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dont love u

2007-05-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait

2007-05-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

the You know what, only two weeks left to my sem break.Time really flies!!!Though, my sem is ending but my assignment still exist but not that heavy compared to last time. So,i've got timefor my own now.Lately, there is nothing much happen as yet the same old saying, assignment, my PR last assignment. But Sunday, i went out with Matthew and Iris.

and hang out in Sg Wang and times Square.Thanks to my assignment load, is been like 3 weeks i didnt really do my shopping. So at last, it was my time to do my little shoping spree in Sg Wang. I saw many nice and reasonable price clothes there but i didnt buy anything.Not because i'm broke but every clothes that i interested, it didn't have my size!! I had to b;lame myself why i'm so slim for the big size shirt..sigh..Anywhere, i did two wrongful things that i shouldn't have done. Firstly, i ate KFC.KFC was like so tempting, it's been awhile i didnt have my chew on the crispy Spicy Chicken. Crunch crunch..yummy..until 3 big pimples on my face.I should'nt eat KFC at the first place as i knew that i didnt have enough sleep..I'm such a fool.And yeah, the other stupidity was, me and Iris 'tah pau' a big pack of rojak just behind Sg Wang, and we ate it on the bench in Times Square.My goodness, so many people looking at us, as if were like dunno from which kampung doing oddity stuff.Oh yeah, finally i saw Daniel Lee in person. Many people asked which local artiste u really wanna see.My asnwer will definately will Daniel Lee. I don't know why.He is talented and decent. I like this kinda guy.. i mean admiring ...he is much better looking in real person actually.

Btw, i bid my farewell to my 5 years BUM wallet on Sunday.Guess what wallet i using now? Louis Vuitton's Monogram Canvas-Florin Wallet.Gosh, it was just simply fantastic.I can't believe i can own an LV wallet. Original or imatated..figure ask urself lolz...

Okla, stop boasting about my LV. Back to my personal life, i mean my love life. Finally, i have made up my mind to relinquish my target. Not because i changed my heart to someone else but dude, i really really tired of 0 progress and he said that he is anti-relationship kinda guy.Maybe i should blame myself for not taking any initiative. If i taken the move also, the distance, the distance between one continent and to other is always be a issue. He is very veyr far from me. Maybe i got hurt from my previous long distance relationship, thats why i dun want to be hurt anymore. This is my life, my only life, why must i hurt myself? I don't know why i mourn my current single life. I still got my friends rite? I know but friends cannot fulfil what lover can do. The passion and the chemistry.I miss it so much the feel when i look to my lover's eye and tell him how much i love him. Though many people is chasing me but sorry,i'm very picky. It is hard to be my lover. I'm not looking for hot,cute handsome guy.Well, i mean beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, so when i can the person's internal beauty, he is already beautiful in my sight. Maybe since so many people chasing me and admiring me(o Shit, i boasting myself again-but i can't avoid the matter of fact lol), this moulded me to a egocentric person in a relationship. I don't want my lover is without substance. I want my lover who can bring himself well, decent( i mean not too decent til like a sissy fella), polite(i'm banana kinda guy so i dun he speaks vulgar words in english, but please don't speak rude words in chinese), fluent in english and know how to twist the language.Yes, i really admire that kinda person!! Must knwo how 2 play music instrument( err..guitat is too mediocre for me-why not violin or sexaphone?). Know how groom himself and presentable, get along with my friends, love shopping, well educated, smart....wait a minute, am i selling myself here? Gosh i look like a cheapskate here.Maybe i'm desperate here. I'm sad actually to make my decision to give up on him but i've got my life ahead and i don't want anything to hold me back.
You know what i wnna do after this blog? I'm so sick with my love life..i just wanna have bottom-up Jean-Marc XO Vodka and desencitize myself into the world of my own ....being with the one that i love with this song

Confusion,Perplexity,Mystification and Puzzlement

2007-05-19T22:56:00.001+08:00

It's weekend again but i still doing my DDP assignment. But almost 90 % percent after those webpage,fact sheet and magazine article.Talking about DDP, i have to quote this though i know myself is bit boasting around lolz. The lecture, Miss Jenny said "Alvin, your written assignment is very good.The way you put your ideas are very cute".Wha?t very cute?.Okay, this was the first time listen to a such compliment.I am happy to get distinction for that assignment as i have to read a reference book which the language of the author is pathetic.K.I should keep my big mouth shout . So today, i went to Mid Valley with Tommy. Before that, i thought Frank was death.Gosh, he has been sleeping from 12 o'clock yesterday til 12 o'clock this afternoon.Then, he had his breakfast, not long after that, he sleep again. Sleeping Beauty i suppose.I wondering who is the prince Charming.I think it's the waiter from the mamak stall.lolz.Cut the crap, i saw many nice stuff in Mid Valley; DKNY perfume, Adidas shoes, Adidas beg and gosh a gigantic framed photos of Simpsons which each of characters in it.I want to buy it ah!!!!!!!!I hope still got stock when i'm loaded.Btw, i saw MAtthew in mid val.Gosh, isn't it the world is so small.He came down all the way from sarawak to study today and i stumble upon him in mid val.

Ok, back to my pathetic so called one sided love life.I didnt mean to put my title like dat until what happened yesterday.My friend who knows M said M is online evryday and he even chat with M.While i chatting with him, M is online as well according to him.But why i couldn't see him online? There are two possiblity-one is something wrong with M or my MSN which is unlikely and second-M blocks me. This is likely as i checked his friendster and it stated that he logging 24 hours ago.I send him message in friendster but y no any news from him.Is he avoiding me, why? Maybe i just too sensitive.Maybe i have too many free time and nothing to do fall in one sided love. I have no idea what i am doin now.So confused. Drowning myself in assignments.I'm not sad but i hate this kinda of situation-situation of puzzlement which there is no answer.I feel puke about it. I want to know what is going on.There is nothing i can do now.Assignment and wait for answer or him .

confuse

2007-05-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

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2007-05-15T16:56:00.000+08:00

mom' s day

2007-05-13T02:00:00.000+08:00

Back to ipoh again for mother's day.Alvin is such a good son. I know that thank you. Lolz..Cut the crap.Thurday was bit a tensed day for me and for my coursemates as well. Coz most of them didnt do really well for the assignments.For me? I stil havent got my result yet so keep my finger crossed.Beside the result, lately got some argument between two of my coursemates.Why not they just bury the hatchet? We need peace in this world!! hello!!!

Anwya, i having great time in ipoh and i still having great time now lolz.Yesterday went out with Iris and Yuen and gosh we were pokin like fun like mad. We had great supper too....mixed fruit ice yummy.Even i went out with her today...she is such a nice daughter. Bought hermommy a osim massaging thingy, a fruit cake and flowera..i guess i could never be a good son like her..lolz

Hey, today is mother's day. So what comes in your mind when the mother is uttered out? Yeah, the sacrifice and dedicated love.Even our animal friend show the greatness of mother hood as well. There was a incident which i can recall vividly. On one fine late at night i saw cat scarvaging for food around the rubbish, okie i htought it was a norm for the stray cats.But what really touched me was, the food she had it was not for her..but she went to the other side of the road for her kittens, 3 of them.My god, the food was so little, how they gonna share it..very sad. But in brighter side, the kittens would be die of hunger if not her mom.So dude, please respect your mom. The animals can do it, why cant u? Don't raise your voice at them, don't send them to oldfolks home, don;t let them to overworry about you, give them money if you;ve got, give them attention, spend time with them and of coz shower trhem with love...

Happy mother's day to my mom who still go for movies and concert at age nearing 50...Love ya

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2007-05-05T01:44:00.000+08:00

Finally i could sit on the couch to blog. Do uhave any idea how tired am i? like 2 days in a row without nap and late night sleep..almost 4 in the morning. Maybe my biological gone loco...come on four in the morning...!!!! and my dark wrinkle..my gosh..henious!!!
Anyway, nothing much happening lately except i've got my brand new partner. But sadly she couldnt speak..i think i havent touch some buttons on her.dude, i dun mean sex stuff here.My partner is just compaq v3210..laptop.Finally i could get myself with a laptop..and thanks to my dad.
Today, i woke at 12 pm and wondered where my mom and bro went with the car.Then got a memom on the staircase which read : Alvin, mom and jimmy went to watch Spiderman 3. Got food on the table. Daddy buying the laptop for you today!..ohh okmy mom watch spiderman prior to me..thats interesting.Plus, i went to watch Eason Chan promo tour with my mom and my bro and of coz with his ex taiwanese gf. Thats even more interesting.Talking about Eason.oh man, he could sing!!! Thats why i always dub him as the most male voice singer in HK. It is so simple, plain, clear but it is so beautiful!!! Actually bit annoyyed as i stood there like half an hour waiting for him..my poor legs...
Back to my love life.Okay, my wortiness of waiting is getting near to the edge.Not saying that i giving up on him..but i really doubt my wortiness of waiting of him. Am i too useless of giving up chance for the people who chasing me rite now? I dun think so coz i found some who i looking for so that i wont give up on him.But, it's been awhile we didnt contact each other.I 'm no bugger who always bugging people life but i concern about him..i miss him so much..is he reciprocate my missing back to me? I'm not sure..i hope so..i hope he will correspondent with me very soon as me myself getting confuse3.Is he having someone there...yes or no, i wont blame him as we are not attach though but it will be very pathetic for me.Sigh...Though i doubt my wortiness but i still saving all my love for u.

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath awayAnd I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or rightAnd though I can’t be with you tonightAnd know my heart is by your side...

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2007-05-02T00:17:00.000+08:00

i know my previous entry i blog about my problems. Nah, no need to worry as it was bit settled and it was just my negative and narrow thinking.So now i literally problem free.My holidays so far just sucks.Most of the time at home, tv,oprah,national geograhic, youtubing and of coz my lovely assignments.Well, now i'm bit relieve as most of the assignments were done.Now i really can enjoy my holidays.I wanna travel but sadly..i have no idea where i wanna go.Wanna go to pg but sadly also nobody teman me also.So kelian.So i decided to pack up my luggage and take the earliest possible plane to Melbourne.So here i am in melbourne...as if la lolz..If i was in Melbourne, i suppose Markus will be more than happy.Seriously, i do have loads of great friends there.Cant wait for visiting u guys there!!! Anyway, people i'm free for now..i'm desperate,some ppl anyone please date me lolz.I miss kl so much...!!!
On the other hand, my brand new partner is coming...ooo cant wait for that.I can be with you everytime and evrynight...awww..Don't worry my dear, my partner is an object.Talking about my dear...i know u r tensed with ur studies but dun get too haywire k? Take care of yourself...I'm so sorry cant be with you there ...hope you can forgive my weakness...sigh...
P/S...today is first of may.One month plus i will end my sem!!Gosh damn..i'm so happy that tiem can fly so fast.And somebody is coming back..thats even great news!!!
PP/S this is an old song by bee gess..check it out..kinda sad

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2007-04-27T23:49:00.000+08:00

Finally,i backed to ipoh after 2 hours ride in the middle of the night on Tuesday.It was an extreme tiring as prior the journey i hang out with my mates for lunch in the italianshop behind my house.The meal was awesome.We met not because for the mela but for the interview.Excuse me, we were not lookin for job but we were the interviwers on our assignment about a NGO. The interview was ok and we conducted interview in SEGI college.Seriously, the college looks like a hotel with lobby and chandlier and huge.Bigger than my college though.

Anywya, not so much happening in Ipoh.Just stick at home doin my assignments and hang out with Yuen.Talking about assignment, ihave to fork out RM19 to buy Puteri Gunung Ledang VCD. I'm not a big fan of local move but i have to write a movie review for my assignment, i mean 1500 words!!!Gosh!! i just finished watching today.It was total boredom but i can feel the power of l;ove in this movie.If u r love sick, go and watch this movie...You will crying like mad.

Ok, back to my personal life.Oh lord...why i feel so sad today?!!I think i having mood swing like a girl.I don't know what happening to me.Do you think that i'm kinda independent guy? I have no judgement on this.But today, i watch an interview about Dodo Cheng.She said that when she was small, her parents divorce.Hence, when she've got problems, she wont tell the parents or her friends as she doesnt wanna to trouble people.Consequently, she became an independent and tough women in entertainment..i mean in HK.You know what, this reminds me of me!!! Really, when i've got problem, i wont tell anyone ..i just swallow it and handle it by myself.Pathetic or what ever u wanna name it but i just dun want trouble people.Sometimes, the problem is like very major and huge but hey!! Alvin could handle it.Like my studies..hell no i going 2 study in dunno what KUKTEM and it is big no no my dad gonna send me to send me oversea.Ok.Fine, so i study 3+0, get the scholarship and get the loan and paying my fees myself.Ain't alvin grew up.But sometimes, things aint going my way..i feel so tired to handle it by myself.Like now, i really need a shoulder to lay upon but sigh...due to my principal, i have to handle it by myself, i already 21.Sometimes, i really curious whaty u guys think about me.I know a clown, happy go lucky, cute, romantic, rich, angelic kinda person..i relaly dunno..i really dunno about myself that well too.The person i love the most currently well he is not beside me.He is somewhere down there.Of coz not hell, in down under.As long as his heart and his mind is about me, i will be satisfy.See how independent and grown i am.No need a lover to really physical beside me.But hey, i miss you very very much.Everytime i on my bed, i just wet the bed dreaming of u.Joking,i just fantazise my bolster is u and when i close my eyes, i just have to dream and you are beside me.

On this very hour and when i 'm really down and brokedown, Thank God there's a song to make me feel better....Thank God..i love u, thnaks for your blessing..hope you will give me more strength and wisdom for my path in my latter life....

longest week ever

2007-03-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

Finally is weekend. My true weekend as eventually i can enjoy my weekend without facing my never ending assignments literally. I had to admit that i survived the toughest week ever in my college.Tuesday -presentation which i had no idea what the subject all about. Wed- this is the most classic. 8 hours of lecture. Yeah!! 8!! pat!! lapan!!!. From 8 am to 5 pm with just an hour break. It was a torture and challenging those who got sleeping passion, blur case and impatience fellow students. Well, what kept us awake was the candies and the mints. Though, i know that the mint will kill my sperms but i really cant take it anymore. Thank god, Rachel telling ghost stories keep us awake which i not really believe in ghost. Thanks Rachel. Not only that, Wednesday was the due date for our 1k essay, i know most of us but not me burnt midnight oil to finish the assignment. Thursay..4 hours again as got replacement. But i went to college early as got study group in the morning. Actually, i would like it to be called picnic. Why? coz we bought a lot of sneaks like Twisties, Chezzel etc for something to much during our discussion. Thanks to dat..now my voice like Frank Sinatra. But i found it very sexy. Even my girl friends asked me to sing those oldies as with my low and sexy voice..i would melt them lolz.After class i went to sg wang to met junzi.He was dumbfounded why my voice was so low and speaking in accent.Actually i love to speak in accent ..i wish i could have sore throat most of the time to become my voice became like so S.E.X.Y....Thanks ot my voice, today presentation was kinda fresh of flavour. Coz i presenting in low and clear voice and it is very very man and sexy . But it was a good presentation as i'm not reading while presenting. I just presenting to the audiences using ppt. That was so cool.
I guess i put some wieght on my face again as lately my meals are so marvellous. Sakae sushi and omg, Swensen's earthquake ice cream!!! 8 types of flavour!!! It was so delicious...but baskin still remains my favourite. And later, going to Hartz for chicken buffet. My calories and my voice sure got haywire again.
Back to personal life. Well, nothing much changing. Friends come and go. I'm still bitchy. Love? speechless....still waiting for someone ( or perhaps i found?) to dance with me with this song and fulfill every lyric in this song and make it a reality

far away

2007-03-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

You know what, this is my third time to blog this entry. Thanks to this fucking computer, it auto shut down and i dun even have the chance to save my entry.Damn it. Anyway, i'm in Ipoh for the weekends and to chill out. You know, cloudy days without any dust, no traffic and uncrowded restaurants and no foreigners..just love it.But it is kinda oxymoron situation...feel kinda bored and rather quiet in ipoh. Maybe i'm too kl life already hehe. These past few days were tiring and hectic.Assignments and my ex housemate issue which got me on my nerve.Next will be even more tensed. 2 assignments due and 2 presentation and 2 replacement classes. Sigh,,,wish got shoulder to lie on when i got back home from the tiring class.
On the other hand, last thurs was Mitch birthday.Mitch, u already 20.Must respect elders like me.Treat them nicely esp person like me haha.Wish u all ur dreams come true. For her birthday, we had brunch at Kim Gary. Initially, i just order one lemon tea but thanks to thier limited appetite, they just gave thier desert to me. Mango pudding, jelly and secret recipe cake, you can imagine how full i am.Besides, i have to give credit to Markus.Well, i brought him to the brunch.Markus didnt know it was Mitch's birthday and he didnt know Mitch at all. So, since he felt so guilty or just being nice, in end of the day, he bought her a small but cute present.That was so sweet.Come on, if me or u out there, you wouldnt buy a present for a stranger or mere acquitance, rite? Markus...y u left so fast!! I missing u here.
Back to my love life.Still, i'm single but kinda unavaible.Yes, i admit that i found someone.He is not cutie or hottie.Hey, i;'m not a good look seeker or gold digger by the way. I just admire and in love by his substance.I'm not giving a chemistry class here.The substance means here is his inner beauty and his character..the way he cares about me. I feel very sweet when i was with him.He is a really sweet person...sugar pie honey bun i call it. He does know how to make a clever conversation.You know, the conversation that make u indulge and make u feel interested.He is not that person who wanna attract my attention but he is just a person who being himself.I like it...But i didnt confess or make any move.Why? coz it is long distance. I really afraid to be hurt again.I've got nightmare from mysecond ex. I really no idea what should i do..should i confess or being alone here and missing and thinking of him?

