TomorrOw will Be June

Tomorrow will be the last month i'll be in ipoh...i'll be move on to somewhere for my studies.I still not sure where i going but please dun give me somewhere secluded like Kedah or Sabah.I rather boiled alive then.Anywhere, i not sure how to use these 30 days plus.Do the things that havent done?I wish to do that but the person doesn't wanna meet me at all,not even answering my call.How great.I hate people ignoring me.
Thats one of the things i have to do.Beside that,i really need to reload my wardrobe as my clothes are getting dusty and i don't really feel wanna wear it anymore.I guess i'm gonna buy tonnes of new clothes for next month ,futhermore i didnt really buy any shirt for CNY.Sadly,i have to take care of the budget also.
Besides that, i planning 2 have a low scaled class reunion.I know it won't really work as quite a number of them really gone...gone...gone to private colleges.I really miss them actually.Those days in the school.
Somewhere middle of the month, some sort of anniversary celebration gonna be held here.Some of the celebraties will be coming include one of my favourite local singer.Hopefully i could meet him as he is my close friend's close friend's close friend's..some kinda third degree of friend.I do respect him for his talent.Don't worry.I won't fall for his charm.
Holiday?Hopefully i can go travelling somewhere but sadly the people didnt turn up.So,thats what left of me.Alone.Just,anry and sad but i really improve these few days.
Anywhere,chat with my friend in msn.I asked her,life pretty boring when you don't have aim or dream.I'm not totally lost actually,still know what i want,i mean my dream sort of things,but now is still too far.But i won't let go.I wil be Mr. Somebody one day who everyone respects me,adores me and idolize me.Hell yeah i'm gonna reach for that.

The Old Shoe is Gone,now Is the New one

I don't mean that my lover is gone,then i got new lover.Thats wrong.I'm still unofficially single.What i trying to say is my sandal stolen for the third time damn it.Well, in the sense of metaphor,the freaking dirtbag stolen my old shoe in which now he is the one who in my old shoe which carries series of unfortunate events; lover left me, all the sweet promises broken, fallen sick regularly and the list goes on.Now,i got my brand new shoe, i'm in my brand new shoes,i hope it will be bring betterment,happiness and above of all, love luck for me.
What i have been doing lately?Movie of cause.I watched Over The Hedge over the weekend.It was great.The cat in the animation is simply hilarious.By the way,although i'm already 20,i guess is nothing wrong to watch animation.At least i'm entertained.

One in A million.....

Basically,i'm a couch potato.I would spend my so called free time in front of tv regardless of exam or the clouds are falling.Wathcing tv is far more better than playingc games,dota or watsoever.Games are addictive,wasting time and money as well.
Anywhere, The one in a million talent show kicked off yesterday.There is so much similarities between this show and Malaysian Idol in the audition round.First of all, Paul Moss is the judge,again.Then,they gonna be 12 finalists and the viewers at home can vote for them.Sounds fimiliar huh?Maybe i'm kinda idol fan,so this show looks like a copy cat for me.I'm afraid,they gonna cancel the Malaysian Idol this year.If wasn;t, we gonna watch the almost repeated one in a million again as things are kinda same.I hope the next round and the elimination method is different.By the way,i only knew that Marion can speak Malay.
Lastly,i still lost in love.Somebody help me.I need a saviour!!!

Hung Up

You know that after all what had happened to me, i can't really describe my feeling to her now.Sad,disappointment and anger;all these just come at the same time and hit on your face.I can't really wake me up.I need some potion 2 get rid of this.I know indulge myself with friends is one of the alternative to vanish my sadness but it only works for me temporary.I tell myself that if she left me,probably i will find better than her in the future.But i really saw the best when i with her.I don't know what i'm doing.I know is time to let go but i can't do it.Though she kinda cruel to me now but then,i still can't forget her.If iever fell in love with someone,i might scare it is unfair to the new lover.I know the new is sound promising and can bring me happiness but the former lover of mine,it still in myheart.Anyway,i shouldn't be worry about this problem as nobody had approach me so far.Well,i'm not a handsome guy nor a sweet speakin guy..so...i'm still unofficially single.
i'm not really broke up in my view.If really does,i won't behaving like this.Maybe the situation is like the Madonna's song: hung up:Esp the verse:waiting for your call night and day and i fed up..
Anywhere,today is American Idol's finale.I don't know which is my favourite:Taylor really got his style and when he sings,it just makes people stand up on thier feet.My favourtie performance of him is "live on".It just nice when you are down,the these nice words it just feel comfy.Apart from Taylor,Katherine cannot be left aside too.She is not my favourite but this girl really can sings.When she sings the classical ' Somewhere Over the Rainbow' without any background music,she sings like an angel.Not again,please i'm sick of love but i have to blog this:I really wish my loved one can sing,no ,whisper this song to me before i sleep.Cuddling on the bed and this song in the atmosphere,it just awesome but things are not the same now.

