guess i could never be a good son like her..lolz

Hey, today is mother's day. So what comes in your mind when the mother is uttered out? Yeah, the sacrifice and dedicated love.Even our animal friend show the greatness of mother hood as well. There was a incident which i can recall vividly. On one fine late at night i saw cat scarvaging for food around the rubbish, okie i htought it was a norm for the stray cats.But what really touched me was, the food she had it was not for her..but she went to the other side of the road for her kittens, 3 of them.My god, the food was so little, how they gonna share it..very sad. But in brighter side, the kittens would be die of hunger if not her mom.So dude, please respect your mom. The animals can do it, why cant u? Don't raise your voice at them, don't send them to oldfolks home, don;t let them to overworry about you, give them money if you;ve got, give them attention, spend time with them and of coz shower trhem with love...

Happy mother's day to my mom who still go for movies and concert at age nearing 50...Love ya

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Finally i could sit on the couch to blog. Do uhave any idea how tired am i? like 2 days in a row without nap and late night sleep..almost 4 in the morning. Maybe my biological gone loco...come on four in the morning...!!!! and my dark wrinkle..my gosh..henious!!!
Anyway, nothing much happening lately except i've got my brand new partner. But sadly she couldnt speak..i think i havent touch some buttons on her.dude, i dun mean sex stuff here.My partner is just compaq v3210..laptop.Finally i could get myself with a laptop..and thanks to my dad.
Today, i woke at 12 pm and wondered where my mom and bro went with the car.Then got a memom on the staircase which read : Alvin, mom and jimmy went to watch Spiderman 3. Got food on the table. Daddy buying the laptop for you today!..ohh okmy mom watch spiderman prior to me..thats interesting.Plus, i went to watch Eason Chan promo tour with my mom and my bro and of coz with his ex taiwanese gf. Thats even more interesting.Talking about Eason.oh man, he could sing!!! Thats why i always dub him as the most male voice singer in HK. It is so simple, plain, clear but it is so beautiful!!! Actually bit annoyyed as i stood there like half an hour waiting for him..my poor legs...
Back to my love life.Okay, my wortiness of waiting is getting near to the edge.Not saying that i giving up on him..but i really doubt my wortiness of waiting of him. Am i too useless of giving up chance for the people who chasing me rite now? I dun think so coz i found some who i looking for so that i wont give up on him.But, it's been awhile we didnt contact each other.I 'm no bugger who always bugging people life but i concern about him..i miss him so much..is he reciprocate my missing back to me? I'm not sure..i hope so..i hope he will correspondent with me very soon as me myself getting confuse3.Is he having someone there...yes or no, i wont blame him as we are not attach though but it will be very pathetic for me.Sigh...Though i doubt my wortiness but i still saving all my love for u.

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath awayAnd I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or rightAnd though I can’t be with you tonightAnd know my heart is by your side...

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i know my previous entry i blog about my problems. Nah, no need to worry as it was bit settled and it was just my negative and narrow thinking.So now i literally problem free.My holidays so far just sucks.Most of the time at home, tv,oprah,national geograhic, youtubing and of coz my lovely assignments.Well, now i'm bit relieve as most of the assignments were done.Now i really can enjoy my holidays.I wanna travel but sadly..i have no idea where i wanna go.Wanna go to pg but sadly also nobody teman me also.So kelian.So i decided to pack up my luggage and take the earliest possible plane to Melbourne.So here i am in melbourne...as if la lolz..If i was in Melbourne, i suppose Markus will be more than happy.Seriously, i do have loads of great friends there.Cant wait for visiting u guys there!!! Anyway, people i'm free for now..i'm desperate,some ppl anyone please date me lolz.I miss kl so much...!!!
On the other hand, my brand new partner is coming...ooo cant wait for that.I can be with you everytime and evrynight...awww..Don't worry my dear, my partner is an object.Talking about my dear...i know u r tensed with ur studies but dun get too haywire k? Take care of yourself...I'm so sorry cant be with you there ...hope you can forgive my weakness...sigh...
P/S...today is first of may.One month plus i will end my sem!!Gosh damn..i'm so happy that tiem can fly so fast.And somebody is coming back..thats even great news!!!
PP/S this is an old song by bee gess..check it out..kinda sad