P/S: i'm not a smallville fan but this video is nice.....I love youI have loved you all alongAnd I miss youBeen far away for far too longI keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never goStop breathing if I don't see you anymore...i hope one day and soon..i will sing this to u:Cause I neededI need to hear you sayThat I love youI have loved you all alongAnd I forgive youFor being away for far too longSo keep breathing'Cause I'm not leavingHold on to me and, never let me go

Valentine's day

2007-02-14T17:56:00.001+08:00

Before i blog this entry i just wanna wish everyone..attached or single a happy valentine's day.. I hope your little fairy tales will come true. So single and desperado people like me how going 2 celebrate valentine? Every year is the same, helping my aunt in the florist. It was kinda sweet to look at the recipients receiving the flowers.The smiles on thier faces..the sweetness.How envy...But isnt valentine is commercialized.The flowers, the cards..the bears..the restaurant.Thank goodness i'm single and need not to spend on these stuff. Save!!

Question: Do you wish to celebrate this occasion?

Seriously, i realy wish as i never celebrate valentine before with my ex.What about this year? Aint i got anyone wanna celebrate with me? Yeah, a lot of people want me to be thier valentine. But valentine is something sacred, so i wont simply date with anyone who interested in me and rather celebrate alone. I mean my close friends can celebrate with me as they my loved ones.I wanna end my entry now as pretty tired here. Above is a video for all of ya...happy valentine...Happy valentine to my valentine in kl who is busy studying. I got one message for you...what you are thinking?

this is my last blog

2007-02-04T17:24:00.000+08:00

this is my last blog as i leavin this place soon...joking...my blog will be moved to www.princealvinhitler.multiply.com see u there

2007

2007-01-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

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Seriously, i dun make resolution as once made it, i had to make it real and i scare i would fail. But today, since it is damn bored, i will simply give u a glimpse of my resolutions. Generally, do well in my studies, good health,prosperity and have a luxurious life. But personally, i really wish my life will be attached again .Of coz with the one i crushing rite now. Almost half year i've been crushing her but i got big 'L' on my forehead. Sigh.....i will burst and becoming insane soon. Somebody help me. On the other hand, my friend who is gay is some sort in my situation.You know that i done a presentation on homosexual before.One of the relationship for them is egalitarian relationship which both same sex couples take both roles regardless of gender based roles nor age based roles. But the problem for him is will it be possible for a egalitarian relationship? Well, i mean i got many gay friends but none of them is in this kinda relationship. Most of them are gender based relationship. I couldnt say b\much about this coz love is sometimes is undefined.But i gotta message to the person that i crush....ooooooo........Remember i confessed to you before but i failed. Now already in 2007, things had changed for good and for worst. You are still the one that i love. You're eyes still making me weak on my knee. Your voice is like morning call to me..a voice like an angel who can i seek love to. But all these are just my fantasy. You are not here with me...Everytime i dream of u, i wish i rather be sleeping prince and never wake up again..so i can be with you. I feel like i'm big fat loser. Unable to confesss to you. I scare of your rejection. I scare i really cant take care of you nor love you that u wanted as i was hurt i mean extremely hurt my previous relationship.My wound still bleeding. Only you can stitch back my wound. Listen to me my dear, I'm pretty sure that i'm not your kind that person you really want. It sounds like i've got 0 confidence. I could not label it no confident at all.. i just scare you will suffer if you with me. I scare i cant give the best for you. But...shit...i'm in total dillema. Seriously, i really love you...i wish i could take care of you and u take care of me.. i wish i could cherish you...i wish everyday i could say a prayer that how much i thank the Lord that you are with me...i wish i could hug you tight and never let you go.....i wish i kiss your fore head as i want you to know how dear you are to me. I wish i could go travel with ya..stand on the mountain with you...strolling on the sandy beaches and gazing the stars which are the witness of our love...This is my wish, only you can realize my wish. I don't know you really into me or not. Sometimes, it kinda silly. It is really make my day when i c ur messages or msn. I even could die in intoxication of love when i c ur real person....I know you will not accept me but i already had you at hello....143

2006

2007-01-02T01:24:00.000+08:00

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Before i blogging this entry, i read my 2005 year end blog. So many changes in between 2005 and 2006.2005 i was struggling with my stpm and 2006, i was in the uni life. 2005 i was happily dating but this year, is overall single. Overall, it is not pretty good year for me. My lover dumped me, my mom left me for Switz for one month and many series of unfortunate events. Here some of the most defining moments of 2006:
The most eventful moment of my life in the year of 2006 gotta be my uni/college life.From a mummy's little boy who is so pampered to the life which i could mostly depend on my own and be independent. I really glad i could made and done that. Besides, i indeed made a lot of nice friends in my college like Michelle, KayLee, Rachel and ALicia and off campus as well in kl. Maybe my life is kinda blessed which so many wonderful friends in my life. I really glad to know you guys. Meanwhile, it is my first time to experience the Australian education. It is much better than our own education.Not forgetting, the sketch which me and my group mates presented. It was so funny coz i became a bitch called Alvina. Hey, seriously, it was worth it coz i got credit for this subject
After Chinese New Year, i had a lonely period. My mom left me to Switz for some reason for more than a month. In that period, i was really depressed. Living alone in the big big house. My companion only the sofa, tv and my bed. Lack of friends and my lover was not beside me. Nobody that i could talk to, eating alone most of the time. I'm so damn freaking lonely. But anyhow, my mom is back here.
Breaking up with my lover. I could understand why i break up almost every year. Cant i have a long lasting relationship? She broke all our promises which really ripped through my heart. Never thought a nice loving relationship could end up like this.But now, she dating with my friend. How ironic. Just wish her best of luck. Quite angry also, how could she got a lover so instant and yet i'm still single. Though there are plenty of people kinda got interest on me but i still crushing that person. I hope 2007 i will call her as my dear...hopefully.....SOS

weird and funny kinda situation

2006-12-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

If not mistaken, i blog that my ex got a lover. But yesterday i found out something. My ex's lover is my friend as well.what the hell? It is a small world after all. I'm not feeling sad but only weird. Maybe this had waken me that what it really means;past is already past. A tea leaf wont be tasteful after be boiled second time. I dont deserve to mourn for the lost if my second ex.I should transform my mourning to a hope, a hope and a plan and a vision to have a brand new lover who is much better. Actually, i have been approached as well but sorry for them, is hard for me to develop feel on u. Maybe i set the requirement is very very strict but i really want the best for me. Love is meant to be selfish. And it is hard to pass my sight...i mean i define someone beautiful....somewhere which is undefinable. What about ppl who i crush? Is a curse...the people i crush will not have feel on me seriously. Done that been there many many times....

So this is xmas

2006-12-25T15:03:00.000+08:00

This season to be jolly. Yeah,quite awesome celebration for me this year for the Yuletide. I having double celebrations. One is for the eve in the kay elle and the 25 of dec will be celebrated in Ipoh. Tiresome eh? But who cares....At least i'm not a loner like last year; celebrating alone with the tv and sofa. Anywhere, back to the eve. It was quite rush for me as me and my friend got date for a movie in Times Square. The movie will be reviewed in my multiply's review, so u guys check it out. So, after the movie, you know the youngsters( i'm consider the senior citizen liaon) were gathering around the area i think up to Jln BB. They were holding spray..yeah spray war. It was much regretted as my FM and others who considered maniac friends were not with me. If they did, we would have world war there...bubble bath haha. Luckily, i didnt kena at all...and i dunno why...maybe i look fierce, wasnt i? One of the factor also i was having supper in Nando , so they were not dare to get in.After the thingy, we were heading to KLCC to meet my friends. Well, unfortunately, we had a tour in Kampung Baru instead. It was pretty awkward, a big city with a kampung in the heart. If i got piece of land there, sure i'll be rich. Back to the journey, so finally after we took several wrong routes, we reached klcc. So bad, my friends left and the Petronas was so budget tight, they shut down the light. What a waste, such a beautiful builiding on a holy night-everything was dark. We reached home almost four am and i woke up at six. Imagine how tired am i right now...poor alvin.

On the other hand, do you think that xmas is too commercialized nowadays. U just take a stroll down to a restaurants or shopping malls..everything is santa clause, xmas tree, xmas dinner package and the list goes on. But do our people and esp the younger generation really know idea the true meaing behind xmas? I bet most of them do. They tend to be brainwashed by the santa claus franzy but neglect the birthday of the saviour, Jesus Christ. Yeah, a day about love, family, forgive and forget and most of all ...peace<>

Lastly, so this is christmas. Mr Santa, i've been pretty good boy this year, i dun ask for snow or any gold and any deemed material but all i want is... welll.....a lover i guess. Gosh, i'm so darn desperate. Yeah, Alvin is full of love and passion. A day is empty without a lover.

So, to my friends and anyone who readin this blog..yes !!! u!!! i wish u that all your dreams will come true

An untitled blog

2006-12-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

Come away with me on a busCome away with me where they can't tempt usWith their liesI want to walk with youOn a cloudy dayIn fields where the yellow grass growsknee kighSo won't you try to comeCome away with me and we'll kissOn a mountain topCome away with meAnd I'll never stop loving youAnd I want to wake up with the rainFalling on a tin roofWhile I'm safe there in your armsSo all I ask is for youTo come away with me in the nightCome away with me.....When you're feeling lost in the night When you feel your world just ain't right Call on me I will be waiting Count on me I will be there Anytime the times get too tough Anytime your best ain't enough I'll be the one to make it better I'll be there to protect you See you through I'll be there and there is nothing I won't do. I will shield your heart from the rain I will let no harm come your way Oh these arms will be your shelter No these arms won't let you down If there is a mountain to move I will move that mountain for you I'm here for you I'm here forever I will be your fortress Tall and strong I'll keep you safe I'll stand beside you Right or wrong Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years There was only you and me We were young and wild and freeNow nothin' can take you away from me We've been down that road before But that's over now You keep me comin' back for more Baby you're all that I want When you're lyin' here in my arms I'm findin' it hard to believe We're in heaven BRYAN ADAMS
HEAVEN Lyric
Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years There was only you and me We were young and wild and freeNow nothin' can take you away from me We've been down that road before But that's over now You keep me comin' back for more Baby you're all that I want When you're lyin' here in my arms I'm findin' it hard to believe We're in heaven And love is all that I need And I found it there in your heart It isn't too hard to see We're in heaven Oh - once in your life you find someone Who will turn your world around Bring you up when you're feelin' down Ya - nothin' could change what you mean to me Oh there's lots that I could say But just hold me now Cause our love will light the way I've bin waitin' for so long For somethin' to arrive For love to come along Now our dreams are comin' true Through the good times and the bad Ya - I'll be standin' there by you

Saints r coming

2006-12-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

sigh...never knew that my sem break will be like this. The spider webs are casted all over me. I've been so called had fun so far but now is like everything is rapid becoming calm and way too calm. Wanna go back to kay elle but it is troublesome for me to travel back there. Might be cleberating new year there. But the problem is the Yuletide still undated. I dun wanna celebrate a lonely xmas like last year after something happen. Maybe my life is fated to be a loner...lonely...i'm so lonely..i have no body but hey...xmas is near, i hope something magical will windfall upon me...

Class gathering and my new born multiply

2006-12-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

So, yesterday night was our class gathering. It was really nice to see them again. No major changes on them but Rahcel got a brand new hairstyle haha. So many news that i never knew about class mostly about break up those stuff....Anywhere, we took tonnes of pics there. Meanwhile u can check out the pics and the rest of my pics in my new born baby multiply at www.princealvinhitler.multiply.com ......i hope is cool for u guys

On the other hand, while the girls having thier girl talk, i was chatting with Woon Hang. I was quite suprised about his going to be uni. His uni is some sort of partly gov sponsor and main purpose is helping the students to enrol in tertiary education due to the fact of its fees are lower and assist those who cant enrol to public uni. What so bewildered me was that uni required the students to pay it fees two weeks before the enrolment and if u fail to do so, u will be penalized with RM 100 a week. I thought this uni suppose to help the students. Compare to my college, the fees are paid on the first day of the enrolment and if late only RM 50 a week. And it even offer scholarships!! Now who say Taylors is money eater? Come to taylors!!

I met An Accident today

2006-12-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

What a bad day it was. Since i got my license, i never had an accident until today. And my record was tarnished today. This is the story. I was travveling back to my house after picked up my mom. The incident happened close to my house. It was raining. I was crusing to my home and suddenly a speeding motorcycle was speeding. And he was in my lane in the opposite direction. So, i gave my blaring honk but yet, it didnt deter the cyclist. Then i hit the sudden break and he didnt stop as well!!! He rammed to my car and he whole body lying flat on my engine. Thank god he didnt hit my windscreen, if not..my face will be not beautiful anymore.The cyclist didnt injured at all suprisingly but my poor car..bumper and my front light torn out!!!! Poor Alvin......sigh...little sympathy...little of warm hug please.....

Being a tourguide and Jolin Tsai was the grand Finale

2006-12-09T00:50:00.001+08:00

Seriously, my dark wrinkle now could really shock people as it is like dark chocolate around my eye bag. Why? I had been tour guide for my friend, Foong Mei. I just recap briefly how cool i being a tour guide in Kay Elle. The first day, it was quite disastrous one as she need to go to Sg Long to find her accomodation for her studies next year. Actually, i never been that far but never mind, she was really lucky that time to have a great explorer friend like me. But frankly, we were quite fortunate as when i was buying ticket and asking the ticket seller who has empty idea where is Sg Long, a girl beside who was going 2 Utar also, taught us a long the way. The journey, gosh...i never knew Sg Long is so so so secluded, i mean 1000 milles from KL downtown. The bus journey was the worst, we had to wait sandwiched for like 30 minutes til we reached Sg Long. So pity FM, as to go so far to study. Anywhere, we backed to Sunway like 10 something. Extremely exhausted and we dozed off at 12 something without much joking around or chit chat.
So, the next day, i took her to almost every shoppin malls in Kay Elle namely KLCC, Times Square and Sg Wang.We even alighted almost every public transport-monorail, putra line, star line, commuter and rapid KL, we even went to Petaling Street which we bought nothing as we support the authentics haha. Well, FM quite suprised how i so fimiliar on how to go here and there...i like to explorer and since kay elle no car for me..so i had to rely on them but i wish i could get a car...sigh....Yeah, about Jolin Tsai. So we went to Sg Wang and we had no idea that she was having an autograph session there. We waited like half an hour there... so here comes Jolin. Frankly, we were squeezed like mad in the crowd. But fortunately, we saw Jolin. She is petite and more beautiful than we saw in TV. I dunno her much though but really glad could have glimpse of her.

Stop AIDS. Keep the Promise - Accountability

2006-12-05T02:25:00.000+08:00

Seriously i don't what to blog here as i do not have brainwave to write what's on my mind.So i just simply blog about my trip back to Ipoh last weekend. Well, it was pretty good as i did hang out and saw many of my ex schoolmates. Many of them are changing, i mean in terms of physical. Like yuen, he looks darker and Annie, she's look prettier haha. Futhermore, FM was in Ipoh during Sunday. Well, the collobaration we have sure will bring the house down. Like u all know, we did cracked lots of jokes. Gosh, we even could tease and created gag with a promoter boy in Samuel and Kevin that we even don't him at all. So when u need some jokers, find us, all of your tears of sorrow will be reincarnated into tears of laughter =>.. Anywhere, currently i found out that many of my friends are already attached. It means that they will be busy with thier datings and i will be more and more lonely. Ai....why i can't get lover? Is not that nobody got feeling on me but i really don't have feel on them. Icant simply blinded foldedly choose them as lover for the sake of dating. I think that is very selfish and unfair for them. So, being a nice guy always finish last. I hope i could call someone as baby or dear on this coming xmas. I don't want anymore a really silent night. By the way, i just wanna quote something form Kelz, which she says that, 'you gain a lover, you lose a friend'....this is really really true. Try to reflect about it.
on the other hand, 1'st of December is World Aids Day. I know u guys heard a lot of prevention those stuff, so i wont elaborate on this. But i'm gonna give u bit of history about it courtesy from worldaidsday.org

1980s
The discovery of HIV in the US in 1981 was accompanied by widespread discrimination, exacerbated by homophobia and myths about HIV being spread by casual contact such as kissing or touching.
In the UK, a prompt response by the UK Government created mass public awareness about the risks of HIV. The Don’t Die of Ignorance campaign, launched in 1987, featuring icebergs and tombstones instantly put HIV on everyone’s agenda. The introduction of needle exchanges in 1986 ensured that the number of people infected through injecting drug use remained low over the next two decades.
Princess Diana’s high profile support of people living with HIV and AIDS attracted enormous media attention, for the first time challenging widespread myths and prejudice. The first World AIDS Day was launched in 1988 at a meeting of international health ministers.
1990s
Public awareness and celebrity support for the fight against HIV was high throughout the nineties. Eastenders was the first TV programme to introduce HIV into a storyline, and Freddie Mercury’s death from AIDS brought the tragedy of AIDS home to millions of fans worldwide. The National AIDS Trust Concerts of Hope for World AIDS Day featured bands such as Take That and George Michael and the blockbuster film Philadelphia brought the issues of HIV discrimination to a global audience.
The development of combination therapy in the mid nineties transformed the epidemic in developed countries, and HIV went from being a death sentence to a serious long-term health condition.
Since 2000
The National Strategy on Sexual Health and HIV was launched offering hope of greater investment and prioritisation of HIV services in the NHS. However, diversion of funds away from HIV and lack of investment in prevention programmes has accompanied rising HIV rates, particularly among gay men and African communities.
Changes to the Disability Discrimination Act in 2005 recognised for the first time that people living with HIV could experience discrimination without showing symptoms of AIDS. High profile public announcements by pop star Andy Bell and cabinet minister Chris Smith of their HIV status also encouraged a climate of greater openness.
But, discrimination still exists, and with an increase in cases of HIV among heterosexual Africans living in the UK, it is often linked to xenophobia and anti-migration sentiment.
Internationally, 40 million people live with HIV worldwide and with only 8% of people with the virus in developing countries having access to treatment there were 3 million deaths in 2005. However, unprecedented top-level agreements since 2000, (UNGASS, Africa Commission, G8) and the roll out of treatment to 1.3 million people in developing countries have been important steps forward.