Da vinci Code

So,saturday night i finally watch this movie.Thank god, i watched documentary about this movie in National Geographic and Discovery, so i wont be lost while i watching this movie.Though,i'm kinda lost about why Teabing had to be so cruel but i more interested in those secrets and codes matter.

A picture tells a thousand words.Like the picture of " the LASt Supper".Is there any code inside?I'm not sure.But i believe that there is no significant of a "V' sign between Jesus and Mary Mag(John?).But i really curious that from forgotten sources,in some point, you could really see MAry really lies on Jesus arm.What about the holy grail?Why there is a mysterious hand with a knife on a guy third form the left...Is the second guy from the right is Leonardo Da Vinci himself?This da vinci Code things has many intriguing mysterious like Is Priory oF sion exists?

I guess is no point i blogging about the content of this movie/book withoutwatching or reading it.Anyway,i guess people should be open minded about this issue.Just uphold tight your faith,it wil be okay.but what happened if it is true...ooooooo...guess gonna be a big changes of the foundation of this religion.

Why my blogging getting bored..but i really bored blogging about my love stuff.Just find myself that i really well comprehend the true meaning of love fool/

Starry Staryy night...But only me Alone

I know is sad title but i kinda moved on but not completely.So,need to be worry so much about me.Anyway,lately,Ipoh has clear blue sky.At night,just look above...it is awesome if your lover with you.Whisper to him/her:look at the starts,look how they shine for you...with a tin of Pepsi..in the middle of the field or seashore...just simply awesome.But look at myself,only me alone.
Tight slap on my face,i've gotta move on and let it be.Anyway,i will blog about some sort of politic tonight.So,the prime minister will coming to my hometown Ipoh but i'm not sure when.My area is one of the road that leads to the government offices and city centre.What really pissed me off was the authority started to tarred the roads and beautifying it last 2 week ago.Suppose the authority should done thier job when the road is really need2 be repaired and not only repair it when some VIP will use the road...Thats really sucks!!
Last but not least,Elliot is out.I'm speechless.

I neeD somethiNG SpEcTaculaR

So many people think that i should move along and put my love issue aside.Yeah,i doing but i really could not make it in split of the seconds.I need time to recuperate from my wounds and cuts inside me. So,yesterday,it was aweful day for me.I was sleeping in the living hall for my nap,it was dusk.I was so indulged in my sleep til i forgot to swtich on the lights.So,wheni woke up,the feel was pretty sad.You alone in the house,the house was dark and it was raining.I was extremly lonely and keep thinking aboth her.Why she left me here?
Anywhere, I want to do something spectacular in my life.I Want achieve my dream.And i want it now.I'm not those guys who said we're still young and many chances ahead.Why not now?
I saw many friends are doing thier stuff to achieve thier dream.Like learning to be a prominent hairstylist.Beside,last Sunday,i noy found out my friend,Justin is in the Astro's singing contest.I could not believe him that he was in tv and singing F4's song.But i feel great for them as they know what are they doing and they could grab the chance or should i say the launchpad for a better future.For me?I still lookin for the launchpad beside i still recuperating..poor Alvin...

Songs for the Broken heart

For me,music is my soul healer.In this kinda sad situation, i cant stop from listening to music to make me better.Here are the two lists of songs you recommended to listen and vice versa.

