Soul Searching Again

There's a song; If i ain't got u by alicia keys which the intro goes...Some people live for the fortune,some people live for the fame.....So,what i looking for? Yeah,most of the people is just look for the fortune but i won't preoccupied by the fortune.There's something that is larger than life i suppose.What i want for life is a good career.Good career for me is not all bout money.But doing things that i like and i interested and expand my capability in that particular career.What i really hope i can be in the future is to be the next Ted Turner.Build my own empire network and excel in it haha.Alas,it is a long journey for me but then i know wat i want i hope i can achieve it.
Secondly health.I dun have much problem with my health though i have weak digestive system and my sensitive skin.But lately,i suspect myself i got high pressure as everytime i eat prawn or get pissed off my heart will pump very fast.Young guy with old health problem...sigh....
Last but not least, a successful career won't be realized without a good lover behind.I have found one.However,i admit that our relation is a bit hostile lately.I have no idea whats the root of our problems.We will get easily pissed off just a tiny matters.What all this for?I really scare to lose you.Everytime i fight with you,ill be very heartache and disappointed.I'm tyring my best to get our love to survive but you seem to lost all the confident,making me i losing too.Once we all lose it,thats it ,it will lead to breaking up; you will go your way and i will go mine.Of coz i dun want this to be happened.NEVER EVER!!Dear,we come to this far,i don't want to give up.I know sometimes i did something wrong or even u really pissed me off but thats already past.Dear,this kind of the relationship is really hard 2 find the right one.Dear, no one is perfect in the wolrd'you and me too.Complement each other weakness and moulding each other to become a better person.Dear,my life nothing i can proud of....i have nothing and not perfect,broken family,no bling bling......i just got you.If you dump me,i rather end my life now.I'm not blogging this just to make you happy or to pity me, these are my words from bottom of my heart.I'm really sorry if sometimes i got the bad attitude again and again.......From the moment i saw you, i already fell in love with you...