A car or new accomodation?/ what happened to our cartoon nowadays?

2006-11-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

So lately i have been thinking about the title above. If i move, pro: is near to my college,walking distance and even got free shuttle to take you to the college. Con: Pricey. i have to pay like extra rm 100 for the new unit which is a condo and is not inclusive of the water and electric bills. Furthermore, i have to fork out money to get the furniture and other electric appliances. Most important, i planning to rent there only temporary basis. What about getting a new car? Dude, is reverie!!! How i wish i could get a car in kl. I can go anywhere i want!!!! But pratical sense like wise, it is really expedient for me to plying from my apartment to my college. I know you guys concern about petrol, but i only will drive in Sunway area and to my college. Plus, i will do car pooling also..petrol is not a hitch. But getting a real car is not a getting a toy car which cash and carry. I have no idea who can pay the installment for me first. The most vital here is who gonna pay the down payment. Is not cheap you know. People, please give me some opinion. My brain is not functioning anymore.

On the other hand, yesterday i finally watched Happy Feet after all cancelations. How was it? Well, you ask the right person as i like to critique about animation movie. Overall, this movie is not bad. Super stars studded.Funny as you know Robin williams is one of the character.Kids and teenagers particular girls are well targeted. The message of this movie are mind bogglingly conveyed as the production using penguins to address over-fishing activity in antartica. They also successfully the bio aspect of penguins and Antartica as well. But i'm not sure the idea of broadway sing sang and dancing gengre kinda animation is a good move. Yeah, is pleasurable to watch this animation if you were broadway kinda people like me but what happened for those who not. Sure ended up in boredom and thats what most of my friends told me. But anyhow, dreamworks' animation is stil the best for me like Flushed Away, Madagascar, Over The Hedge and who can forget, the classical Shrek!!!My all time favourtie. Only two of thier production disenchanted me, Shark Tale and Ice Age 2- not hillarious at all. Plese no Pixar animations as they are too kids targeted. It doesnt workin well for me. But like my friend say, Disney will always touch the kids' hearts. So i;ve got nothing to say.But dude, put aside Pixar, Dreamworks or even Shrek 3...I am damn anticipating for the Simpson the movie in 2d!!!!!!!!!!!! Is only half year plus left and the movie will be released. Dude, i dun mind to watch twice of 3 times for the movie. I'm sure is great!!!!Fantastic!!!! Spectacular!!!! ALvin!!! calm down...
Anywhere, do you guys aware that animations nowaday is all animals!!! Let's see what we got, sharks,penguins, lion, girrafe, bear, seriously the list go on and on. And we even got ogre for god's sake. Yeah is funny to see the animals talking and doing the hillarious move but arent the humans arent funny enough compared to the animals?

the most Boring Day ever...is only the beginning

2006-11-26T02:36:00.000+08:00

Imagine yourself in the a house or to be more precise in the room for more than 24 hours without stepping out of it. The sort of entertainment u have are just laptop, ps2 and tv. Damn boring huh? That is what happening to me. The spiders are casting its web all over me until like mummy. i really cant take this anymore. Still have 14 days to go til the day i going back to Ipoh. These 2 weeks are like years for me. Thank god, i got few dates in these comin days. Coursemates reunion and foong mei gonna visit me in kl. But those undated days are extremly boring for me. Why you all people are attached at left me outside alone?Why you guys so many assignments til it is so busy? Why you guys live so far from me? Sigh....
Anywhere, stop mourning. Yesterday went to Mid valley with Nelson. FIY, he is the thai friend i have though he really look like chinese. But he's not pure as he is mix with chinese. Nothing much to blog about him. All i wanna blog is commuter again. It always delayed and it really did piss me off. It just wasting my time and my energy. And everyone had to be compacted. First class facility so called....

Fall on YOur Knees!!!

2006-11-23T20:35:00.000+08:00

Actually i nothing much to blog today. I woke up at 1 pm .I have no idea i can be such good sleeper. Maybe my previous life is a pig. A healthy, non fat and charming pig. And my diet timetable is like hay wire. I took my breakfast at 1 something, lunch at 5 then dinner at 11. AIn't i healthy? hehe.Today indeed a stoned age day. I've been stone in my room for like half of the day, downloading songs, chatting and sleeping. Could it be more boring? I guess the single life is has to be like this mundane.
Anywhere, i went to Padini again. well, they dun hav my size but she told me i could get one in one U. Well, now hoping can get somebody go with me. Thinking who is the unlucky person. Talking about one u. The celebrity fitness from one u called me that one of my friend who i do not have any idea who is her or him recommend me to go there and i got some vip pass for 7 days. Though it is free, but u really recommend a wrong person. I rather to sleep haha.Oh, the title for this blog. It is a song from xmas carol- O holy Night. It is so powerful that the chorus can contains such a powerful sentence. Is xmas but yet i'm still.....sigh

Today i met my ex

2006-11-22T02:23:00.000+08:00

Blogging this with down and awkward mood. Today I woke up at 1 pm. I had no idea I could this well sleep. Maybe my previous life was a pig. Anywhere, stop crapping. Today I finally met my ex after more than half year we didn’t meet each other. She was holidaying in KL as she having school break as well. So, we met at Times Square. To be more precise, we met near the xmas tree. Well, she still looks that beautiful for me….her eyes still charming for me. Her smile still flashing me and it did really make my day. One thing had changed, she looks bit taller though. So, we hang around in Times Square and Sungai Wang. For god’s sake. The Padini outlet there doesn’t have my jacket.AWHH!!!! how many outlets I need to go. Or else, just purchase it online.
Put that aside first and back to my ex. I no idea why i feeling down. Yeah i do really happy to see her again. Maybe it is a norm to feel like this. I feel myself useless that got a such good angel in front of me, i let her flown away. Maybe i'm not good enough for her. I'm sorry if my love and my immature acts ensued many nightmares for you. But always bear in mind that our sweet memories are still kept in my heart and i feel lonely i missing you, i will unlock my heart to let those sweet memories to flow in my mind. Though is like no way that we will get together but in the future, if we are stilll single, i dun really mind to call u as dear again. I dun mind to take care of you. I'll give the best for you. Though people said past is already past but all the nightmares were past what remain are those sweet moment with you. You take care, if u need any help just let me know. I will always be there for you.....Among the lovers i had, you are the best and silly for me. This song for you...........

In Kay Elle finaly

2006-11-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

Here i am, in KL at last. It was a torture for me to travel back here yesterday. The luggage was so damn heavy. And i stranded in carrefour to avoid the rain for like 2 hours.Okay the rain is not that heavy anymore, so i went to the bus stop with the luggage to get a cab. I dunno what the heck with all the cabies-there was not a single taxi there.ISH..so what to do? Get the mini bus. And the mini bus was like forever late.I had to wait like one hour for the bus!!!!AHHHHH!

Anywhere, last sat night, me and Hansen met my ex schoolmate. Yeah those chatting and bla bla stuff..bowling which i won again. What a pathetic player he is. So it was 3 something in the morning. And Hansen had a fantastic plan- sleep over at my house. Seriously, it was like girl slumber party, sittin g on the matress hugging the pillow and chat about personal stuff u know. But hey, guys also can do that ok? Damn you hansen, i had to sleep like only 3 hours and send you to the church in early morning. Do you know that 10 something is considered as early morning 4 me. I was like blur blur driving the car. Thank god there was no accident happened.

on the other hand, i wanna get a padini jacket. But i don;t know whats wrong-i seek almost two stores and there was no M size for me....sigh.....Planning to buy it online!!!

Before i end, Michele post a meaningful bulettin on the friendser.How i wish that i could have somebody do this to me:
Kiss on the stomach - lets have sex
Kiss on the Forehead - Forever youwill be mine
Kiss on the Ear - I'm horny
Kiss on the Cheek - We're friends
Kiss on the Hand - I adore you
Kiss on the Neck - We belong together
Kiss on the Shoulder - I want you
Kiss on the Lips - I love you OR Iwant you
Holding Hands - We can learn to loveeach other
Slap on the Butt -That's mine
Playing with the Ear - I can't livewithout you
Holding on tight - Don't let go
Looking into each other's Eyes - Don'tleave me
Playing with Hair on Head - Tell meyou love me
Arms around the Waist - I love you toomuch to let go
Laughing while Kissing - I amcompletelyComfortablewith you

Xmas is coming but yet..My finger gaps are still unfulfilled

2006-11-17T23:12:00.000+08:00

So 5 days in Ipoh. All i can say is sleepless nights as all the time came back veyr very late. Last wednesday was the record breaking one- came back at 5 am in the morning. What i did? Let me recall.Again, went out with Hansen to catch the movie- 'Flushed Away'.Yeah rite so childish...watever!!!Is really nice to watch Dreamworks animation you know. It is much better than Pixar. Pixar is more into children so it is no funny for the teens realm. Anywhere, Flushed Away is worth to be watched. What was captivating was the how they illustrate a city like London in the sewage. Plus it is a gulit if said the leeches are not funny...it were the most funny thingy in the movie... u guys must check it out..So next movie, iplanning to watch is Happy Feet.I dunno much about Warner Bros animation but the voice narrators are stars studded!! Hugh Jackman, Robin Williams, and lots more... Should be nice
What the heck i doin movie review?!?! Anywhere, after movie we went to cyber cafe then supper then cyber cafe again.For the first time i played DOta.Sorrla dude..uncle here is bit outdated and retarded.Seriously, i dun comprehend why the people so addicted with it. All i did was kill the enemy,buy stuff, go back to the base to reload,then fight the enemy again. How boring!!!I know i will be boiled alive by the dota fanatics hehe...
Yesterday, i went out with Hansen again !!! This time around we having steamboat. I not sure what kinda health problem Hansen having-you know after almost 2 hours of eating, imean non stop basis-he still not full.The shell of the prawns and the crabs wow!!! was like one plate full!! I'm so scare. Scare him tummy will burst!!!!
ok..stop crabbing.Wanna blog about my title tonight.Yeah, is like one month plus gonna be the xmas, new year and birthday...21st birthday somemore.Seriously, i never spend those important days with my lovers especially the Valentine. You can imagine how i celebrate with sofas and tv...and imaginary lover...pity eh?

This is Real Love and it is real!!!!

2006-11-13T01:48:00.000+08:00

So is just3 days of my sem break but i already feel mind-numbing. I could not imagine how i'm gonna past the 3 months. Travel but no money. Guess gonna work to find some money to travel. How wish could travel to Europe- gazing the eiffel tower, skating at the dazzling white snow in Switz- have a romantic ride in the London's eye..so much more - but all of these only fantasy. Sigh...Basicaly, these three days i just stoned at home. Playing PS2 and i have found two newly hobbies. Firstly is watching Happy Tree Friends. For love of God, i've been watched all the episodes in just one day. The animation is not childish ok. Is like itchy and scratchy in The Simpons. Is like disparity concept which ohh ok,another cute cartoon but you're wrong. This animation is super violence!!!!! And it is hilarious. you guys should check it out at www.happytreefriends.com
You tube-ing is my second hobby. Is kinda cool to look the clips which u rarely watch on tv or banned in the tv. For me, well you know i'm beatlemania-so i wouldnt miss the chance to catch thier very very old video clips. Listening to beatles song is not old fashion k? their music is simple but yet meaningful.. the lyrics are so touchy and funny sometimes. Here is one of my favourite of thier song-Real Love. Everytime i listened to it, tears in my eyes. You can feel that Lennon and Mccartney passion towards thier lovers and this passion is inspriration of this song........i hope i can feel the real love someday and sing this song out loud..Again...i juxtapose my blog with my agony situation of me being single..

All my little plans and schemesLost like some forgotten dreamSeems like all I really was doingWas waiting for you
Just like little girls and boysPlaying with their little toysSeems like all they really were doingWas waiting for you
Don't need to be aloneNo need to be alone
It's real loveIt's real, yes it's real loveIt's real
From this moment on I knowExactly where my life will goSeems that all I really was doingWas waiting for love
Don't need to be afraidNo need to be afraid
It's real loveIt's real, yes it's real loveIt's real
Thought I'd been in love before,But in my heart I wanted moreSeems like all I really was doingWas waiting for you
Don't need to be aloneNo need to be alone
It's real loveYes it's real, yes it's real loveIt's real, yes it's real love...

See you next semester!!!

2006-11-11T00:17:00.000+08:00

Before i start my blog, i am realy overwhelmed by the testimonials you guys sent to me. It is really nice form you guys and feel small hehe.
Ok, today..what a exhausting day it is. Anywhere, i really sorry i cant go to University Hospital for the vist as i down with rashes. It is not advisable to get so close contact with the kids since thier immune system is weak. So i cant go. Instead, i ended up meeting up woth Ivan in KLCC. So, it was cool to hang out with him. Sadly, our destinations couldnt be reached. First, we went to Aquaria-ahem due to our financial stability...we postponed it. Second, petrosains-we miss it as closed at 4 then we planning to go to da SkyBridge..sadly...tickets so out.What a bad day. SO at last, we just sat at the food court for like 2 hours. Btw, we saw Harith there..u know the celebrity Harith Iskandar- i suppose his name is like this hehe...Plus, we met Justin too. Justin is my online friend who i know him in the early of the year.Only know got really chance to meet him. =>
So after KLCC..phew...i rushed to Mid Valley to meet my beloved coursemates. Though we just rougly hang out for like less than one hour but really great to see you guys for the last time til next sem. I hope you guys do enjoy your holidays k?

8th November-the day of the sem ends

2006-11-09T01:43:00.000+08:00

Okay before I do my manifestation on this sem, I would like to assessment on what was going today. In the early morning, Julian woke up late, so I reached the KTM station about 750 am. But what the hell, today is my last day and the day I’m gonna hand in all my freaking assignments-nobody and nothing gonna stand my way. Surprisingly, when I was waiting for the train, Adrian Quah,my ex school junior just appeared in my sight. Yeah, followed by those casual talks and bla bla. Anywhere, I reached the college late but yet the class hasn’t started. So I’m not late for the last class for the sem hehe. Today class is about the evaluation of the whole course which I’ll blog later on. So after class, me, Michelle, Rachel and Alicia went to Mid Valley to hang out.A surprise for me again. I saw Annie there. It is really good to see her – we were like almost one year didn’t see each other since our final paper in the STPM. She looks thin though…wondering the life in real uni really that agony….. Again, I’m the only guy in the girl dominated group. But we had a lot of enjoyment…sitting in The Secret Recipe and chit chatting like 1 hour –gossiping somemore => . Really glad got this bunch of friends that can chat so much and well knit. However, what was most tremendous was we had like a half day tour in mid valley. Why? Well,of coz we did shopping but it was finding the right exit for Alicia’s bf to pick us up. But I did enjoy the exercise hehe. So, u can imagine how tired am I ….

Okie dok…I’m gonna reflect about this sem and this course. Overall, this course is U.N.I.Q.U.E….The best attribute of this course is we do not have exam at all!!! 100 % coursework. But do not think we can be so relaxing as we do not need to facing and gulp the book for the examination. Think again!!!! Since we don not have exam, assignment is like life to us. We had to went trough sleepless night and experience the anguish of doing assignment. Are you daring enough to write over 2000 damn words for each and every essay? Are you daring enough to do 3-4 assignments and hand in almost the same day? Are you daring enough to read the text books which are really mystifying sometimes? If you dare enough, join this course haha. But anywhere, I survive, I developed and I geared up to face the next sem.

Next, I’m gonna review this course subjects by subjects. First, State Power and Society (SPS). Well, I guess the tutor is my favourite of all. She is teaching is so ‘cool’ and She really knows what happening in the world today and brings the world issue close to us. That made me so notice about this subject. I learnt a lot of this subject about current issue in the world as well in my state. Particularly, globalization as I did my research essay on this topic. Second is Media Literacy. The tutor is somehow ok but bit austere and fastidious especially when it comes to referencing. The whole class always kena from her. This subject is not bad. Learnt a lot about moral panic and how the media spread its values. What I don’t like about this subject is every week; we have to do the log book. It was terrible. Then, CRR- communication, rhetoric and reasoning. The tutor is really awesomely nice. She is just awesome. I had a lot of fun in the cluster group. Yeah-the sketch which I had to be ALvina…It was really entertaining to work with my group members. Lastly, CCS-communication, computers ad society. Two words: journals and report- the rest, ask me personally.
Though, I gained a lot from this course but I’m quite amused how time flies. Today is the end sem and the 7K for this course is just spent like snap of the fingers. Literally I learnt a lot but I do and luckily know a bunch of good friends and you know who. What I was think before I enter college, the people will cocky and just selfish who think about themselves. But you guys really had proven me wrong. Whenever I need u guys, u r not hesitantly to offer the help. It is still a bewilderment how our friendship can be so good in just short period. Maybe is a gift from above/…….

War in Iraq....70 % mission accomplished

2006-11-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

Poor Saddam. He is going to be hang for his wrong doings that he had done. But what puzzled me is that the trial is according to which law? Totally Iraqi law or Iraq-US backed law? If it is done by US backed law- i strongly against this verdict as it is not justified. OK-so Mr Bush, your mission is soon fulfilled-what next? IRan? Aint you feel pity to those innocent civilians in Iraq? Aint feel sad when your own soldiers said goodbye to thier loved ones just because you wanna topple your own worst enemy?
Anywhere, on lighter note, last Saturday me and Adrian watched 'The Prestige' in pyramid. Though this movie about rivalry between two magicians but there is a line that captured my attention; something like....when the thing is taken by magic, in the end the magic itself will bring the thing back again.Isnt it so fit in our life. Like ok, your lover is stolen but someday soon the magic will bring back him or another person better than him. You know what i mean.So just dun be too sad when the something or someone is gone..just be patience and it will coming back again for you.
So emotional suddenly haha...on the other hand, this week is my last week of my sem.Yeah, so fast huh.Even me also couldnt believe....I'm gonna miss u guyz.....

