Me?Faithless?

I know i shouldn't feel like this.I just can't help it.I'm not that cheerful Alvin anymore.I really miss that Alvin.I feel myself have fallen.Love is one of the reason but the surronding and the situation are other factors.I got ambition and dreams but i feel like pessimistic...My pathway is very very hazey like distracted by mist.I don't know what to do,maybe i just keep holdtight my faith.