Slit My tHroAt..become a Love SuiciDe

nah..dun worry..just a title..i mean a wide eyes opening title.So backed to KL.Actually the journey was rather fuck up as the bus delayed about 2 hours.But thank god,the bus could really speed.So,the travelling time was only 2 hours.It was bit dangerous coz..u know bus is lack of stability.When i reached KL, i was exhausted..praise the Lord for sending ahem someone to pick me up.Thank you Mr.Someone.
Today is a bad day actually.Unfinished assignments and miss the bus and went to college late.Luckily,the lecturer didnt say anything.I was 30 minutes late hehe.And then, thanks to my curiosity and i read my someone's blog.Found out something which does not favour to me.But actually yesterday,she indicated that lots of ppl is eyeing on her.Dude,is not that i don't have courage and confidence but i'm scare being rejected though i wanna know the truth.In my love principal, i can't accept any lost.Now is not rejection nor acceptance.Maybe i'm just Mr.Nobody for her.Maybe i don't look attractive enough.Maybe you just see my lwas.Maybe i cant crack ajoke to make you smile.Maybe is not your time to be committed.I'm not sure i can give to you.I don't have magnetic eyes to attract your eyes.I don't have muscled hands to catch you when u fall.I don;t have 6 feets to reach the place whihc unreachable for you.I don;t have tough strong body to protect you from harm.I don;t have any talent to entertain you when you down or lonely.My tongue is tied so i cant speak the sweet sweet words for you.My wallet is just loaded with red notes,so i can't buy the world for you.My backbone is weak,i cant be that supportive for you in physical aspect.My brain is dumb,so i can't able solve your problems.But these are my flaws but Alvin does have a thing that other ppl don;t have.A pure and sincere heart which can offer you a genuine love and unconditional.Please i'm not putting these sweet sweet words to make you happy.I really mean it.....i really do.I hope i'm the most outstanding one among them