Ladies&Gentlemen....i'm Still Alive

2006-11-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

Guys...i dunno when was my last time blogging.Don't worry, i still alive.Though i was locked myself in the chamber of assignments but finally-today i could grasp some fresh air.That's only one assignment left for me which is damn ccs.CCS sucks!!!Burn capture campro!!!!
Anywhere, What was really happen for last week til now-here is the summary/precis:
Last week,it was 10 days of Raya break in Ipoh.Suprisingly, when i was in ipoh- i was like so sporty.Monday i went to hiking. Seriously, a lazy bug like me, i already sweating profusely when i was just at foot of the hill-And i had climb up the steep slop all the way up.But thank god, the hill provide some sorta stair for us to climb.So was really nice to went up the hill and come down as the air was so fresh and that was a streaming waterfall there-the sound was so peaceful-what a medicine for my stress from my assignment.Damn Hansen, the fella said that he heard the sound of a snake when we were coming down.It just frightening- u know the road was dark and some more not many hikers there.Freak me out.
The following day, we went to Polo Ground.It's been awhile i step there.Stil unchanged but new facility there which is a place for the skateboarders..how cool.Yeah again-loser in jogging.Stop crapping about my ability in sport-i know my muscle is weak for sport but one thing i can outdo most of my friends-bowling.So, do free to challange me.Bring it on!!!
In Ipoh wactually there was not much activity.Just stuck at home and did my assignment-why my life was so miserable.But i did taste my hometown food backed there.Sar Hor Fun is simply irresistable.For my fellow coursemates: if u feel freem take sometime come to Ipoh- i can be your free of charge tour guide-i could even provide u guys accomodation...Next week is our last week of the sem, sure wll greatly miss u guys.
On sunday, was the day i traveled back to KL and the day of great torture.The highway was so jam packed- it took me almost 4 hours just to reach KL!!!!I dunno why Malaysians prefer last minute journey- dont u think u guys should go back to work earlier to avoid congestion?!!!Damn it.
Well, on tuesday.Me and Michelle had lunch at or college's french restaurant.It was bit funny.Know y? We felt like the atmosphere there was to formal-we have to follow the table manners like so strictly-really felt uncomfortable!!!Both of us like wanna go out to eat local delicacies like loh mei kei and pan min.But the food there was alright but the waiter who was a trainer, i eman student who being evaluated was so worry-just chill la-the more worry the more worst.But we were so kind, so we gave good comment on the waiter hehe.Anywhere, tahnks to Harjit and Yoko who from India and Japan respectively for thier treat. =>
No idea what to blog-holiday mood is brewing, so people-call me out k? See ya and say no to assignments!!! it Kills!!!

Globalization?? What the hell to do with me?

2006-10-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

Globalization.World without borders.Fludity of identities.Supra-states.What the hell?!U know for thise whole day, i had been readin g tonnes articles about globalization til i wanna vomit.How on earth i chose this topic.But hey, other topics even worst-human rights,democracy and the list even worst.Now is like so stress til like mood swing and even get somebody for me to punch!!!
Anywhere, yesterday was a pissed off day- thanks to Transnational.Okay i bought the ticket back to ipoh and the ticket stated i shall depart from puduraya station.So i wait like a fool there.I was quite puzzle why the noctice board havent put up the sign that stated which bus going to ipoh.So i approached to the info counter-and what the hell-he said that u should not depart from here,instead in duta station.i was like huh? i dunno should i bombard him for not inform me or just swallow it?What 2 do-since i was so rush i just swallow it.I had to waste 40 minuties of traffic jam to go to duta and took trouble to take the rapid kl bus to there.Finally , and pppx,it took me 4 hours to reach ipoh!!!
p/s: happy deepavali!!!

Fight CanCER!!!!

2006-10-19T03:08:00.000+08:00

Just few weeks a way to the my doom's day- yeah my assignment due date. TO be rfrank, i just finish like 20 % of the assignments though u can see me online late at nite.Seriously, my main focus is the assignment ok, not chatting.ok?I'm a good student.Yeah rite..
Anyway, i think that we already end of sem, there was not much teaching in the college.Dr Lean just check our assignments while Miss Fara just guiding as the voice naration for our Power Point presentation. It was quite cool you know, doin the voice thinghy but bit fed up as i had to repeat my speech like more than 10 times just to get the voice that i want.How irritating!!!!Anyway, bit sorry 2 Michellle as i guided the wrong method for using the voice narration-ended up u being like dunno what -doing the speech training there....haha-'retarded'?
  By the way, today i and my coursemates had a spontaneous visit to Universiti Hospital.I didnt know that they gonna make s hort vist there prior to our major visit next month.So how was it, seriously , we behave like small kids there.Really-maybe due to our curioisity-behave as such.Well, laughters before we entered the pd ward but sad kinda feeling when we went home.Yeah, is kinda sad when u look at the small kids have cancer.Don't know what the  future will hold for them.is heart-aching to look at the kids who got blood cancer who need the blood tranfusion most of time-to see thier hair are not fully grown -sigh...Just relflect urself, how wonderful and lucky you are having a healthy body- why not u guys use ur healthy bodies to help those in eed-They no need your money-all they want is love and care and support!!!
  But we cincluded badly-why? Michelle's car could not be started.We like sitting and waiting like almost one hour.But thank god!!! a good samaritan has a cable and willin to help us to recharge the battery!!!Thanks!!
  By the way, i already in my raya break for 10 days!!! Sadly,not really a holidays 4 me as you know, the ass!!!!

Pices of me...fuckin cutie

2006-10-16T14:42:00.001+08:00

Wow....it's been ages that i didnt blog.Phew..u know how busy am i these days.My damn assignment was like mountains....crashing on to my tidy body.So far, i just finish my CRR, one out of my 5 assignments.But then, is quite good enough compared to my fellow coursemates....damn bad.Actually,i feel kinda gulity as last weekend back to ipoh, initially i was planning 2 do my assignment but things didnt turn out there way.Ended up, hang out late at nights and backed home like 4 something with Hansen, almost every night.Just imagine, 4 something still in the CC..how guilty am i.Anywhere, back to my college.Last whole weekdays, my club was having a candies and cookies sales for the sick children in UH.The sales was pretty good as the first day itself we sold more than RM 200 and the last day we managed to sell all.How cool!!!Come on, i know the amount is like small amount but is for charity, is not judge by quantity of money is judge by ur quanitity of ur effort,love and time....how noble am i...haha.
On thurs, i had a fun time with Kelzz.Oh man..we like singing non stop for almost 3 hours plus in the Red box.Well, a chinese guy who doesnt noe chi language at all, had to opt those english language.I rather sing those oldies and malay songs as it kinda suit me hehe.Not forgetting my all time classic Beatles and The Young Ones.
B y the way, about the title today, i wore a yellow t to my college with this foul language with obscene pic depciting a guy having fun time with her girl....awesome!!!!And pieces of me..well, i didnt really know about this song by ashely simpsons i mean the lyric but when we chose this song..the lyric is kinda describing me now though i'm very single now..check it out:

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's your mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

Pices of me...fuckin cutie

2006-10-16T14:42:00.000+08:00

Wow....it's been ages that i didnt blog.Phew..u know how busy am

AlvinA...the bitCh...in the Sketch/Happy mooncake Festival

2006-10-06T15:52:00.000+08:00

Before i start, the haze situation in Ipoh is almost like in KL.Seriously, air quality in KL on wednesday was so chocking til the ray of sunlight was totally blocked by the smoke, as if late evening in the middle of the afternoon.Here, in Ipoh it is just slightly better.By the way,i'm back in Ipoh.
Ok.Who is Alvina?!Apparently,it was me.This is the story.Wednesday was my cluster group presentation.The title is 'Loving Yourself' ,it was a short sketch actually.Me aka Alvina,licia and Chandhi were acting as the flirtious and bitchy girls who try to court and flirt around with Marc.But Marc was just a ugly fellar who did some voodoo thingy and magic portion from Rachel just to look good.Just like the story in Shrek 2.So how was it?It was funny.You know,i had to dress up like a girl with wigs and those girlish movement haha like girl talk,talk about guys and yew...massaging Marc.I guess i was the star of the day as i did pose a lot for my coursemates to capture my outrages way of dress.I was impressed by the Kusum's group presentation too.It was creative.Romeo and Juliet, war in Lebabon,singing competition and talk show in just mere 20 minutes presentation.Cool!!!
Anywhere,thanks for the people who contributing in wrapping the candies!!Sorry for not being in the Annexe all the time as i got something to do in the main office.Good to know u guys are charitableacrifice your time and energy !!!Appreciate it.
Here again in Ipoh.Basically, i just came home for relaxation but then cant really manage to do it as u know the never ending assignments and the air quality is just too chocky.But hey,is moon cake festival rite.Can be my family members and having a steamboat tonight.How cool!!!And yesterday, spend rm 4 for nothing in Imax with Hansen haha-to hansen:Goon Chan muahahaha!!!
So, today is Mooncake festival.Happy mooncake festival ppl!!!To someone out there: Though we're far apart but we sitll able to share on moon gazing tonight =>

Anti-assignment and say no to citAtion

2006-10-03T01:36:00.000+08:00

So why i put this title?Come on, assignment of coz u will be doing on papers.Besides, when you finiding those resources for your assignment, you have to seek the books or journals which published in books.Imagine how much papers are used here?How many trees have be taken donw just to put some ink on the paper for u?Trees got life too ok?!!So stop buying paper to prevent trees being chopped down without no mercy!!!!Say no to assignments and test as well!!!why i so mad coz i already half dead with no thanks to the fully loaded ass!!!!
I had a bad day today actually.Dr V graffiti my paper.Sigh....The paper is innocent!!!Damn it, almost everybody was bombarded by her due to our citation and grammar,/yew..anywhere, on lighter note, my cluster group did rehearsal for the sketch.Well, i play a girl role...so it is bit above 18 kinda genre haha.i wonder Marc could bear my flirty act.just keep finger crossed that i would remember the script this comin wednesday.
So wass up with weekends?It was cool.The first time i drove in kl.It rocks man!!!-Drove back from One u from the movie rob-b-hood.Anywhere, the baby in the movie is so so soso cute!!!!!!!!!!!!Though i dun like baby but this one really captivated me.

Wake me up when septemBer ends

2006-09-30T03:10:00.000+08:00

We already reach end of september.Say hi to october.Actually, i wish to be waken up in november as my sem break is in that month.Anywhere,it is considered end of the year, cant wait to enrol to the brand new year.But sadly, i still worry that i would celebrate my xmas without any present from my lover and i would not be able to say ' i love u' to my lover when the we step our foot into 2007 at 12 am.Dunno when and how my love would come.I'mnot desperate ok but just then i'm not strong enough to live alone.Is pretty sad you know,when there is nobody to talk too when you feel lonely,no shoulder to cry on when you're down and there is no good night kss or even sms before you sleep.Sigh,i know i'm loser but so what the hell,i want it.This is my life.
Anywhere, back to my contemporary life.It was sucks.when i reached home i would just sit in front of the computer and do my assignments.Damn it,why every assignment's due date like so close to each other.Sigh..Oh yeah,yesterday my so called Social Awareness club done a donation campaign in TCSJ.It was so not successful by the way as we would not able to enter class by class.But, i found that pupils in TCSJ were more generous than my campus.Why?they would donate 5 to 10 bucks.For TCPJ,max was only RM2.....

I'm Lindsay lohan?!

2006-09-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

Is already wednesday today.Second last day for this week.My sem break is just one month plus away.i really wanna plan for my sem break but due to tight assignments schedule,i really do not have time.sigh....Anywhere,otday i woke up late..was like 650 am.gosh!!i rush like a mad dog...without any breakfast somemore.thank god no gastric for me.Though i'm tired and had a rushy day but i do enjoy my day today.Yeah,the presentation i guess was the best for me.FYI, i did the presentation on the tilte simply called 'LOVE'...which is still seeking,.......

What kind of Celebrity Ho-Bag are you?

Keep it strong and move along

2006-09-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

Sob..i still trapped in the assignments.So much assignment til there is only tiny space for me to breate.So how am i lately?Doing ok and still single but i guess my singled days are numbered hehe-i hope.Nothing much happening to me lately,just sick and tired of the assignments.You see i dun even have time 2 blog....sigh....p/s..today i quite down as my minor essay done not that good.Goodness,is only 15%.

Return To Innocence

2006-09-23T02:19:00.000+08:00

Phew..is been long time that i touched this website.I have loads of stuff to blog but due to my assignement's hectic,i did not have the time til now.Anywhere, though it's been a tiresome for these past few days but i did have lots of fun.
But not for wednesday.I had a bad day indeed.First of all, i did win in the debate but i really didnt convey my points well as i didn really prepare.I felt that,erm...unsatisfied with myself.Sigh.then, i lost my cover for my thumb drive ah!!!!.To add salt on my scar, apparently,i need to print my assignment urgently for me to submit the heck happened.It didnt print out.i had to go way yup to library to print few pages of paper.Damn it!!Well things went smoothly since Miss Fara's class.I just felt active in her class,maybe her content of learning or otherwise..can chat in the msn while havin the class hehe.Anywhere,right after class, me,min min and kait went to sunway college.it was my first time there though i past the college thousand of times.It was cool and it has a absolute campus atmosphere.How wonderful if my campus was like thiers.Sigh...Seriously,my campus is cum with other tenants,so u would imagine the world there.U cant really distinguish who is student and who is worker...
On thurs...i suck in the presentation but what the hell, as if i care.this was not the main point of the day.Instead, my club(Charity club) of my collehe had an event- a donation drive to colleect money for the National Cancer Society.Well,it've been 2 years i nvr touched this donation and charity work.Initially,the drive was cancel due to improper planning and no authorization from certian authority but i dunno why eventually,it stil on.Anywhere, I ,Michele and Chandhi in one group.we went a lot of places like library, a pool club and even a newly discovered student center.Gosh,the atmosphere was like so cool there.

And today, i met my long time no meet friend ,Julius!!!We met at KLCC.Seriously, we were so free til we just window shopping and even strolling in the park.Felt guilty too as i got tonnes of assignment still left untouched.Besides,my temptation got so high as once i saw a nice cltohes,i would tend to buy it.But then,the price was too high for me.sigh.....i wonder how julius canlook so fair.
Back to the titlte everyday.Thanks minmin as without her,i could recall this song.It is by enigma.Check out this lyric:

That's not the beginning of the endThat's the return to yourselfThe return to innocenceLove - DevotionFeeling - Emotion Love - DevotionFeeling - Emotion Don't be afraid to be weakDon't be too proud to be strongJust look into your heart my friendThat will be the return to yourselfThe return to innocence If you want, then start to laughIf you must, then start to cryBe yourself don't hideJust believe in destiny Don't care what people sayJust follow your own wayDon't give up and use the chanceTo return to innocence That's not the beginning of the endThat's the return to yourselfThe return to innocence Don't care what people sayFollow just your own way Follow just your own wayDon't give up, don't give upTo return, to return to innocence.If you want then laughIf you must then cryBe yourself don't hideJust believe in destiny.
Sometimes,life is like bit unfair.Is not that really true.Sometimes u just preoccupied what people have in terms of material.but look at yourself,you are far more better than them inside.yYou should be proud of being who you are.Don't let other people manpulating you.Just be yourself my dear.You may seem things are not going you way and the bad ones keep smacking on your face.It just momentarily and it just a test.When it time comes,all the good thinds would be abundance for you and all the aspect or things which you missed,stolen and relinquished-we return back to you-return to innocence.

Jealousy turns to Saint

2006-09-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

Am i nut?the time now is like 1 something and i already finish my critique essay.Maybe i too indulge myself in blogging.Anywhere,lately is all about assignment.Me and my coursemates as well are feeling the stress.You know we like to procastinate and the due dates are getting near,so u can imagine how stress are we.
Anywhere,thats not so much stuff to blog.Done badly for my ML's log book-this happened to my coursemates.Today, i did an arm exercise as well-apparently, i had to carry of box of candies for our charity purpose.okay,back to the title.Yesterday,i discovered that my ex got a lover now.Kina unease feeling run through me.Maybe she's my ex-u know ...Just wish her all the best.love thingy is kinda mean u know-u could bring the moon for the person when u in love with him,talk sweet sweet words and how they care and concern for you.When break up,these sorta treatment and sweet promises which were meant for you,in just split second transfer to another person.Thats sucks!!maybe this is the reality of love.So,now almost everyone got lovers but not me.Well, i suppose the last one would laugh the loudest....

holidays Blues

2006-09-18T14:51:00.000+08:00

Sob...my sem break is over.Today i have to go back to my college again.Early morning have to wake up.That's sucks.But anywhere, though the class were boring but not really had those holidays blues.Just lazy to wake up early.Yet again,i have to face tonnes of assignment.My sem weekends were quite awesome.
On friday,i was hanging out with Hansen and andy.Well, initially we had no ideas on where we going to.We pop up with stupid ideas like driving down to kl or penang.As if i'm so rich la?!So,we ended up singing k.Ok, for me who is english educated-realy dun hae much choice-so i just sang,i mean shouted english songs-oldies-beatles and cliff richard were my favourite- and malay songs haha.Andy was singing non stop and ear sickening indon songs.and for Hansen who is pretend like pro singer-chinese songs.We sang about in the late night 2 something then we head to somewhere to chit chat.After i drop hansen home,i reached my house nearly 5!!!
On sat, i met FM again as she came down from Genting.As usual-we went to jj,tesco and we ate a lot!!!From satay to Old town to my home stuff.
Sorry i cant blog much as got assignment to do...i just cant wait for the hari raya break..and less than 2 months...i'll finish my sem =>

too Little..Too late

2006-09-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

In ipoh.Anywhere,i wanna blog what happened to me yesterday.I missed the bus!!!Damn it!!!!This is the story.I woke up nearly 9 something and the bus's departure was 1130 am.So is like bit rush for me.Anywhere, i reached the bus stop,i mean the one at my aprtment like 10 am.So pissed off ,there was no bus.Okay got one,but i dunno what the heck happened to driver, he didnt stop at by bus stop.He made a u-turn instaed.So pissed.Eventually, the bus arrived at almost 1040 am.Ho9w late?!!!Initally,i was about to take the cab to KTM but thank god,before i opened the door,the yellowish mini bus popped up.So saved 8 bucks.Though there was no delay for the KTM commuter and the lrt but i reached pudu like 1140 am.So, the bus left and i had to take trouble to seek an atm machine to withdraw money to buy the half priced ticket.Okay,seriously,i just had rm 2 in my wallet.How poor am i...sigh...
On the other hand,my life in ipoh is just eat,sleep,tv and asssignment.This sucks!!

