My 200'th blog......the MisErable one

Dude..i really dun like this kinda feeeling.Every morning i wake up, the feeling of emptiness is floating above my head.You know is like void of something.So lonely.Is killing me.I rather take a bottle of sleeping pills and wake up in the state of intoxication.Can forget my current situation.Feel like i'm loser.My foundation to get on with life is being shaken.How long i have to endure this?1 month?A year? forever?How i wish i never met him.So i won't be this miserable....i really wanna know what happened......please