Songs which will drive you to suicide:

1. Goodbye my lover by James Blunt.'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun'And I still hold your hand in mine.In mine when I'm asleep.And I will bear my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet...so hollow so hollow'...Aint that sad?Flashing back about the good times...gosh,it just like a sharp-pointed knife cut through your heart.so pepz,don't try to listen this song when you already break up.It will lead you to the kitchen to take the knife and say bye bye.
2. It must have been love by Roxette.This song about the after wake of breaking up.'It must have been love but it's over now. It must have been good but I lost it somehow. It must have been love but it's over now. From the moment we touched 'til the time had run out'. Quite frankly,when i listened to this song after what happened,tears in my eyes.Just speechless.
3. Lonely by Akon.I'm sure you guys know about the lyric.It is quite annoying and sad when the cartoonish chrous telling you how lonely you are.It sucks.I rather turn off the radion than let the cartoon teasing me.
4. We belong together by Mariah Carey.'I'm feeling all out of my elementI'm throwing things, cryingTrying to figure outWhere the hell I went wrongThe pain reflected in this songIt ain't even half of whatI'm feeling inside'.Thi song really describe when your lover is gone.Gone without and preparation.It just gone....sigh...Who gonna take your place?I cant stil believe you're gone,i sitl believe that we still belong together.
5. Congrates Mimi, you're in the list again.this time is 'Without you"No need the lyrics,the intro will make you sob.When i think of this song,just the intro,i will like statued and tinking about the past.sigh....

Songs that ought to listen.Just leave it and have a brand new kinda life!!

1. Since u been Gone by Kelly Clarkson.Close the door and turn the volume way up high.And sing this chorus: 'But since you been goneI can breathe for the first timeI?m so moving onYeah yeahThanks to you,now I getwhat I wantSince you been gone'It feel awesome.When your lover treat you so bad,take revenge on them!!This song really awaken a person who had been a love victim.It really that how stupid you are actually.
2. Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne.'You were everything, everything that I wantedWe were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost itAnd all the memories, so close to me, just fade awayAll this time you were pretendingSo much for my happy ending'It's nice to know you were thereThanks for acting like you caredAnd making me feel like I was the only oneIt's nice to know we had it allThanks for watching as I fallAnd letting me know we were done....Isn't that song really relish your anger and disappoinment.It really heart broken when you see the things so close which you can grap alomost ,i mean in sense of happiness but it just faded away.
3. Don't Cha by Pussycat Dolls.Need not to blog the chorus.It is all well known all over the world.Just imagine,how cruel your ex lover dump you.Don;t be sad.Find another lover more better than him/her, bring your lover to see your ex!!Oh yeah,on your face dude!!He or she must be regret to dump you like this song.
4. Shake it off by Mariah again.Just shake it off for god; sake!!!
5. Move along by All American Rejects.Hey,only love.Thats another aspect in your life like your job or studies.Go with the flow and take things naturally,it will be ok.Just move along when your dreams and hopes are gone.Go on with your life.Is not end of the world.

Though,i feel kinda ok,partially ok actually.You guys may see me strong but to tell you the true,i look strong on outside but inside,i'm shaking.Still hurt and my soul still shattere by the apparent dump/partially break up.Gosh, i still believe that she still come back to me.I don't where am i now,should i go and move along or just wait for him.Sigh....

Where the brokeN hearts go?

Thursday; the promise broken again.Sad? No, i'm pissed off!!!I really despise the people who broke thier promises again and again.Thank goodness, that night i got charity dinner to attend.If not,i would be greatly depressed by the broken promise.
Anywhere, many of my friends to console to let go if the person you love,doesnt love you anymore.Easy to say but hard to do.The situation like this with no sms and no answer call, i'm really really tired.Now, 90 %,i given up for the hope.10 %, ihave no idea save it for what reason buti guess the sweet memories and she had given me the best,before.Is hard to turn back time but hey,heaven only knows.Well, she ignoring me for quite sometimes..now i just feeling like the leo koo's song which goes...." no need 2 b lovers, be a dog ,be a cats are better !!'
So, finally, my status now is single,erm..single but not available? partially single? Pretty confusing but if we could make it one more time,i wouldnt mind to start a new beginning but the stiuation still prolong like this,i will really give up.
But is kinda deja vu as every year around mid of the year,i would face a love problem,if break up, around 1 month past, the love will be in the sky agaian for me again.So,just keep my finger crossed.
After all these happened, i never thought i could be this strong.Is true,i thought it would be an apocalypse for me but it didnt turn out to be that way.