Bah kut Teh and KFC

2006-09-13T02:31:00.000+08:00

Really tired indeed today.Woke up like 9 am which just 4-5 hours of sleep.Thanks to my assignments ,Hansen and Darren's sms chatting.I slept at 4 something.I dun even dare to look at my dark wrinkle.Anywhere, i had a trip down to Klang for Bah Kut Teh in Klang this morning.We kicked off like 10 05,since the traffic was pretty smooth ,we reached there about half an hour or earlier.So,how bout the bah kut teh.We ordered drired and soup one.Apparently, the dried one is the specialty from there.How was it?pretty ok but bit spicy.But yet,the aroma and the taste of the Bah Kut teh was kinda lost.Overall,just average-sorry to say.
After that,we had detour arond klang.Oh yeah,we went to the Rachter el and Alicia's old skoolHeard many ghost stories about that skool.Kinda spooky but then i dun believe it after all hehe.the school was rather big than mine bt my skool still the most outstanding the skool.Just look at it building,is likea castle.It even featured in the spet and up coming-good boys movies.
anyhwere,i cant blog much as i very extremely sleepy.KFC>?Yeah,i had a kfc i mean in abundance of chicken-i had 3 chicken,spicy one-now like full to my throat .Bah kut teh in the afternoon and kfc at night..thas so healthy

sep 11...Tears and blood

2006-09-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

Well well well.Is 9/11 again.5 years.Half a decade.What happened in this 5 years-in the global scale.Yeah,the word 'terrorism' is like the moral panic of the society today.Everyday in the newspaper,u r likely to see the word.Anywhere, what really the Bush's administration did after 5 years of the tragedy.War and unnecessary policies.Face it-we've seen 2 major wars in afghan and iraq.Ok war in afghan seem logical as to oust the Taliban.but what about Iraq?Is there any weapon of mass destruction there which could harm US?Or just the oil in Iraq really a big matter for US.I suppose so.Then beside terrorism-US waged the war on Iraq in the name of democracy and liberation.Duh?Attacking other country plus unilaterally-is democracy?I doubt that.Thoughts and prayers go out to the victims and those who departed.Be strong and move on!!!!And for Mr Bush, make a decision that benefit all -without tears and blood-and plzz no more war.
On lighter note,back to Kl again for few days and i'll be going back to ipoh this wed.Busy guy eh?Actually i had been persuaded by Adrian to come back here.Don't ask me why.Quite tiring as travel back to kl.You know pudu is like super crowded and dangerous then take lrt to Kelana.Phew....poor alvin.
Anywhere,i'm gonna blog what happened on saturday.At nite i went out to hang out with Hansen.We like nuts fella apparently haha.Firstly, we went to window shopping in JJ.I'm bit weirdo coz u know,klis like shopping paradise and got loads more of option compare to Ipoh but yet i still like shopping in ipoh.I have no idea.Maybe it has least option so i wont confuse on what to buy.We didnt buy anything from there sadly just reading magz in MPH.Then,we went to greentown for dinner.Initially we went and sat down in Repulse Bay but due to some circumstances we went to a particular hawker stall just opposite-had ikan bakar there.Awesome.Then,we in explorace like usual to rush to da cinema to watch Monster House.Dudez, i recommend u to watch this movie as it is entertaining blended with suspend and quite scary though.i wanna reiterate here i'm not a kid ok though i like to watch animation movie.I cant believe that Hansen could almost screamed in the cinema.almost only ok?So after movie, we went to Old town to sneak peek at the set of the movie of Ang Lee-lust something something.Sadly, we were not able to see them and i ca/t see LEE hom!!! thats sickening.All we could see it just the green double decker bus moving.Nevertheless, our proximity to the oscar winning director and the very talented singer was so close.We really satisfied..actually only Hansen,i wanna see lee hom so much..Sigh......

I dunno who U r but i'm With U

2006-09-09T00:22:00.000+08:00

Thats the song from Avril.It just suit my mood and feeling rite now.Wish somebody new in my life can take me somewhere new.Wish that someone who can love me and i love her too.Sigh...Somebody help me!!!I guess is getting serious as my mood 2 study just vanished because of this.Single sucks!!
Anywhere, today is another lifeless and empty day for me.Just went out to have lunch and hair cut.Well, i got interesting fact from my hairdresser.She said that my hair is thick.Yeah,obviously.Cause?Too much nutrient for my hair.Duh?!
Apart form that, Ang Lee and Wang Lee hom is in Ipoh!!!!Gosh, i want to see them so much but i cant locate them.Many people said,although u able to locate them but it is under tight security.Who cares,at least my proximity is close to them.

The CheeR God Has An unGodly Schedule

2006-09-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

Back to Ipoh again and this is the dawning of my mid semester break.WTF?!I already in the mid of my sem,and 2 more months later,i'll finish my sem.How time flies and as the time passes, i getting old and my days still is unattached.Sigh...anywhere,what's my plan for the break.One word; assignment.So,dun misunderstood that my course is without exam,so we will be very free.Think again.You got tonnes of stuff to read and never ending assignments.Is freaking pathetic to have ur break just facing the notes,papers and monitor.well,thats my life,my life sucks.But i'll try to allocate sometime to chill out myself, either going Genting or just Klang to have a unique dried Bah kut teh with my coursemates.But due to my financial constraint,i'll just go to Klang.Poor Alvin.I really wish to bring someone back 2 ipoh so i can hang out with him but then he's really busy.Sorta disappointed by the way but never mind, ijust nothing for him.
On the other hand.Today something really touched me.When i was in LRT to Plaza Rakyat, i saw a mom pushing her kid in a wheel chair.Apparently, the kid is disabled and look kinda serious case.Well, some sorta weird plus sympathy aroused in me.I just holding back my tears actually.I was really touched by the sacrifice and unrelentless effort to take care of her child.Isn't mother is so...dunno how to label it,queen of the heart?The love is like tears from the stars from above.Loving your mom is like food to your own soul.
Anywhere , on other issue.So,Adiran was with her gf since Merdeka day.I'm quite bit erm...uneasy.Nt like i'm anti Lying, we veyr good friends ok but i feel like i'm single and like a loner and a light bulb.Am i a big fat loser eh?No,it just uncomfortable.I'm not desperate for lover.I won';t just blind folded and simply pick a lover.Though i know i'm choosy and this making me i'm stil single.But what the hell.Being my lover is not easy ok? haha.Nah, i just want the person who can click with me, love me, i love her-unconditionally,passion, the feel, the sparkle.Yet,my gap of my fingers still unfulfilled.Really...hope i could find someone very soon.Just keep my fingers crossed.The ungodly schedule?...mmm......

me?Debating?

2006-09-07T01:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,it is second last day of my first mid of my semester(apparently,now already midnight).It was quite cool as not that boring as before.And for the second time,i came early for Dr.Lean's class.Talking about her class which is CRR, i had to become a debater for today class.What?ME?A debater?Yeah, me.I know it is quite shockin for most of my close friends as i'm not good in this.Futhermore,i dun even have a single experience in this stuff though i watched many debate competitions in my school.So, how was it?Seriously, i didnt have any preparation for this though i'm third speaker.I just being spontatenous when i delivering my points.Albiet i was bit shaky but i managed to kill the times and after all, my team won haha.It is nice experience actually.Maybe it is a way to polish my ability to speak very well.FYI, i'm not that veyr good speaker and sometimes i do stammer.sometimes many people puzzled why a not so good speaker like me entering in mass com as this field has to speak a lot.Well, i take this as a challenge and i'm not that loser who cannot speak but my ability still kept deep inside and i wanna bring it out to everyone of you and i want everyone to watch me shine.
So,this what happened in my CRR.Now into computer class.As usual, i and apparently majority of my coursemates as well were just floating and no idea whats going on.Most of them just doin thier sutff and chatting in IM(inclusive of me).Anywhere, it was bit fun to sit behind.Cracked jokes with Kusum and Kelly-they indeed very funny til i and Michelle joint into the laughter though we no idea what was the joke about.Moreover, we were so free til nothing to do, we chat in MSN and teasing each other though we just sit beside each other.I wondered 10 k was paid for this? =>

steve Irwin DieS

2006-09-05T15:00:00.000+08:00

Isn't life fragile and unpredictable?Steve Irwin was fatally stung by stingray and past away yesterday.I was like what? Is rather sad as he died in doing his job he loved so much.My thought and prayers for his family and friends.Remember u always as the great animal hunter icon.

Anywhere,life goes on.So this is a recap on what's going on lately.

Thurs-Is merdeka day.I guess i was with the flow like many other else.Sleep til very very late.I woke up at 1 pm.Nothing much to do on that day actually-just went to pyramid to have lunch in Uncle Lim.And of coz,because of 31 of the month, i won't miss the Baskin robbin 31 %discount.It was awesome yummy haha.Then later in the evening,just stick at home.So bored!!

Fri-even worse, stick at home for the whole Fri..just went to Mel's house for diner and One in a million.Okay,i'm not a big fan for that show but i really supporting Suki.she's cool.And da superman guy, you suck and annoying!!!!

SAT-Today it was supposed a great for me but then it turned to be bad.I went out to 1 U with my new found friend.He sucks man.He likes pretend he is so great in dressing up himself and rudely bombard me by the way i dress.Come on,i look aweful sometimes but i dress wat it fits me and i feel comfortable with it.How other people perceive me is thier problem ok?Well,if i look suck,why people approached me and some model agent interested in me?If i was a girl and so called first date with him,he failed damn miserably.Thank god my anger was reduced since he treated me for a movie(My super x girlfriend).and he even not sending me home.Poor Alvin.

Later in the night it was awesome night.Went to Mel's about 11 something.We had chit chat with her,Adrian and Mel's bro until 3 something.So much jokes cracked till our stomach were pain hehe.

Sunday-Since i alienated the books for so long,so it was study day for me.Later in the night, Adrian made a variety food for us.Quite nice apparently .The pasta is better than my mom.

Monday- Monday blues,no it was monday pink.Everybody was like asking,u wearing pink again.?come on,i only got one pink shirt okie?haha.Lecture..erm...pretty broing esp ML.Is killing me!!

31'th oF Aug

2006-08-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

Time really flies.We come to the end of aug,almost on the verge of end of the year.I remember last year's today,i still staying late at night to prepare my trial exam.But now i already in my first year.Many things happened along the way regardless ups or downs.The sweet moments in my class.Miss them a lot.Well,life goes on rite?
Anywhere, yesterday i didnt really had da celebration though i went to few occasions.Firstly, i went to Kait's church conference.Fortunately,i bumped Kusum and Leeisha again( apparently,they are oversea coursemates-from Mauritius and Maldives respectively) so i wont be a stranger in a foreign land.So,how was it? It was pretty alright and kinda happening and much alive.I didnt sit there for the whole thingy so i can gave the total comment.But some of the sermon is kinda meaningful.And got the chance to see the 2006 Astro Talent winner.He's only 19 but got big achievement.so when i reflect on me,what i did achieve?kinda thoughful question on me....i blog about this later........meanwhile i had dinner at Manhattan.
I sneaked out from the conference about 10 pm and headed to KTM to meet Adrian.Damn adrian, i have to cancel my date with ahem just accompany you to Sentral, but then is alright,friends rite? consequently, we just had our countdown in Sentral without fireworks and just celebrated with Mc s burgers and Mcflurry.What an outstanding celebration.
Today, is a no planned day for me.woke up at 1 pm!!!!Went to pyramid again(apparently, sunway pyramid is already certified as my second home) to have lunch and bought some grocery stuff.Boring eh>?Single is people like me is lifeless.Poor alvin......

aSsignments...are maneater

2006-08-29T14:48:00.000+08:00

So back to kl again.The hectic is lingering back.Damn it.due my overload of ass,here are some brief recaps of whats really going these past few days.

Friday.Pretty much nothing to do.Eat like horse again and did some unfortunate and forced reading.In night, went out at almost 12 am and hang out with Hansen til 4 something.Yeah,two bachelors who still unattached,so we like have a bachelor night.

Saturday.the day when my girl friend back( not lover ok)Gosh,so miss her.so as usual,we did hang out and did stupid stuff,i mean not into sex ok?.We went to JJ almost 10 pm and the store would be closing at 1030 pm.so, in these 30 minutes,it was like Explorace,we had rushed to buy , mascara and clothes , tonnes of clothes.Phew,fortunately we got what we want.After that,we went to Tesco.Is kinda ironic you know as we are so broke but yet we still treat ourselves like shopaholic.Nah,i didn't buy anything but she did.So, before we said good bye to our rendervouz, we did hang out at Imax til almost 3.Thats nuts!!By the way, she is not my lover ok.

Sunday.Back to kl.The journey was really suxx.The bus's engine was noisy till i got ear sore and it stinks!!Yes,the bus stink.The odour was just unbearable.Imagine yourself trapped in a room which loaded with stinking rubbish.Yucks!!Anywhere, we reached about 4 something and had window shoppin with Melz in Subang Parade.Unfortunately, she didnt get what she really really really wanted.Followed by car breakdown along the way home.Shit!!

Monday.The begining of the assignment saga.Dude, it did killing me.No sleep,eye beg was like so damn obvious and big freaking acne on my face.Thanks ass.

Tuesday.Still in the ass saga.But today,i did my only test in this sem.Well, the test is pretty ok for me at least i'm not giving the blank paper.So, i just keep my fingers crossed.

Wednesday.People!! It is my independence day.Today is the day which i handing in my last ass.Praise the lord that i finally finish my ass.But since my ass is done, no idea what to do next.Futhermore,is merdeka eve.Sadly, this single Alvin is undated.Is it?

LiFe is likE ChocolaTe

2006-08-25T00:42:00.000+08:00

Life is like chocolate, it is bitter but is blended with sweetness-copy from Forest Gump-Meaningful rite?Though in life you see the world is a pathetic place for you to live on but,if you explore it or face it,the outcome is awesome...maybe i should put this words of wisdom into my love's issue.I'm just a guy who got big L on the forehead in this.Poor Alvin.
Anywhere, this week is really really extremely hectic week for me thanks to my assignments.Midnight oil, eye bag,sleepness night-dear, assignments, you gonna pay for this!!So gonna do a simple recap here.
Monday, was the last day for me to prepare my presentation on the Gender.Ok,it was my first formal presentation which marks wil be judged not only by my lecturer but by my coursemates as well.So,it was like butteflies in my stomach coz in Form 6, i didnt really expose this presentation thingy.So is like a novice in this area.Meanwhile,at night, ihad dinner with Darren and his friend.Ok,a steamboat dinner to be precise.Well, since my stomac is way too small, it was abundance for me and full til my throat.I have no idea since Darren is kinda skinny,he ate a lot!!!Good metabolism i suppose.Sometimes,i think i'm bit weird in my eating behaviour.I eat very very slow pace.Is not that i'm sluggish but then if i eat too fast,i feel uncomfortable.WEirdo...
Tuesday,The d Day for me.How was it?Good.Coz i didnt really shaky or panicky though i refer to my notes most of the time haha.But lots of credits to Michelle ,my partner.I felt that she's awesome in presenting and of coz,her ice breaking was awesome.The class was so alive not just a one way but my fellow coursemates did really give response.Cool!
Wednesday, it was bad day.Late for Dr Lean's class again and read the wrong stuff-unprepared for her class.Sigh..And worst of all,i had do my minor essay from 5 pm til 2 am.Sob sob....my eyes were sore and my mind was not functioning well...sigh...How could this happened to me?
Today, kinda chill day for me coz i backed to Ipoh.A air to breath at last.....

Assignment BluEs

2006-08-21T15:13:00.000+08:00

So,back to kl again.It was tired.Hell tired.I no idea with my friends in kl, they are all outstation.I'm don't mean that i'm mummy's little boy who need people to pick me up but it was dangerous to travelling alone at night.Sigh...Where all the good people gone?
Anywhere,i still struggling with assignment.Is not easy or hard but it is loaded.EThe due dates clash with each other.So,i need a rope to hang myself.Today it is monday blue again.You never know how hard am i to open up my eyes and pretending to listening to the lecturer.Beside, tomorrow is my presentation.....gosh!!!

Loving yoU MAkes My life Worth Living

2006-08-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna blog real fast here as i need 2 go home as very very late.Basically, i've got notthing to blog as lately,my life is just loaded with assignments.Can;t wait for the next 2 weeks as my life will enligthen without my assignments and my mid sem break.Oh yeah!Actually nothing to hoo haa about as you know my life lately kinda dull.Not much spectacular.No lover to colour my life.Anywhere,somebody asked me a once in a lifetime question.He some sorta photographer in model agency in kl.So,he asked me, do u interested to work as a model for Nokia?I was like what?Me?I don't even have the model look and i look skinny.He said modelling nowadays want something new.Well,i dunno he just pulling my leg or what,but if we can talk about this in more detail,i will nod.Come on, model for Nokia.Appear in TV.Then everyone will say to me" hey are u that Nokia guy?'So krewl dude.But then, i dunno it will work for me but i really looking forward.Fortune and fame....oh yeah!!!
Anywhere, today's title is courtesy of Dennis.I really really sweeten by his nick in MSN!!!Hope someday,somebody will say this phrase to me-p/s: Dennis is my lil bro.

You're BeAutifUl......Muakzz

2006-08-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

Time flies really really fast.Today is already Thurs,which means weekends for me haha.Actually i already backed in Ipoh.Home sweet home indeed.It was so relaxing here and more greenary compared to kl.And of coz...the food.I had a big bowl of laksa here just after i stepped outta bus.I miss the food here so much.
Though it feel so warm to return home but the assignment follows me too.Praise the lord that my CCS's due date has been postponed.So my main focus now is my presentation and my minor essay.And i hate REFERENCING!!!I no idea how i gonna survive for next week.
On the other hand, the title for today blog it seems kinda sweet eh?Think again.I still recuperating ok?but getting better.Thats saying in chinese which goes : what matter most is love is the possession, not looking for a long lasting love.Ok,maybe i could take this saying for me to feel better.So,i really wanna say big thank you for giving the 15 minutes-the time when both of us in the car and had the casual chat.I really apppreaciate it.Though i'm not fully recover but i getting better.If you really love a person, you should let him/her go......
So this song really match today's blog....hope i could c u again.Friends rite?A picture of us and a long warm hugs....thats all i want from you....

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL
James Blunt
Singingfool.com

My life is brilliant.My love is pure.I saw an angel.Of that I'm sure.She smiled at me on the subway.She was with another man.But I won't lose no sleep on that,'Cause I've got a plan.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.Yeah, she caught my eye,As we walked on by.She could see from my face that I was,Fucking high,And I don't think that I'll see her again,But we shared a moment that will last till the end.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you.You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.There must be an angel with a smile on her face,When she thought up that I should be with you.But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.

right back what is Wrong...we move Along

2006-08-16T14:12:00.001+08:00

2006 gonna turns 9 months old soon.So far, this year sucks.First of all,i didnt get the course that i wanted for my local uni.what iwas given was non-bio course in KUKTEM.(kuktem is in pahang anywhere).Thank god now i doing a foregin degree locally which alliance with UniSa.Secondly, this year really sucks because my love-more precise; my failed relationship.Starting of they year, my ex broke up with me and she broke the sacred promise.Those days,it was so excruciating for me to recover and it took me 3 months to be ok.We look like ended our relationship in a spectacular manner but we're still remain as friends.Now, is like deja vu again-the same kinda feeling.Yeah this love fool here is being rejected.Sigh.I know is not worth it to put hope in it anymore as she alreasy choosen who is most suitable for her.All i can do is wish her luck.Anything you still got me k?i feel like i myself like a love fool or a big loser in love.Always fail in relationship-am i that bad?
Movc on to wat is happening today.Today i late for Dr Lean's class again.Don't blame me-blame the bus driver,he's late again.And sorry to my lecturer too as i didnt read the articles.So..most of the time i have 0 idea on what answer should i give.Besides,today it is a lawesome day for me and for my classmates too.The CCR class canceled.Yahoo!!!So went home so early today,11 am!!!Though my coursemates asked me for movie but then due to the unfinished assignment..i can;t....It is rather sad you know- oxy moron-coz since the class finished so early,it is sweet to call your lover to pick you up and later on hang out at shopping mall or perhaps watching a nice movie.Sigh.Maybe i don't really have a cherry blossom luck this year but who knows the one who is really perfect for me is till somewhere out there.

the heArt is Broken Piece by Piece...But still Alive

2006-08-15T16:10:00.000+08:00

Days gone by but nothing in the end.Why this phrase always happening to me?Did i do anything wrong to deserve this?This is sickening.
So, the fella who i confesseed was taken by someone else.How do i feel?Hurt and sad but still composed.Still standing.Maybe myself got lots of disadvantages and maybe we just barely know each other.I respect your decision.I hope he will bring happiness to you and take good care of you.Whenever you do or you got trouble or u need somebody to talk to,remember me,i'll stand by you.Though we could not be couple,don;t hesitate to hang out with me k?I treat you as my very close friend or brother should i say.I'll be your no 1 in terms of friend or brother.Luv ya....
Nah..i'm not pretending to be ok but i really mean.She chose the one so i could do is wish her all the best.Though is sad but i will be glad to see her enjoyin her love.Sigh..so,i'm single and available perhaps?Not now dude as i need time to recover again.

My 200'th blog......the MisErable one

2006-08-13T20:24:00.000+08:00

Dude..i really dun like this kinda feeeling.Every morning i wake up, the feeling of emptiness is floating above my head.You know is like void of something.So lonely.Is killing me.I rather take a bottle of sleeping pills and wake up in the state of intoxication.Can forget my current situation.Feel like i'm loser.My foundation to get on with life is being shaken.How long i have to endure this?1 month?A year? forever?How i wish i never met him.So i won't be this miserable....i really wanna know what happened......please

Stars R blind...love too

2006-08-13T03:15:00.000+08:00

Once again.I'm broke again.Why?Coz i bought so many stuff for her.Though the stuff is considered rather cheap but you know ,i'm just an average guy,so is quite burdensome for me in terms of financial.Sigh..but my love can't be judged by coins and notes.the Things i doing now is just for you..every star that i've made is blended with my love...i just wanna tell you i'm not a jerk or a playboy.The situation now is rather complicated and confused and i don't know why you so mad at me.Did i say someting wrong?Did i coz u some misunderstandings?Or you just bombarded at me purposely so i can forget about you?Think again.It won't work me.I'm might be a loser in other aspect but for love and you,i will fight it till my last breath.I dunno why u said those words to me.It was really pain..was like a pinch in my heart and soul.Read my lips; I swear with my name and God as the witness that i never look down on you or have a bad impression on you.Neither have a bad intention nor taking advantage on you.Maybe that time you're moody but no need til like avoiding me.This is so inappropiate...this is hurting me.Please, believe me,i'm not a jerk.I just wish to be with you and be beside you when you're down...that's all.No hidden agenda.
Sometimes i asked myself and my friends asked me since you've got so many people eyeing on you, why not you go after them.Why you choose instead the one who is harsh and cold on you.Well, love is blind.Many people will think that i'm just a player who more concern about her look(she looks cute anywhere) but they are so damn wrong.I'm not a player.I'm innocent guy who still believe in true love and i already seeking and i hope you're the one for me.I promise you andi swear,i treat you good,bring you joy andi'll be with you no matter what situation you in....
Anywhere, this evening really wanna say big thank you for Ken for his kindness to taking us down to UM and mid Valley.Dude, really sorry coz causing you so much trouble and took you down to the wrong roads hehe.Sorry.
So,this is the first time i entered UM.Gosh, is freaking big.We even took 5-10 minutes just to pick up my friend from her hostel./why is so big?I wonder how the students going to thier class...By foot?gosh,poor thing......

P/S: this is my 199'th blog.The figure of 99 is a symbol of long lasting.So,i just wanna tell to the very special person:Please don't ignore me.You already stop sms me and stop picking my call.It is very hard for me to swallow.Please stop that okie.A simple sms for me will do.I'm very sorry ......please forgive me.Though i still not sure where the problem pop up but i know somewhere along the line,i did something wrong and stupid.I'm sorry and please explain to me why you so mad at me.I hope before i going back,i could see you as i wanna give something to you.....Hope you doing fine...Take care.I'll be waiting...i know you mention before that you prefer a guy who can do more than words.I know my blog is just a silly thing but i really mean every word i said here.I'll to do more in action but you already close the door for me...

AlmosT paraDise..but in The enD, still on the ground

2006-08-11T02:18:00.000+08:00

You know this kinda situation,when people esp the loved ones offer you a something significant to you or a promise is keep for you,but in the end...there's nothing or rather something bad happens like the promise is broken,or the things he or she offers you have a hidden agendas.Thats what i feeling today.I'm sad,pissed off and dissapointed.I will even more pissed if you were doin some sorta of test of me.If not,i really wanna know what happened.Are you still moody til this level?i hope you will doing fine soon.Don't take it like end of the world,k?You see,i'm really pissed and almost break down but then maybe i reall love you too much, telling you to take care with an anger feeling.
Anywhere,is weekend again.whats my plan.Though is a fantastic,awesome and once in a lifetime weekend but then is ruined.Is like a nice beautiful vase hits the ground and disintegrates piece by piece.Poor alvin.so,i guess i staying at home and being Mr lonely.Reading the readers which is alien for me.Watch tv which is 0 entertainment and finish my bottle of stars which no idea why i doin it since da fellar is like 'cold' and angry with me.Sometimes,i did my soul searching.Am i too innocent in this love kinda thingy?Is such thing called true love?Though i hurt before but i still believe in.......i hope the person that i on to right now,reading this blog; I'm so sorry if my any words or deeds offended you,i never really mean it.Maybe i misunderstood or i did something which i made you disappointed.Here by,i sincerely,with my bottom of my heart and depth of my soul:Sorry.I know myself could not reach your requirement but i won't give up.Falling into you.....

Falling For Youby Danielle R. Valentine
When I very first saw you there,
I just had to stop and stare.
It was a weird vibe I got,
but I didn’t want it to stop.
I began to realize I was falling for you,
I didn’t know how it could be true.
I just knew you were sent from up above,
So, I told all my friends about my secret love.
Every time you passed me by,
I felt higher than the sky.
When we finally talked to one another,
we both knew we were meant for each other.
Although we never would say,
we were in love more and more each day.
I wanted to scream and shout,
that I loved you, but I held out.
I soon began to really fall,
when you began to call.
I just had to make you see,
that you’re the only one for me.
I wrote you a note that said how I felt,
if I didn’t, my heart was going to melt.
We both should’ve said something before,
but we still would’ve wanted each other even more.
To many months that we had been hiding our passion,
it finally burst like a new trend or fashion.
I finally had you in my arms,
I’m free of all harm.
Now that I have you here with me,
Our love will always be.
I know together we’ll always stay,
And I know you won’t ever go away.
Our love will never end,
for I keep falling for you over and over again

Things i do For lovE

2006-08-10T01:58:00.000+08:00

it is already 2am.I still sitting in front of table and facing the computer.My physical is already calling me to sleep but my mind still active.Maybe i longing to something.So wass up with me lately?Kinda hectic actually as my assignments are keep on flowing in withot sign of stopping.Damn it.I have been burning midnight oil since monday..my eyes beg now is dark and ugly.YEW!!Please please lectures..give mercy on me or us..we don't mindof the assignment but the boredom you given is testing us.
Actually,this time is the first time i blog in my apartment coz i jus got the modem for my computer.Is kinda cool eh?But then seriously now i just stole people's wireless network to online hehe.
Back to my title above:erm...sometimes love could make you to do the things that you wouldn't thought you would do.So, this is what i doing.I bought a origami papers to make a bottle of stars for the person which i loved rite now.Sweet eh?Actually,origami or any kind of art activity is like a bullshit to me.Coz i think is wasting my time and will lost temper easily when the things go wrong.But for now, is different.Just now Adrian taught me of making the stars with paper.Is kinda hard for me really coz i suck in doin this but then after almost 2 hours of painstakingly of trying,i could make a mediocre star.Til my fingers got bruised by the sharp points of the stars.Poor alvin.I hope she will likes it.Although is kinda old fashion but then it is my sign of sincerity of having you though my main concern is know you better first.Hope can see you soon and have a personal talk wit you.Gosh...i damn freaking missing you.I don;t have guts to sms you as i scare you will label me as annoying.Somehow,somewhere..i wish you and me will be together as one...though my hope is just like a fish in an ocean but this fish in deeply in love with you......

Slit My tHroAt..become a Love SuiciDe

2006-08-07T15:30:00.001+08:00

nah..dun worry..just a title..i mean a wide eyes opening title.So backed to KL.Actually the journey was rather fuck up as the bus delayed about 2 hours.But thank god,the bus could really speed.So,the travelling time was only 2 hours.It was bit dangerous coz..u know bus is lack of stability.When i reached KL, i was exhausted..praise the Lord for sending ahem someone to pick me up.Thank you Mr.Someone.
Today is a bad day actually.Unfinished assignments and miss the bus and went to college late.Luckily,the lecturer didnt say anything.I was 30 minutes late hehe.And then, thanks to my curiosity and i read my someone's blog.Found out something which does not favour to me.But actually yesterday,she indicated that lots of ppl is eyeing on her.Dude,is not that i don't have courage and confidence but i'm scare being rejected though i wanna know the truth.In my love principal, i can't accept any lost.Now is not rejection nor acceptance.Maybe i'm just Mr.Nobody for her.Maybe i don't look attractive enough.Maybe you just see my lwas.Maybe i cant crack ajoke to make you smile.Maybe is not your time to be committed.I'm not sure i can give to you.I don't have magnetic eyes to attract your eyes.I don't have muscled hands to catch you when u fall.I don;t have 6 feets to reach the place whihc unreachable for you.I don;t have tough strong body to protect you from harm.I don;t have any talent to entertain you when you down or lonely.My tongue is tied so i cant speak the sweet sweet words for you.My wallet is just loaded with red notes,so i can't buy the world for you.My backbone is weak,i cant be that supportive for you in physical aspect.My brain is dumb,so i can't able solve your problems.But these are my flaws but Alvin does have a thing that other ppl don;t have.A pure and sincere heart which can offer you a genuine love and unconditional.Please i'm not putting these sweet sweet words to make you happy.I really mean it.....i really do.I hope i'm the most outstanding one among them

I'mFull wiTh roMance..so wass up with it?

2006-08-06T00:02:00.003+08:00

I COULD NOT ASK FOR MORE
Edwin McCain
Singingfool.com

This is the song which i posted the lyric yesterday.Just read the lyric and enjoy the video.I guess anyone out there will be moved or touched rite?Or maybe feel weak on your knees.Well,i'm not flashy about this but i really got feedbacks from my friends that sometimes the way i convey my message is liek wow!!!You're suprising romantic..I am fallenfor this,how good if i'm your lover..sure the days are filled up wit romance(Apparently, some will puke..Yew,Alvin!you're pathetic,your blog is sickening)..But any how, the blog i mean the words that i wanna convey to that person seems like..i don't know,still keep it cool and i don;t know she got read my blog.I hope she doesnt read it as if yes,i will blush when i see her.
So, still single.Blogging a lonely blog.Why i such a loser in this love field.I should get a life.But if i wanna get to move on with life i need to love to be my motivator.Sigh.Alvin wake up!!To tell you the truth,i mean humbly speaking,i got few admirers who got interest me.I'm kinda feel proud of myself as i dun look heinous or ugly haha.Sadly,i really dun have sparkle or feeling with them.Yeah,is harsh but the feel is void.The only anticipation and the feel i have is toward the fella.
I don't know why i feel in love with her.Her inner beauty?I don;t think so as i just newly know her.Her look...erm,her loos is just a bonus for me.Really no idea.Maybe love at first sight again.Everytime i finish up my assignment,i will lay back and thinking of her.Wondering what she doin?Eating?Sleeping?Thinkin as me as well?...i hope so but i don't think so.Before i going to my deep sleep,i just imagine of you...how wonderful if u are beside,so i can have pillow talk with you,whispering in your ear and hugging of coz..talking about our love and our future.Looking into your eyes and see through your soul.Holding your hands tightly so you won't escape from me.
Kissing your forehead and saying how much i love you....So many anticipation....I don't know how u think about me ....please let me know you better....hope one day soon...i will blogging about our love life together with you....I'll be waiting...

In Between Rejection And accepTance

2006-08-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

I back to my hometown again after 2 weeks in KL.Nothing much happening here also.Many people said that it will be very exciting to be back to the hometown but then it is just feelingless..just lil bit tired as i need to travel to Pudu to take da bus.Actually i dun have much plan in Ipoh.Maybe wanna be homey for days and take sufficient rest as dude,really tired of hectic life in kl as i did a lot of travelling and my so called assignment.
Back to my love life again.It is proven that my weakness is love.Only this lovey dovey could let me down and fall.Many of my friends could sense that i look bit sad lately.Mmmmm..actually until now there is not much happening.It is neither rejection or acceptance.Maybe i still need time for this.Anything happen,i still be your friend,the one who wil beside you to listen and share the problem ok?I'll be waiting for you no matter what it takes.I don't know what is happening to me.It is undeniable i got half of the handful people who got interest in me but i only want the one who is the hardest..maybe she is the one i looking for.The one who can explore the ture meaning of true love.I hope that one day soon , i will call you with my bottom of my heart and depth of my soul: "DEAR"....
Anywhere, thx Adrian and Melissa for thier point of views.It really lighten me and it did help me to think positively.
Before i end this blog, when i on the way back to ipoh,i listened to this song :' i could not ask for more ' by Edwin Mccain.Almost tears in my heart.Really wish that i got that chance to sing for you while you on my shoulder:
Lying here with you • Listening to the rain • Smiling just to see the smile upon your face • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments • I'll remember all my life • I found all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Looking in your eyes • Seeing all I need • Everything you are is everything to me • These are the moments • I know heaven must exist • These are the moments I know all I need is this • I have all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more than this time together • I could not ask for more than this time with you • Every prayer has been answered • Every dream I have's come true • And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be • Here with you here with me • These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive • These are the moments I'll remember all my life • I've got all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • Chorus • I could not ask for more than the love you give me 'Coz it's all I've waited for • And I could not ask for more • I could not ask for more

Fast But not Furious aNd conFused

2006-08-02T11:29:00.000+08:00

Shit.I floating in the class again.The day kicked off with the train delay.WTF?For almost 30 minutes i waited the train.Yet,the unfortunate series still rolling.The train was freaking loaded and the beeline was streching as my eyes could see and i t even can't manage to reach the door of the train.Damn it,i had to wait for another 10 minutes for another train.My history on early arrival to the class had been relinquished.Sad thing.
Anywhere,yesterday was like an armageddon for me.Why?Yeah, my love thingy again.Well,only love issue could only let me fallen.So, she didn't reject me but she said we should start off with friendship.Okay,that's fine.But, i could see the fortified wall embracing you.I hope you could penetrate the wall and know and understang the inner of yours.We are still newbies for each other.I know that but that's why you should open up the door.
After second thought, am i really too abnormal and prone to fast track relationship?It doesn't me that i'm player or jerk in love relationship.I mean business and i know what i doing.I'm not a kid or a loser who just simply got a lover just for the sake of fun or companionship.I believe is more than that.Commitment,sacrifice, dedication,passion, faithful and the list goes on and on.I respect your decision to start it slow.But if the chance is upon our doors , grab it!!I'm real and sincere for it.Let me be the one who will love you and cherish you til our very last breath.I'll be waiting.