Am I Really 20 years old?

Today,went out with my friend 2 a salon which one of the hairstylist, Eugene is my friend.Unexpectedly,my old school mate was also there,Simon. Cit chat as usual but something quite interesting,he said " I havent seen you for very long time u still look like this?'.Simon added,is this your friend of Your elder sis?" I'm not sure i look this young or my friend look old but anywhere i go ,when i stumble upon my old friends ,they will say that-my look still unchanged.Not only goes to my friends, my mom friend's too.One particular was very interesting.One day,i picked up my mom from a coffee shop where she had drinks with her friends.So since their chat still veyr long way to go, my mom asked me to go down from the car to have a coffee or something.Okie..But when my mom's friend saw me, this was what she said " hey,your son can drive ah? got driving license?. My mom replied " of cause,he is 20 already" "oh,really? He looks like a kid, i thought he is Form 3"
Am i really look 20 years olds or still look like a kid.Anywhere i'm happy with it haha.aNy the way,sometimes i felt sorry for my friends cause people will ask, "is he your younger bro?" haha.
Back to my love life,i'm speechless but the situation is just like the song elanour by Low millions.Just check it out.

My blog: 1 year old

So,yesterday my blog turned 1 year old.I remember last year i started off with my blog with sad story concerning about love and rejection.! Year had past,but yet ,i still trapped in love but this time is different.It's about salvation but i'm afraid i will lose this battle..I can;t lose.
Anywhere,this blogging thing which introduced by Annie had somewhat accompany me through the bad and good times.It became my hobby,it really does.

We're just Ordinary..take it slow

That's John Legend's song talking about life particularly about love.Yeah,take it slow but sometimes things are cornered and you need 2 solve it before the time runs out.This is what happening to me.I don't mean being a hopeless dude but as i expected,she didnt show up again,not the first time.Gosh,i'm really exhausted of being waiting for a person.Promises are really important to me as when i put my hope in it..Promise after promise ,i'm really disappointed.However, though i'm deeply disappointed but i don't know why i still put some hope in it.Am i really intoxicated with love?
Anywhere, i don't know what happened to her,she didnt answer my call since morning.I'm really worry about you.I'm afraid something bad happen to you....

The moment That i've been Waiting 4

i'm not very sure and i won't give all my hope but i guess she is coming tommorow.This is the moment i have been waiting 4 almost half year.What i really hope is,we could reconciliate and have a new begining...So people,pray for me and wish me tonnes of luck!!!
Anywhere,u may seem my blog nothing but love but i wanna blog something else but when i start to type, is all abou tlove.I just can't help it.Sorry if my blog is bit annoying and sent chill to your spine hehe...

01.02.03.04.05.06

so after midnight tonight, precisely 1 hour 2minutes and 3 seconds on 4'th of May 2006, you will get time and date ; 01 02 03 04 05 06.Bizarre huh? This happen only once in a century.So grab the chance to do extraordinary thing on this very time.Open a bottle of wain ,break some rules, do some pratical jokes, propose or say to your loved one how much you love her/him.For me, of course, a love loser like me will tell her how much i love her and hope for reconcialiation and hope for a new beginning with her on that moment and bury all the hatred,anger and disappointment we had before.Anywhere, i'm not sure i will get through as i know the line will get busy again.
Anywhere,i finally got the snail's song by Jay chow.I don't know why i like this song so much.It really picture the meaning of life.Life is like a snail.You're small and have big dream, you got to climb slowly to reach the goal..I just love it.

MAy Day

It's already May but the person i waited for so long still hasn't shown up.Don't know why i still put so much hope and holding on.Some said it is useless to wait for the thing that it wont bring you happiness but i still can't let go.Why?Cause intially when i dating with you,i really saw the most beautiful things..your charming smile,your wonderful plus heart warming things you did to me.I wish you could be my life partner in future.But now,the wish is turning to utopian.Though the hope is just like a needle in the ocean but the needle is my hope.I'm gonna take the ship to sail across the sea to get the needle.I'll waiting for you.
I cant blog much about my love cause my lips are sealed for certain reason.For those who reading this,just wish me luck okie? By the way,this sunday will be the first anniversary for my blog.Yeah!!!
Actually,i'm sorta loser here cause i have been blogging too much on my love..sigh....