I'm In Love Again aFter A loNg lonG whilE

2006-08-01T15:04:00.000+08:00

Damn Adrian.Dragged me to his room and chat with him til almost 2 pm.Due to the late night and sleep and almost half day of escorting his gf to downtown kl.I'm so dead tired and today class i just barely open my eyes.Thank god,there was a presentation and discussion which its topic is quite fascinating for me.I wanna take my nap but damn adrian again, my nap in his room and i dun even have his keys.Sigh.Sorry i'm little bit mean to my housemates haha.
So, come to my love life.YupI'm in love again.Many people will puzzle am i really totally forgot my ex.Frankly,is not 100 % but is time for me to really move on and find my happiness and my love.So,yesterday Adrian asked me why u fell in love with that fella?I really don't know.Maybe the charisma.She's like the gurl who is 20 but mature in thinking, shy but self confident.The way she smiles,the way she lookin at me..is fulfilling kinda feeling..i already started to miss her.
However,we still like living between an invisible wall.I really dun understand you.Sometimes,i realy wish 2 talk about serious matter like love but you will just change another topic.Sometimes i really wish to comprehend more about you but you close the door for me.I'm bit confused.Am i taking too fast pace.Am i not your type of coffee?Is you too bz?All i ask you is the chance to let me understand you better.Eventually and i hope that the gaps between my fingers will be fulfilled by your fingers......
P.S: i really happy when u sms me...

Should i Really ConfEss?

2006-07-30T01:19:00.000+08:00

This feeling is killing me.The feel of uncertain bliss,lost,fear and speechless.Feel like banging myself on the wall.I know i shouldn't to be in love so fast and blind folded but then i just can't help it.I feel like wanna find her (though i dun have car in kl) and hug her and tell her how i feel about her.But then i might scare her away.Really know idea what 2 do.I saw your profile somewhere and you got some bad kinda thingy is sticking on you.Dude,if i really love a person i will take you as whole regardless your physical or mental disadvantageor problems.Sigh.I know this blog won't be read by you cause i barely know you.But i really scare to confess to you.Hope things will go my way and one day perhaps very soon,i will call you dear.I know the time is flying in the speed of sound for both of us,why don't do something good.

Crash And fall

2006-07-28T14:03:00.000+08:00

Time really flies.I already done my first week of the course.Actually the total of weeks i have to undergo for this semester is 13 weeks.Basically,the first week of mine is rather boring.All we do is just nothing but reading-but since is the first week,i guess is alright to be stoned like this.And now is already weekend,i guess i'm gonna fully wrapped by spider web.
Nothing much to blog about my campus life here.Just typical lecturer and kinda close with my coursemates nowadays.And yesterday met a bunch of new friends and hang out with them till wee hours.They just a bunch of guys who are cracking tonnes of jokes-it really made my day.Thanks a lot.And for the first time, i hugged/touched an iguana.Damn john..i really scare when u threw the reptile at me.But then,my fear 4 the little dragon had gone haha.
Anywhere,i once said move to kl to get a brand new life and turn over a new leaf and put love aside.However, i can't do that really.The disease of fallin g inlove and crushing is come back 2 me again.Whats wrong with me?I'm such a loser who can't live without love.I suppose i labelled my love as my booster/cataylst for my journey of my life.In this current case, i just barely know her but then feel like wanna see her so much.Wanna be with you and wanna know you more.I wish i could be love again.but then,i guess is just a silly crush but if we really clicked,i really don't mind to start a new relationship.Hope i could know you more. Shit,i really miss you.ok,i know i should compose my self.

FIrst Few Days of FOrmal TertiarY EdU

2006-07-26T11:42:00.000+08:00

Okay,it may seem weird as i already 20 and yet i just a freshman in my tertiary education.Thanks to form 6, cause i considered the Form 6 still in high school level.Anywhere,is bit like kinda culture shock to enter to da world of college.You know, Form Six edcuation is very much pampered by teachers and you will get everything inside the book or simply just go to the tuition.But now,everything have to be our own.Do our own research and get our own resources.sigh...just miss those leisure life in Form 6.Hey,form 6 is fun.I don't whu many people still assume that from 6 is tough like hell.
Anywhere, this is my first week i mean the real first week in this college(For those who really dun have any idea which college i enrolled,dude! I'm in Taylor-pj's campus aka Bali Bali)So, how does it feel?It feels cold most of the time as the air cond here is like hundres of big ice cubes embracing the class or lecture hall.Besides, my disease still lingering til now since form six.Don't worry is not a cronic disease but then is just i will fall easily when i got nothing to do.
Ops they having a class here,so gonna sign off...cya.

OrienTation Blues

2006-07-22T15:05:00.000+08:00

3 days of orientation,3 days of torture.Just joking but quite interesting and yet tiring.Just imagine, sitting in a room with a very freaking temperature(apparently, the room is powered by 2 high powerful air conds) and you a stoned in your place to listen very very long hour (9 to 5 pm) of talks.However, we were given some activities to minimized our boredom.
Well,my life in the college for 3days were pretty okie and better what i was expect.But i really do confuse with the places there as my campus is a high rise building and it shared with other tenants; i guess few weeks l;ater i will fond with places there....the so called Balinese environment campus.
Anywhere, my new coursemates there are friendly.Though we newly met and not very close with each other but then, you know we wouldnt stick to one gang or worse being a loner..we did sit together to have lunch.I don't know how to label this but it feels warm.It really eliminated my first day blues.I guess thats the wrap for my orientation blog.Monday will be my first class,gosh monday blues again.I hope it will turn out well.To add on,i really happy about the time table as is not that hectic as the class will ends in noon and i don't have class on Friday!But i heard mass com students have to many many of reseach and assignments but yet i still is not that resourceful by this time.Sigh.
On the other hand, i don't feel homesick.Maybe i living with my friend so got the sense of the companion.But i really conquer the fear of being homesick.For me, living in KL is almost the same in Ipoh though KL is haunted by traffic jam.Although,i have to take da trouble to go to my college but then hey,i'm 20 years old,is time for me to be independent,no more leisure life like inIpoh.

What a Diff3Rence a Day made

2006-07-18T13:07:00.000+08:00

Finally,i 'm here at kl,blogging for very first time here.It was quite actually cause woke up early morning yesterday and came down all the way to kl.Unfortunately, we got lost most of the time.For heaven sake,once you in the wrong path in kl,the hell will go with you.You have to take few km down to make an U turn.Unlike Ipoh.Just miss Ipoh.
Anywhere, i had been lamenting about fearing homesick when i settle here.However,the situation is not that bad that i thought.Yeah,too much leisure in Ipoh,everything is wel prepared at home and got car to use and got Astro somemore.But here,it is like contradict here.Sigh.How i miss Ipoh.

In The end,iS a goodBye

2006-07-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

After all,the sacred promise is meant to be broken.Although i self proclaimed that i'm alright after my disaster relationship but i still recovering and when i recalled it, the scar is excrutiating again.Hope i will get well soon in kl and turn over a new leaf there.
So,in this few hours left(as if i going to die),nothing much i wanna do.My life is without the purpose anymore.I've lost the colour and the fire.No more that good old alvin.
Anywhere, just now i went to a house warming which held by my old ex's classmates.His condo was cool.I even had to pass 2 guard house to reach his condo.Well,my home also have guards but free coz stray dogs haha.How i wish could stay in this environment-hilly and secluded from the city.Living wit my loved one.How perfect it is.
So everyone who reading this blog which i dun no people will read it..wish me luck in kl

This is not me

2006-07-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

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My Days Are NumbereD

2006-07-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

Yup.My days are numbered.Not i'm gonna die or have some cronic sickness.but, i'm gonna leave and study elsewhere.Well, you guys a re well informed in KL.So,dude,do find me when you are in kl,i'll be staying in Sunway.
So,yesterdya i chat with my so called bro,Andrew.I lament that nowadays i don't have fire/power the self confident in the things that i do.Yeah,serioulsy.I have no idea what happened to me.I'm not that Alvin used to who was confident at max.So don't be suprise if you see me like low self-esteem.Sigh.
So living Ipoh.No mummy's little boy anymore.No more car for me to use.No more Nasmir.No more Astro.No more air cond.Most of all,the limited money.I guess i need Ah long for reload my pocket like this video.

First Step is The hardest

2006-07-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

I've been giving moral support to my friends who living to other states for thier under graduate studies.Telling them not to worry and don'tmiss home..try hard 2 adapt the life there.However,when it comes to me,i already feel the excitement.
So the trip in kl was quite alright,the room is ok.RM230 for a room which inculde evrything thats kinda reasonable but the room is rather stuffy.But anywhere,is pretty good to have a close friend stay with you(adrian) coz got companion and got people look up too.Beside,the neighbour also quite friendly i mean Mels and the girl,i forgetten her name. Guess that i wont be so terribly alone there.Anwhere,ipoh willbe the best for me.Hometown is the sweetest.Although Ipoh is not happening like Pg or Kl but it is satisfactory.Although we dun have abundant of entertainment or hang ot place but is alright coz can save our money.We even got Starbucks in Ipoh nowhaha.Damn it,why they open it now..i leaving loh.
Before i end this blog,a million thanks to Vincent.Without him,i would have to take the trouble to take the bus back home to Ipoh.
By the way,is finalof the world cup. italy!!!GO!!

7/7..one year on

2006-07-06T23:52:00.000+08:00

Sigh.Now already 7'th of July.Last year today, i confessed to my ex and i got her.So fast 365 days had past.I've lost her and single again.Those sweet promises and fantasy only illusion,it won't happen.But anywhere,although we broke up,i wish her all the best.Find me if you need any help.
On lighter note,tomorrow will be heading to Kay El 2 check out the room for my accomodation during my studies in Kay El.So, i do hope the place is fine for me.Sigh..12 days left for me in Ipoh and counting.

Ceiling,tv,bed and mE

2006-07-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, another farewell for my buddy who is going to work In Genting.i bet that my life will be terribly alone and lonely.Now my friends in Ipoh are just numbered,i guess less than 10. Those who left are thosewaiting for private instituion enrollment, waiting for local uni and those senior who going back to thier respective unis.So,sooner or later..only me alone in ipoh.But anywhere,less than 2 weeks i'll be goign 2 study.For heavan sake i havent found the accomodation..Thats me ...Everyhting last minute.
Anywhere, tonight is between Germany and Italia.Fullest support for gerMany!
Beside,2day is foruth of July...happy birthday US!!Hope the troops in Iraq can return home safe and sound and..Mr Bush,no more war..

Go Germany go!!

2006-07-03T15:30:00.000+08:00

I can't believe myself blogging about this World Cup thing.Yeah..i self admit that i'm not a football fan and big L as player but the this World Cup fever is getting me excited and adrealine rush.There is so much hoo haa about England going to semi but then most of you guys dissapointed that they failed.No Rooney,no Beckham and no Owen....is like the team lost its magic.This one is even more suprise.Brazil lost again to France.Sorry for the Brazilian fans.
For me,fullest support to Germany though Italy could be the one who win.

BesT of LUcK and Bon VoyaGe

2006-07-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

These few days, it was indeed a hectic days for me.I had to done many paper works concerning the application stuff.Thank God, i hand my document on time and hopefully i could get the scholarship.Oh yeha,where i going to study?Well i could not confirm yet but most probably the college which i said before,i don't mean kuktem.Anywhere,i hope i could granted the loan as it is way too costly.
Anywhere, last Thursday , me and my ex classmates held a farewell gathering in Friday.It was good to see them again.Most of them..still unchanged in terms of thier lookin particular me tough many of the girls kept lamenting about their gained weight.
2 years is just past in blink of the eyes.From the day we didn't know each other til now which the friendship is so called strongly bonded,i really happy and proud with my class.6 of them going UM and ironically,almost 20 of them going 2 private.
On the other hand,yesterday it was most embarassing moment of the year.I was informed that i had to give my document to the college's agent in Main convent but i don't know what was wrong with me,i ended up in Ave Maria.Gosh, you know the situation which like a lost person in the town,asking about the direction but the destination is in other town.Sigh...
Why the embarassing moment keep happening to me.This one even worse.It happened eveyr year.I talking about my school magazine.I look ugly every year.Maybe i'm not photogenic.But it really make me sick.I look so different between the real me and in the pics.Damn those cameras.
Most importantly in today blog,i wish all my friends who going 2 local unis.Best of luck.May you find loads of fun there and having great time of studying.For those who going real far like east Malaysia, bon voyage and remember me always.

Please give everyone a chance 2 study..education here is suxx

2006-06-26T23:26:00.001+08:00

Before i start my blog..i have ask myself am i look like a kid?Just now,an unkwon fellar shouted my name.So, i got near to the person.He is my ex PRIMARY schoolmate.Almost 10 years we didn't see each other.So the point is,how he remember me for such period?Is it my face didt change at all?Am i still look a kid.I don't think so.Maybe it is undeniable i really boyish.
Anyway, back to edcuation stuff.Education here is kinda scary.No matter how good your result is,nomatter how much effort you put for your exam, but in the end, you ust given a SMS which goes: Dukacita dimaklumkan anda tidak berjaya masuk ke IPTA.Thats what you get for your 2 years.I know it is logical to be rejected if your result really bad but ..this is the evidence.One of my friend who got GPCA(some sort of point from the exam) 3 ++ and really good in extra curricular,so she is offered fisheries which she didnt even apply.Then,got a case who a guy score 3.6++ and all he got is wood techno.What the heck is that?And most is sickening is the people who didnt get any offer.Do they deserve this?Are there not enough place for them?Or they got thier own hidden agenda?The places are reserved perhaps?come on,we need to rectify this problem.Goand do something..we voted for you guys
I hope i could see a day which every child in the world got thier basic education.Education should be given equally regardless of thier race,economical background and gender.I know this kinda misfortune still goin on in other country but i really do hope it wont happen here.

I'm gonna make u proud

2006-06-24T15:44:00.000+08:00

This is very tough.I at the crossroad again.My close ones are very afraid that i making a wrong decision and regret my whole life for rejecting the offer.Likewise from my friends,they encourage me to study what i really interested and make a significant career in the future.thank you so so much for the moral support.I already make the choice but yet still unable to materialize the option that i've made.So guys,just pray for me.
So, it's been awhile the result was out.3 of my ex classmates are going to UM ,i'm not quite sure who got medicine course.Quite number of them also like me, given a wrong course and wrong location.I wish you good luck for the appeal.Hope you guys get what u really want.For those who didnt get any offer at all, don't give up.Anywhere,alomost 10 person and counting in my class including me, reject the offer and study privately.Just go for it on whatever you do and whatever u interested.I 've got a friend who got an offer in UM but since it is a wrong course,she reject it.
Now my only problem is where i going to go and the clock is ticking..tick tuck...sigh...

What on earth?civil Engineering?

2006-06-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Guys,do you have any idea where is KUKTEM is?Please raise your hand.I guess many of you no idea it is.It is somewhere in Pahang.Yupe.The gov offered me civil engineering there.Apprently civil engineering is my 6'th or 7th choice.Okay wrong location and reluctant course.I don' even know there is such existance.My friends asked me" hey,what uni u got?' 'Kuktem" i answered.This is the most of thier answers: WHAT?WHERE IS THE UNI? One of my friend even worse.This was what she said:KUKTEM?Is the course they offered you?Dude,no where i going there.
Why like people close to me like throwing cold water at me and discourage me to do mass com.I do not like discouragement.Ok,you can give me an advice but hey,if you got opinion which is wrong channel with me,please let it out in a proper way.Honestly,i really no interest doing civil engineering although it has offer a bright future and $$$.This is not as my career.Sorry for being non realistic.I envisage career as something you interested in which with your ability and knowledge,you making your life more meaningfuland colourful.No idea what i saying huh?Is like you an hyperactive person and friendly person.Your dream is to be a radio deejay.But sadly,since the flow here is medicine is making loads of money and is a professional job..radio dj?nonsense and won't making a bright future.So you just go with the flow,ended up doing the things you don't like for your whole life.Is your life dude.You are responsible for it.Nobody can draw the blueprint for your future, only you can decide what you want for the future.I know career is related to money.But for me,moderation is the key.4 meals per day,a car and a house and power of purchasing is not a matter,it will be a satisfactory for me.The whopping money you've got in the pocket will mean nothing if you doing things you don't like.
I really wanna do what i really interested but now like everyone discourage me.How could this happen to me?

Time of My life

2006-06-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

My Own Idol

2006-06-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

Lately, boredom is just my subject of my day.Everyday i wake up,. the wored B.O.R.E.D just paste it on my forehead.The time right now i shall feel butterflies in my stomach for the next Friday which the result of the enrolment will be out.As i grow older, my character also having a major change.
Anyway, i applying some sort of scholarship which the chance that i obtain it is just tip of the iceberg.So,when come to essay part of the scholarship application,my mind is just big question mark on what i'm gonna answer.One of the question is: which historical person or prominent figure that you admire and why?I just don't know.I really have many people that i idolize but when it comes to this situation,i just can't burst it out.
Political figure?Pak Lah?Dr. M?I know there is a fiasco in the air between them but i guess Dr.M got the right to give his opinion.I don't think the people or the ministers so react like so extremely serious.Just look at developed nation, even the Prime Misnister or President criticized by his own cabinets or his party.I will label; this as transparency.Mr.Bush?For crying out loud,i will never idolized him.Til this day,what's the purpose of waging a war on Iraq.Just topple Saddam?Is any weapon of mass destruction there.I don't think so.This war like so fabricated and full of lies.Just get a dvd entitled Farenhit 9/11. This documentary is about the hidden agenda of his administration.Anyhow,i won't put political figure as the answer.Politic is just too fake for me.I want real thing!!
Warriors?Gosh, only warrior nowadays is the soldiers.Besides, i not even born when Napolean,Julius Caesar,Alexander the Greg,Genghis Khan and etc were holding thier swords in the battlefield.So,warriors are too ancient.
Entrepreneur?Businessman?I really don't know much about this stuff.I just know the making whopping sum of money.Bill Gates?Well,he's kinda okay for me.Though he is freaking rich but he has done lots of charity deeds.Good on you.Our own Malaysian Tony Fernandez also not bad.The brainchild of Air Asia.What about the Genting founder?Yeah,i do respect him as he from a humble beginning from just piece of forest on the peak on a mountain till like city in the sky.But sorry dude,i just hate Genting.I guess for the next 5 years,i won't go there.Thanks to my ex.....I don;t think these people deserved to be my respected figure cause i don't know which way where they inspire.They only taught me perseverance.I don't want my respected figure something to do with thier money.I want someone down to earth.
Celebraties?Well,close but not.I do respect people with thier talent and substance.Especially the singers who can write thier songs and play music instruments.Like Teddy Gieger,John Mayer and Lee Hom.Our own Daniel Lee also not bad,decent,know numerous of musical instrument,humble.By the way,i just love guys who can play piano.I know is sound gayish.But it just kills me when a young handsome guy play piano in front of me.Thats what i call sexy.Just imagine lee hom playing the piano in frotn of you.I',m sure the gurlz will feel weak on thier kness.I also love the rock bands.They are awesome like Keane, the Killers and so on.Above of all,the most i prefer and i worship is The Beatles.This is not outdated.Thier lyrics are awesome.They are simply inspiring even til today. But sadly,they were disband before i born.I can't really feel their heyday in the 60's.Speaking words of wisdom: let it be.
Alright,alright.Too much blogging.Well, when people ask about who is my idol or the person i respected the most.Parents?Thats too general.Teachers?No comment.My lover?Well,she is more than an idol for me hehe.But one person popped up in my mind which is Oprah Winfrey.This lady here is down to earth,brilliant, smart, humble,young at heart,charitable,billionaire and so much more-she is like angel in disguise.I can;t really tell you how she inspires me.Though many people will say i like a woman watching her show but you try to watch her show is life related and many many lesson can be learnt through her show.She is way too generous.I like her Wildest Dreams' programme.Giving the houses and even decoreted for the poor.Giving the audience each and everyone a brand new car, utmost concern for the victims of natural disasters like Katrina.Just watch her show and you will know what i trying to say and you will know how inspiring she is.Here are some quotes by her,just simply meaningful:

My philosophy is that not only are you responsible for your life, but doing the best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment.
Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right
The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams.
Be more splendid, more extraordinary. Use every moment to fill yourself up.
You are built not to shrink down to less but to blossom into more.
Let your light shine. Shine within you so that it can shine on someone else. Let your light shine.
believe that [everyone] is the keeper of a dream - and by tuning into one another's secret hopes, we can become better friends, better partners, better parents, and better lovers
Before you agree to do anything that might add even the smallest amount of stress to your life, ask yourself: What is my truest intention? Give yourself time to let a yes resound within you. When it's right, I guarantee that your entire body will feel it.
Challenges are gifts that force us to search for a new center of gravity. Don't fight them. Just find a different way to stand.
The key to realizing a dream is to focus not on success but significance - and then even the small steps and little victories along your path will take on greater meaning
It is confidence in our bodies, minds and spirits that allows us to keep looking for new adventures, new directions to grow in, and new lessons to learn - which is what life is all about

My love, she throws me like a rubber ball

2006-06-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

Actually i wanna blog below the unwritten video bu then due to the website techincal problem,i can't.Anyway, this song is kinda great ,though you rarely hear it in Malaysia but is a huge hit in US.
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you Open up the dirty window Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance So close you can almost taste it Release your innovations Feel the rain on your skin No one else can feel it for you Only you can let it in No one else, no one else Can speak the words on your lips Drench yourself in words unspoken Live your life with arms wide open Today is where your book begins The rest is still unwritten .............
That's kinda my situation,my atmosphere or should i say the theme song of the moment now.I can put it into my soon -studies life and my love life.
In few weeks time i'm gonna live Ipoh and begin a new chapter somewhere.Yet, the destination is still unfolded but keep my finger crossed i've got offer in Kay-el.Why?I've got loads of friends there even the friends there are more than Ipoh.So, you know the reason why that i always hang out with the same perosn here in Ipoh.Besides, i guess someone is waiting for me there.Nevertheless,the quality of universities there are remarkable.Fear and excitement still is the subject of the day for me as now is really the time i have to go for veyr long time.But, i'll take it with open arms and as a challenge.Just bring it on.
So,my love life.this lovey dovey thing,kinda sweet actually.Though both of us still havent committed and officially declare to be couple but i can really see good things in us.It is way too fast to commit but i really hope one day i could call you dear.My eyesight won't be bad and i'm sure i wont find a wrong person again.Well, you may feel that:Alvin?So fast you've got target?Yeah i know is fast but love i slike a chance for me.I won't let go when the love comes.What about my ex?No need worry about her.I guess she is happier and having a fantastic life without me.Anyway, i wish her all the best but we're still friends rite?I still concern about her.
Next,sometimes i really puzzled what she trying to say; having the happiest moment of my life.Well, i'm not happy till can jump on the bed like a mad man but then i really feel sweet.I feel excited and my heart was like pierced by the cupid's arrow.I miss you very very much.

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2006-06-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

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2006-06-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

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Beautiful Girl

2006-06-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

Beautiful girl, wherever you areI knew when I saw you, you had opened the doorI knew that I'd love again after a long, long whileI'd love again.You said "hello" and I turned to goBut something in your eyes left my heart beating soI just knew that I'd love again after a long, long whileI'd love again.It was destiny's gameFor when love finally came onI rushed in line only to findThat you were gone.Whenever you are, I fear that I mightHave lost you forever like a song in the nightNow that I've loved again after a long, long whileI've loved again.It was destiny's gameFor when love finally came onI rushed in line only to findThat you were gone.Beautiful girl, I'll search on for you'Til all of your loveliness in my arms come trueYou've made me love again after a long, long whileIn love againAnd I'm glad that it's youHmm, beautiful girl.
Nice lyric eh? When you hear this song,it even more awesome.The singer is Jose Mari Chan.I'm not kidding.This the name of the singer.I love this song very very much especially a time like this.This special kind of feeling won't seem to go.Is gonna be one week soon.The feeling rite now is sweet but longing of something.Something which doesnt not have the answer.I really wish you could make the most.I really looking forward in you...I really wish i'm the beautiful girl in the song...Just keep my finger crossed that i will be close to you.

Love Is In The air?

2006-06-05T15:36:00.000+08:00

I should blog about 666 today but my mind is keep on thinking something else.I've got this special kinda feeling.I don't know what it is.It is weird.I just can't stop thinking about it.I know is not there but i feeling it.I really don't have adequate of sleep becoz of this cause it just pop up in my mind.Whats wrong wit me?But this kinda of situation is awefully awesome.It does cheer me up...
Lately, i like to hymm some songs especially 'if Ain't got You'.Isn't this song lovely and meaningful especially you know the meaning of it.Like this phrase:Some people live just to play the game.Sometimes,i think love is just a game..You have to know the way to play to reach your goal and abide the rules at all time.Once the rule is broken,the hell go with you.Thats what i lesson i learn.But anywhere, i'm not oloking for that game love.I want the true and unconditional love.
Some people think that the physical thingsDefine what's withinI've been there beforeBut that life's a boreSo full of the superficial.I've seen many people including my friends which worship materialism.Can't satisfy what they've got and envy about people's possession.Yup,i admit i being that loser before but it just silly.Living in life in moderation,that is the best way.
Some people need three dozen rosesAnd that's the only way to prove you love them.Love for me need not 24/7 to be pleased.I mean do not have to do sweet love all time like saying how much you love me or miss me but sometimes need to say also if not,i will scare you really don't love me.How to prove the way you love me?Just be yourself and take me to become your soul companion,your life partner.You those spiritual aspect those stuff.Hard 2 explain.
Some people want it allBut I don't want nothing at allIf it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you babySome people want diamond ringsSome just want everythingBut everything means nothingIf I ain't got you...Why i blogging this stuff?!Am i in love?But is way too fast.If the time comes,why not....
To elansangelmir,thanks for your comment.The song is Goodbye my Lover by James Blunt.

Me?Faithless?

2006-06-03T23:40:00.000+08:00

I know i shouldn't feel like this.I just can't help it.I'm not that cheerful Alvin anymore.I really miss that Alvin.I feel myself have fallen.Love is one of the reason but the surronding and the situation are other factors.I got ambition and dreams but i feel like pessimistic...My pathway is very very hazey like distracted by mist.I don't know what to do,maybe i just keep holdtight my faith.

Goodbye my lover

2006-06-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

I know is no where we gonna restart everything for now.We really got a lot of problems between us,seems no way to resolve it.Maybe separation is the best way,maybe you will better without me.Maybe you will become free like a bird.Maybe you will find someone better than me.I guess lighting won't strike twice at the same place,so i hope you will find better than me.I hope that person won't bring calamity or sorrow for you.What about me?I stil think of you but your ignorance is making my left over love faded away.Ignorance is not bliss for me.I hate that.But i hope someday soon,i'll get the chance to meet you for very last time for time being.I hope we still friends.Futhermore,i don't mind treat you as my own brother as i still very concern about you.
In future,if we both single,i don't mind you to become my lover again.I really saw the beauty in this universe when i'm with you.I really do.Thank you..i''ll be your side whenever you need me.Like the S Club 7 songs which is your favourite song....Everybody's got something they had to leave behindOne regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with timeThere's no use looking back or wonderingHow it could be now or might have beenOh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you knowI've never had a dream come trueTill the day that I found youEven though I pretend that I've moved onYou'll always be my babyI never found the words to sayYou're the one I think about each dayAnd I know no matter where life takes me toA part of me will always be with youSomewhere in my memoryI've lost all sense of timeAnd so my road can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mindThere's no use looking back or wonderingHow it could be now or might have beenOh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Besdies that song,here is james blunt for you.....Did I disappoint you or let you down?Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.So I took what's mine by eternal right.Took your soul out into the night.It may be over but it won't stop there,I am here for you if you'd only care.You touched my heart you touched my soul.You changed my life and all my goals.And love is blind and that I knew when,My heart was blinded by you.I've kissed your lips and held your head.Shared your dreams and shared your bed.I know you well, I know your smell.I've been addicted to you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I am a dreamer but when I wake,You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.And as you move on, remember me,Remember us and all we used to beI've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.I've watched you sleeping for a while.I'd be the father of your child.I'd spend a lifetime with you.I know your fears and you know mine.We've had our doubts but now we're fine,And I love you, I swear that's true.I cannot live without you.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.And I still hold your hand in mine.In mine when I'm asleep.And I will bear my soul in time,When I'm kneeling at your feet.Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

TomorrOw will Be June

2006-05-31T22:11:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be the last month i'll be in ipoh...i'll be move on to somewhere for my studies.I still not sure where i going but please dun give me somewhere secluded like Kedah or Sabah.I rather boiled alive then.Anywhere, i not sure how to use these 30 days plus.Do the things that havent done?I wish to do that but the person doesn't wanna meet me at all,not even answering my call.How great.I hate people ignoring me.
Thats one of the things i have to do.Beside that,i really need to reload my wardrobe as my clothes are getting dusty and i don't really feel wanna wear it anymore.I guess i'm gonna buy tonnes of new clothes for next month ,futhermore i didnt really buy any shirt for CNY.Sadly,i have to take care of the budget also.
Besides that, i planning 2 have a low scaled class reunion.I know it won't really work as quite a number of them really gone...gone...gone to private colleges.I really miss them actually.Those days in the school.
Somewhere middle of the month, some sort of anniversary celebration gonna be held here.Some of the celebraties will be coming include one of my favourite local singer.Hopefully i could meet him as he is my close friend's close friend's close friend's..some kinda third degree of friend.I do respect him for his talent.Don't worry.I won't fall for his charm.
Holiday?Hopefully i can go travelling somewhere but sadly the people didnt turn up.So,thats what left of me.Alone.Just,anry and sad but i really improve these few days.
Anywhere,chat with my friend in msn.I asked her,life pretty boring when you don't have aim or dream.I'm not totally lost actually,still know what i want,i mean my dream sort of things,but now is still too far.But i won't let go.I wil be Mr. Somebody one day who everyone respects me,adores me and idolize me.Hell yeah i'm gonna reach for that.

The Old Shoe is Gone,now Is the New one

2006-05-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

I don't mean that my lover is gone,then i got new lover.Thats wrong.I'm still unofficially single.What i trying to say is my sandal stolen for the third time damn it.Well, in the sense of metaphor,the freaking dirtbag stolen my old shoe in which now he is the one who in my old shoe which carries series of unfortunate events; lover left me, all the sweet promises broken, fallen sick regularly and the list goes on.Now,i got my brand new shoe, i'm in my brand new shoes,i hope it will be bring betterment,happiness and above of all, love luck for me.
What i have been doing lately?Movie of cause.I watched Over The Hedge over the weekend.It was great.The cat in the animation is simply hilarious.By the way,although i'm already 20,i guess is nothing wrong to watch animation.At least i'm entertained.

One in A million.....

2006-05-27T14:51:00.000+08:00

Basically,i'm a couch potato.I would spend my so called free time in front of tv regardless of exam or the clouds are falling.Wathcing tv is far more better than playingc games,dota or watsoever.Games are addictive,wasting time and money as well.
Anywhere, The one in a million talent show kicked off yesterday.There is so much similarities between this show and Malaysian Idol in the audition round.First of all, Paul Moss is the judge,again.Then,they gonna be 12 finalists and the viewers at home can vote for them.Sounds fimiliar huh?Maybe i'm kinda idol fan,so this show looks like a copy cat for me.I'm afraid,they gonna cancel the Malaysian Idol this year.If wasn;t, we gonna watch the almost repeated one in a million again as things are kinda same.I hope the next round and the elimination method is different.By the way,i only knew that Marion can speak Malay.
Lastly,i still lost in love.Somebody help me.I need a saviour!!!

Hung Up

2006-05-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

You know that after all what had happened to me, i can't really describe my feeling to her now.Sad,disappointment and anger;all these just come at the same time and hit on your face.I can't really wake me up.I need some potion 2 get rid of this.I know indulge myself with friends is one of the alternative to vanish my sadness but it only works for me temporary.I tell myself that if she left me,probably i will find better than her in the future.But i really saw the best when i with her.I don't know what i'm doing.I know is time to let go but i can't do it.Though she kinda cruel to me now but then,i still can't forget her.If iever fell in love with someone,i might scare it is unfair to the new lover.I know the new is sound promising and can bring me happiness but the former lover of mine,it still in myheart.Anyway,i shouldn't be worry about this problem as nobody had approach me so far.Well,i'm not a handsome guy nor a sweet speakin guy..so...i'm still unofficially single.
i'm not really broke up in my view.If really does,i won't behaving like this.Maybe the situation is like the Madonna's song: hung up:Esp the verse:waiting for your call night and day and i fed up..
Anywhere,today is American Idol's finale.I don't know which is my favourite:Taylor really got his style and when he sings,it just makes people stand up on thier feet.My favourtie performance of him is "live on".It just nice when you are down,the these nice words it just feel comfy.Apart from Taylor,Katherine cannot be left aside too.She is not my favourite but this girl really can sings.When she sings the classical ' Somewhere Over the Rainbow' without any background music,she sings like an angel.Not again,please i'm sick of love but i have to blog this:I really wish my loved one can sing,no ,whisper this song to me before i sleep.Cuddling on the bed and this song in the atmosphere,it just awesome but things are not the same now.

Da vinci Code

2006-05-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

So,saturday night i finally watch this movie.Thank god, i watched documentary about this movie in National Geographic and Discovery, so i wont be lost while i watching this movie.Though,i'm kinda lost about why Teabing had to be so cruel but i more interested in those secrets and codes matter.

A picture tells a thousand words.Like the picture of " the LASt Supper".Is there any code inside?I'm not sure.But i believe that there is no significant of a "V' sign between Jesus and Mary Mag(John?).But i really curious that from forgotten sources,in some point, you could really see MAry really lies on Jesus arm.What about the holy grail?Why there is a mysterious hand with a knife on a guy third form the left...Is the second guy from the right is Leonardo Da Vinci himself?This da vinci Code things has many intriguing mysterious like Is Priory oF sion exists?

I guess is no point i blogging about the content of this movie/book withoutwatching or reading it.Anyway,i guess people should be open minded about this issue.Just uphold tight your faith,it wil be okay.but what happened if it is true...ooooooo...guess gonna be a big changes of the foundation of this religion.

Why my blogging getting bored..but i really bored blogging about my love stuff.Just find myself that i really well comprehend the true meaning of love fool/

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